A/N: Hmmm… I was debating whether to post this or not but then when I went to re read it; IT WAS GONE!!! It had one of those funky non letter tfont things and it wouldn't let me change it! And if you knew me you'd know I was terrible with computers so I almost cried! Turns out I was on the wrong program… Bella+talking-Jacob=Edward…or does it?

Bella's P.O.V.

Emerging slowly from the darkness, like an apparition found only in the dreams of the troubled, Jacob appeared bleakly before me. At first he was hesitant, appearing almost unsure of his surroundings. My heart panged despite the fact that it was Jacob standing before me I couldn't help but think of Edward, as he had stood in the same place once before with the weight of sorrow tugging at his brow. The contrast was startling.

"Hey Bells," he whispered so silently, choking on his own words, so much in fact that if it hadn't been for the seemingly tangible silence I never would've been able to hear his uttered lament. This was a side of Jacob Black I had never seen. He seemed so fragile it almost brought me to tears seeing him so broken up over what I had done. He seemed so small. Seeing him seemingly so frail I choked back the tears. The contrast of this almost breakable Jacob in comparison to the cocky, carefree…happy Jacob I had always known brought pain to my heart.

As he almost weakly stumbled forward I looked away to hide the tears that he was sure to see even in the thick darkness noticeably blackened by the opaqueness of the sadness that had filled this room for as long as I had been aware of myself, no matter how much pretending my family of vampires tried to ensue. That was what I had always loved about Jacob he was always utterly and completely real with me no matter what the circumstance. We had shared everything…

Almost as if to reassure me of my thoughts, Jacob sped his trudge to my side. As his knees hit the ground the floodgates burst forth.

"OHHHHH BELLA!" he moaned into my mattress. His lament exclaimed with such emotion that even the sheets now surrounding his face did little to muffle Jacob's anguished cry. "Stupid Sam! If only I had went cliff diving with you! OH this never should've happened. I could've just become Alphka-ahh-" he stopped there and began coughing as though he was choking on the very words pouring freely from his mouth.

Dropping his head to the styrofoam-like pillow with a dull thud, he broke into harsh sobs causing my tears to flow that much harder. I looked down into the messed tufts of his onyx colored hair and knew that this could not continue. These sacrifices he was having to make for a relationship that we didn't even have, had to stop. These were not the kinds of things a boy his age would do for someone who was only a "friend."

"Jake…," his eyes flashed to mine with almost vampiric speed. It was as though he had just realized that I was even here. Although the harsh black waters of his turmoiled eyes pierced through my very soul, I did every thing I could not to look into them. For if I would allow that of myself, it was sure to be my breaking point. I looked to the white speckled ceiling hoping that in its aged crevaces I could find an answer. Nothing came from either it or my own thoughts no matter how hard I concentrated….nothing.

I took a deep breath to steady myself. Could this be real? My throat constricted as I realized that now was the time I would finally have to break his heart. Jacob, my sun, my solace, my Jacob would soon come to end…. The realization of what was to come dropped like a stone in my stomach. I was making myself sick. He was so innocent… and then he died!

A/N: JUST KIDDING! I know, I know it isn't near finished,but with soccer, my Spanish contest and 3 major projects I haven't had much time lately. BUT DON'T THINK THIS WILL BE LIKE LAST TIME! What I did to those of you who cared last time was selfish and unfair…sorry… But, there's an upside to all of this! THE PROJECTS ARE DONE I GOT SECOND IN THE SPANISH COMPETITION…which means… THERE DONE!!! I won't be as busy lately which can only mean more updates right? Please guys I know its not done, but review? I might not deserve it but, I'm willing to wager with you… 10 reviews and I swear on everything important in my life that I will update on Friday no matter what! I am 100% serious! Say whatever you want ! You can tell me your opinions, predictions, dislikes, likes, or you can be like Edward and just talk about the weather(and we all want to do anything to be closer to him. Am I right) ANYTHING! Honestly I just want to know that people are reading this and that they care, so if 'ya do please review! He he ryme..