This story came to me randomly when I was bored in school today :D I hope no one will be pissed at me for writing this and not updating my other stories :) I'm working on updating them soon. I just had to get this idea out of my head. C:

Rating: M for fluff and smut

couple: ICHIRUKI :3

Sorry for any spellings/grammar mistakes I was to lazy to proofread lol :)

I DO NOT OWN BLEACH ;__;

By IchiRuki-Obsessed

Chapter 1: Love?

Rukia hated herself and she told herself just that, over and over again as she lay sobbing in her room she shared with Ichigo's younger sisters. She was just glade both girls were sleeping over at a friends house.

"How could I say that to him...?" she asked herself softly through her tears. She could still see the heart broken look on his face in the back of her mind.

"I'm such a bad person," she muttered into her pillow. It happened hours ago but the pain in her heart wasn't subsiding.

"He opened up to me and I broke his heart," she whispered recalling the day's events.

-Flashback-

The two shimigami had just returned to Ichigo's room after hollow hunting.

"Wow, that was so boring," Ichigo sighted sitting down on his bed.

"Fool, don't let her guard down," Rukia huffed sitting down next to him.

"Yeah, yeah, I know. I'm just sayin' that was one hell of a boring kill. It took more time to find it then to kill it, it was just plain pathetic."

" I have to admit, they have been weak lately," Rukia began, deep in thought, "Must be related to Aizen's death in the war," she finished, Ichigo nodding at her logic.

"Well it's better that they're weak then really strong," she stated with a smile.

"....I guess," he mumbled looking away from her with pink checks.

"Lets get working on our school work," Rukia sighed grabbing her notebook and starting on her math homework; Ichigo doing the same shortly after. After the while the silence was getting to Ichigo, so he broke it,

"Rukia...?"

"Hmmm?" she managed, not looking up.

"What happened to the espada you fought in Hueco Mondo?" Rukia snapped her eyes over to Ichigo and stared at him for a moment before replying,

"What about it?"

"Well...you never said much about it..." the teen replied.

"I defeated it, I would think that would be obvious." she said in a tone that clearly said she thought this conversation was pointless and that he was a moron.

"Yeah....it's just I...I felt your spirit energy drop to a dangerous level..."he whispered.

"And?" she asked raising her small eyebrow.

"Well..." he trailed off before answering, "I was worried" he managed; ignoring the hot blush that covered his face. her eyes softened at the statement before she quickly looked away.

"You don't need to worry about me, I'm a big girl. If I died it would be my own fault" she stated coldly.

"No."

"What?" she asked in confusion.

"No...no I cant, 'cus I can't help but worry about you. If anything ever happened to you...." he trailed off looking at her with sad eyes. She was going to comment but he started talking once again,

"If anything happened to you, my life would be boring as all hell." he stated with a snicker as he continued,

"My life without you would be like....a night without the moon....it would be dark and unsettling. So you better not die on me munchkin" he said with a smile. she was stunned.

"Stop with your bullshit Ichigo, your saying you wouldn't be able to live without me...we both know you wouldn't care if I left," she stated with a cold look.

"Why don't youstop with your bullshit Rukia" He growled.

"I don't know what your talking about," she said folding her arms across her chest.

"Just stop with the 'emotion are meaningless' shit. You know I meant what I said. Just like I mean when I say this; I would die for you in a second." the orange-headed man said with a stern look.

"Don't say that..." she whispered looking at her feet.

"And why the hell not? It's true," he replied.

"Because I'm not worth spilling blood over," she whispered not looking at him. then she felt something warm on her face; Ichigo's hand that was gently turning her face to face him.

"That's not true..." he whispered rubbing her check softly with his thumb. Rukia was confused; she wanted to push his hand away and call him a pervert but...it felt nice...

"Y-yes it is..." she managed trying not to blush at the close contact; failing horribly.

"Am I gonna have to convince you...?" he asked bring his mouth closer to hers. She bushed deeper at what he was implying but refused to let him win.

"You won't be able to convince me," she replied softly, smirking some.

"Well lets test it..." he muttered before crashing his lips her hers. her eyes widened, then fell closed as she began to kiss him back. She began to mumble something, but it soon filtered into a whimper. Ichigo moaned in response pulling her closer to him; wrapping his arms around her frame, pressing her to him. In resoponse, Rukia wrapped her arms around the strawberries neck; her hands getting tangled in his orange locks.

"Ichi....go" she said between kisses. Ichigo knew what she was saying; 'stop now or I don't think I will be able to control myself' he only knew that because that's what his own mind was telling him. The thing was, he wasn't sure he wanted to stop.

"Ich...i...go" she managed again a few minutes after the first. He deepened the kiss in order to silence her.

' I don't want it to end yet' he though running his hands up and down her sides. After a few more seconds Rukia pried her lips away from his. Resting her forehead against his as she panted for breath; her eyes still closed.

"D...did I...c..convince you..?" he asked panting as well. She wanted to reply,to say anything but she couldn't speak. her mouth was dry, her heart was racing and she felt like she was about to faint from all the emotions running threw her head.

"...I...I love you Rukia," her eyes snapped open, his ember eyes looking back at her violet ones. She moved off the bed and stood in front of him; a few feet in between them.

"W...what?" she asked, shocked.

"I do..." he said, his eyebrows knocking together at the fact she was standing just out of arms reatch. All he wanted to do was reach out to her a finish what he started; to make her his. He noticed her eyes where hidden behind her bangs as she replied,

"No" she said just above a whisper. His eyes grewing a little bit wide.

"No? what do you mean no?" he asked, confused.

"No, as in, this can't, we can't" she said not looking at him.

"Why not?!" he asked almost angry that she could even say something like that at a time like this.

"Whatever feelings you feel for me...get rid of them," she said staring at the ground.

"W-why...? I lov-"

"And I don't feel the same!" she screamed looking up at him with tears in her eyes. And, at that very moment she could swear she saw his heat break.

".....But.....Rukia...." he said as he felt his eyes tearing up himself.

"...I can't get rid of how I feel....I love you with all my soul," he said trying to hold back his tears and look strong.

"Ichigo....I...I'm sorry" she said as she turned on her heals and made her way out of his room.

"Rukia! wait-"

"Don't follow me!" she interrupted as she slammed her bedroom door shut.

-End of Flashback-

"It's for the best. soul society would never allow it. He might be half shimigami but hes still half human. A human and a noble shimigami....it could easily be against the law. If I keep telling myself it's to protect him...it hurts a little less" she whispered to herself. For some reason, she couldn't stop crying. she curls up into the fetal position as more tears run down her face.

Would it hurt less if I didn't love him...? she thought, whipping her eyes. I know for a fact I love him...damn it I feel so weak. Its all Ichigo's fault. If he never told me all thoses things...like him loving me, everything would still be the same; both of us just pretending we don't have feelings for each other. The way it always been.

"I'm so sorry," she muttered into her pillow once again.

I love you too Ichigo....

(A/N) Please don't stab me! *hides behind Kenpatchi* I know it's a sad story and all fellow ichiruki fans are like "what the hell!? Rukia would never do that!" and blah blah blah....I thought that too until I thought about it. Rukia always puts Ichigo first in the episodes so why not in this situation? and maybe Soul Society does have a law...like that...I really hope they don't :(

and yes a lot of OOC but I think, in this situation, it calls for it. :D

I will only update if you want another chapter. Which I have no clue what it's gonna be about...but will see what comes to me :D ideas are welcomed and thank you for taking the time out to read this...I know its not that good but I try. Also sorry for spelling mistakes I'm just to lazy to re read it soooo yeah sorry again. XD

-IchiRuki-Obsessed