A/N: Hello! I would like to point out that this is the last chapter, but isn't really a chapter. I've made this not-chapter to be the letters Samantha wrote to everyone, before she died and I thought it would be cool or something, to know what was said. I hope ya'll enjoy this not-chapter and as always R&R! Thanx!

Warning: This will be a really long.....

--Forty Three--

--Letters, Letters, Everywhere!--

Reid:

"Hey Reid,

This wasn't supposed to happen. Me not being here. But it's life, things change, and everything can fall apart at a moments notice. Now that I'm gone, I don't want you to think I didn't care about or for you. I really did. After me and Jax went to Ipswich, me and you talked, and after we started hanging out more, I started falling for you all over again. I'm sorry I'm telling you this now, but this would probably be the only chance I get. Reid, I want you to teach our son right from wrong and teach him how to treat and respect a woman. I know he'll probably get... you know. Don't let him abuse it. Let Charlie know that Mommy loved him as much as I could, from the moment I found out he was in my stomach, and don't let him forget me. If you end up getting married or have a girlfriend, then I hope you're happy. I hope both you and Charlie are happy. I'm not here anymore and I want you to move on. Believe me, I'm okay with that. I bet you $5.00, that Charlie is going to look exactly like you- blonde hair and blue eyes. He will look so beautiful. Also, I have not forgot about our movie: 27 Dresses and I hope you don't forget it either. I'm going to go for now, maybe one day we can meet again.

I love you- Sam."

Chuck:

"Hey Mr. I'm-Chuck-Bass,

I'm writing this, because I don't know what's going to happen to me. But if you are reading this, then like my doctors told me- I didn't make it. I know we'd fight and argue all the time, causing my blood pressure to go up, but putting me in this position, wasn't your fault. Listen to me. Don't you ever blame yourself, none of this was your fault, it was me who already had this condition. So please don't blame yourself. Chuck, we've been friends for a long time and ultimately I fell in love with you. Why were we fighting all the time? I was so hurt to the point where I didn't even want to be around you and that's why I didn't see you towards the end. I don't want you to be mad or upset that I want to name my little boy after you. Even if, say he was yours, I'd still want to name him 'Charlie' regardless. I don't want you to shun him either. He may not be yours, but will he always and forever be a part of me. I didn't know or think this would happen, but it did and I left you and Reid two beautiful gifts to remember me by. I want you to teach Emily right from wrong, teach her manners, and not to be or act like a spoiled brat. I know, she'll be spolied by everyone that loves her, but I don't want my daughter to act stuck up either. Don't let Emily forget about me, let her know that I loved her as long as I could and the same goes with Charlie. When my lawyer discusses my will with everyone, he's going to give you an envelope. It's from Bart. He gave it to me the night before he died. He wanted to give it to you, but he never got the chance. To my surprise, he left me some things in a seperate will. So discuss that with my lawyer. This is by far the hardest letter I had to write, because it's hard for me to say goodbye to you and I don't even want to. You were my best friend, lover, and now the father of one of my children. I love you, Chuck with all my heart. Don't you ever forget that. For everything that went wrong between us. Every fight we got into. Every arguement... I completely forgive you. The last thing is, I want you to know that it's okay to move on. You should find someone and be happy. Aside from the rich factor, you're a wonderful man with a good and kind heart. Any girl would be foolish not to be with you, falling for your charm. Just be careful who you're with and make sure they're good enough for our little girl. She deserves the best, because I'm not able to give it to her. Take care of yourself and our baby girl.

I love you so much- Sam"

Jax:

"Hey Jax,

I'm sorry we had a falling out and wasn't able to work it out somehow. I had a feeling you were mad at me or something, because I didn't come clean and mention to you about the miscarriage to you after it happened. That was always my greatest fear, you hating me because I caused it to happen. Jax, you were my first love and even though both of us moved on, I never once forgot about that. I want you to do me a huge favor and not do anything to Chuck. I know what he did was wrong and unforgivable, but since I won't be here to protect him from you, my daughter needs him more than ever and I'm sure he needs her as well. This is not what I wanted for my kids, but unfortunately it did and now they're going to live their lives without their mother that loved them so much. Well, life doesn't turn out the way you want it, but you can't stop what's supposed to happen. Remember me, Jax and remember that I'll always love you like I always have, Okay? Oh and would you be careful riding your motorcycle, those things can be dangerous. Goodbye, Jax.

I love you- Sam"

Marty:

"Hey Buddy,

I'm going to miss the hell out of you. You're the best limo driver in the world and you're a wonderful man as well. I'm glad that Emma and Alan chose you to be their trusted limo driver. I trusted you with everything I had and you never once failed me. Marty, while I'm gone, I want you to some how be a part of Charlie and Emily's life. They deserve to know you and know how much of a kind and thoughtful person you are. They're going to love you, just like I do. Now on to serious things, everyone told me how you were when I left for those three months and I know you were upset and even though I won't be coming back this time, I'm begging you to not go down that road again. You have a family that loves and needs you. Please don't put them through that pain that you could possibly cause them. Take care of yourself, your family, and don't forget to smile.

I love you dude- Miss Dawson"

Caleb, Pogue, Tyler, and Reid:

"The Sons of Ipswich,

I'm going to start off saying, Caleb don't get mad. I know all about you guys and I swear I didn't tell anyone. Reid told me first, then Tyler accidently let it slip when he was telling me about Nate. So I swore I wouldn't tell, kept my word, and still haven't told anyone. I think the phrase 'taking it to your grave' fits appropirately. So please don't be mad. I'm glad that Reid told me and now I know that Charlie has like a destiny or birthright to fulfill, and it's good to know what's in store for my little boy. So, Caleb don't be upset with them. You're a great guy and I'm going to miss you. Be good to Sarah, I think she's really good for you and the both of you belong together. Pogue, I want you to take care of Blair. She is one of my best friends and I know she is going to take this the hardest, so she's going to need you to be there for her. You're a great guy and I know you'll take care of her the way she deserves. But if you don't I'm coming back to haunt you. Joking. If I didn't land in Ipswich, if Tyler and Nate weren't twin brothers, and if I wouldn't have slept with both Chuck and Reid, resulting in two beautiful babies... you and Blair probably never would have met, so it looks like me and fate brought the both of you together. You're welcome. Tyler, I'm kind of glad that it turned out, you and Nate being twins. Both of you have that good guy quality and do not change for nobody. I know Reid is your best friend, so I want you to do me a favor. Please keep an eye on Reid and make sure he doesn't do anything reckless, he has our son to take care of. Okay? Thanks buddy. And Reid, everything I have to say to you is in your own letter. Guys, I want you all to take care of each other and live long and happy lives. I'll miss you.

I love you all- Sam"

Lily and Rufus:

"Mommy and Daddy,

Sorry, I couldn't resist. I want both of you to know that I'm glad I got to know you as my parents towards the end. I've always loved you like you were anyway. Just thank Sarah for letting me know. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you or anyone else about my condition. It was just one more thing added to the list to worry about. But I'm sorry I had to leave you so soon. You have two beautiful grandchildren to remember me and they're going to be lucky to have the both of you in their lives. Dad, I'm truly sorry for leaving you so abruptly... twice. I hope you forgive me for leaving this time. I love you. Mom, I know you had your reasons for giving me to Emma and Alan. I'm kind of glad you did. They were really good to me and you were selfless giving them a special gift and I understand that now. I can imagine it was really hard for you to do, but you did what you thought was best for me. Thank you. Now I want both of you to know something and I should have mentioned to sooner, but never got the chance. Mom, I'm sorry but I don't know how much you love CeCe and I know she's your mother and she gave you life and I don't know how much this will hurt you or if you will even believe me, but you should have a right to know. Okay, here it goes. I've known CeCe to be a vile old bat, but what she was trying to do was really low, even for her. She has came to me quite a few times, telling me I was your mistake and you should have aborted me instead of giving me to Emma and Alan. Plus she tried to buy me out of here, meaning: she was going to give me any amount of money I wanted to leave New York and never come back. She's told me I was never a van der Woodsen and I never will be. I know how she operates and if you confront her with it, you and I and everyone else knows that she'll either deny it and/or lie about it. I'm telling you the truth. So don't let her stand there and tell you something different. And as your daughter, I need you to trust me on this and ask Dan. I told him all about it and he's the only one I told. Don't be upset with me, I just thought you had a right to know what was going on. On a happier note, I want both of you to know that I love you both so much and I'm going to miss you dearly. Take care of each other as well as my babies, my brothers, and sisters.

Love always, your little girl- Hannah"

Serena:

"Hey Little Sis,

I can't believe this happened to me, and I'm sorry, but I don't regret giving you two beautiful godchildren in the process. I love you S. I know that you're a stong and calm woman, so I know you will be there to help everyone through this. Even though I didn't find out you were my sister till later, growing up I already loved you like a sister. Okay now... I'm telling you, Blair, and Nate the same exact thing and here it goes. Please for the love of God, keep an eye on Chuck. I know he loves me and is going to be extremely effected by this, but I don't want him to go into the deep end, and not be able to come out of it. He needs to be there for Emily and she needs to be his number one priority and he needs to not think about himself anymore. I know in my heart, he'll do the best he can for her, but this is Chuck we're talking about and we all know he's capable of anything. Overall, I also know in my heart that he'll love, take care, and protect her the way she should be. I also know the three of you will help him any way you can. I love you guys and your godchildren will love you as well. Remember S, I love you and take care of yourself.

Love, your big sister- Sam"

Nate:

"Hey Mr. Archibald,

Wow, you were right about a lot of things. You knew I'd get caught when I cheated on that test in the 5th grade. You knew I'd catch the flu when me and Chuck playing in the rain and snow with our hair wet. You knew I was in love with Chuck when I didn't want to believe it. And you think you weren't probably sure, but you some how knew about the twins having two different dads. Nate, you probably know more about me than I do myself. You were one of my best friends, you were always there for me, and regardless who I was with or who I fell in love with- you Nathaniel Archibald was my soul mate, and I'm so glad I had you in my life. Okay now... I'm telling you, Blair, and Serena the same exact thing and here it goes. Please for the love of God, keep an eye on Chuck. I know he loves me and is going to be extremely effected by this, but I don't want him to go into the deep end, and not be able to come out of it. He needs to be there for Emily and she needs to be his number one priority and he needs to not think about himself anymore. I know in my heart, he'll do the best he can for her, but this is Chuck we're talking about and we all know he's capable of anything. Overall, I also know in my heart that he'll love, take care, and protect her the way she should be. I also know the three of you will help him any way you can. I love you guys and your godchildren will love you as well. I'm going to miss you so much.

I love you and take care- Sammy"

Blair:

"Hello B,

I know you are probably taking this the hardest and I am so sorry. I didn't mean or intend to put you or anyone else through this. I know you are going to be a wonderful godmother to my children. Don't let them forget who their mommy is and that is why I put the scrapbook together. I also know that all of you will keep my memory alive and not let me down. They're going to need their Auntie Blair. I told Pogue to take care of you and treat you the way you deserve, or I'm coming after him. He's a good guy with a kind heart. Don't let him get away, he's a good catch, and I know you two will be happy together. Okay now... I'm telling you, Serena, and Nate the same exact thing and here it goes. Please for the love of God, keep an eye on Chuck. I know he loves me and is going to be extremely effected by this, but I don't want him to go into the deep end, and not be able to come out of it. He needs to be there for Emily and she needs to be his number one priority and he needs to not think about himself anymore. I know in my heart, he'll do the best he can for her, but this is Chuck we're talking about and we all know he's capable of anything. Overall, I also know in my heart that he'll love, take care, and protect her the way she should be. I also know the three of you will help him any way you can. I love you guys and your godchildren will love you as well. B, I must go even though I don't want want to, I have to. Remember that I've always loved you like a sister and I'm going to miss the hell out of you.

Love and Smooches- Sam"

Everyone:

"To Everyone that I care about,

Hello, it's me Sam. I bet you're probably wondering why I didn't mention to any of you about my condition. I didn't have the heart to tell any of you. It would just be one more thing to worry about and I didn't want that. I'm sorry, that I didn't say anything and now that I'm not here, I know it's not making it better. I want all of you to not forget about me or have my babies forget about me. I loved them as long as I could and please keep them safe and take care of them, since I won't be able to. I don't know... maybe one day you'll all see me again. Until then, all of you take care. Love ya!

I will miss you all- Samantha"

Holly, Spencer, and Becky:

"Hey my Cali Crew,

LOL! I'm sorry we kinda lost touch with each other. This wasn't the way I wanted things to go, but it just happened. I'll never understand why I got taken away from my babies, family, and friends. The only thing I can think of, it's my time to go. I want you guys to be happy and live your lives to the fullest. I would love it, if you would keep in touch with my kids. I want them to get to know you, because you were awesome people. Well... I love all three of you. Take care.

I'm going to miss you guys- Sam"

Chuck and Reid:

"Hello boys,

I have a request about how I want my son and daughter raised. I know both of you don't like each other, but can both of you put down your swords and try to coexist and be civil around them? For me. It's not too much to ask. I'm not saying you have to love together, but I'd like the both of you to at least live close by so the twins can grow up together. Reid, I know you have your life in Massachusetts, but I don't think it would be right to seperate them from each other. Charlie and Emily's godparents are Nate, Blair, and Serena. I know in my heart that they'll have no problems helping you out with the kids. It's what godparents do. Reid, if something ever happens to you- I want legal custody of Charlie to go to Pogue and Blair. Chuck, if something were to happen to you- I want custody of Emily to go to Serena and Nate. That's only if something were to happen and both of you were unable to take care of them in the future, at least I know they'll be okay. Please take care of my babies. Give them what they need, want, and deserve. Because I'll be watching. I love you both and I'm sorry everything ended up this way. Please don't let the twins forget about me, and the same goes for the both of you.

I love you both- Sam"

Dr. Morris and Dr. Carter:

"My two wonderful doctors,

Hello, both of you were the best doctors in the world, and I'm glad I got to know you as long as I did. I know I should have taken your advise and tell everyone what was going on with me, but I just couldn't and didn't want to worry any of them. I have a question for the both of you and here it goes. If I don't make it through this, I would like it, if you two would be my kids regular doctors. It would mean the world to me and I know they'll love you like I do. Thanks for helping me as much as you could. I know you tried and thank you so much.

Your favorite patient- Samantha"

.....The End.....

I hoped you all like this story and stay tuned for the sequel: A Second Chance -- it's a doozy!