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Blair gazed out of her New York penthouse and saw the beautiful skyline of New York. She marveled at how beautiful it looked this time of night. As she looked up at the stars, she could feel a few tears fill up her eyes. Blair took a deep breath. She fingered the note in her hand as she allowed the tears from her eyes to fall slowly down her cheeks.

"Why," whispered Blair, "Why do you do this to me Chuck?" Her heart began to beat just a little faster. It has been three days since Chuck left her and Blair has never been the same since. Ignoring the calls of her best friend Serena, Blair has refused to leave her house. She couldn't will her legs to move out of the apartment and into the bustling streets of the city—at least not without Chuck by her side.

Blair let out muffled sob as fresh new tears cascaded down her cheeks. She desperately looked up at the stars. She sniffled as she tried to blink back the tears that were falling rapidly. Blair Waldorf was a mess.

Clutching her stomach, Blair tore her eyes away from the window. She took a few small steps toward her bed and picked up her cellphone. Breathing in deeply, Blair checked her phone for any messages. Three voicemails—Serena, one new text—gossip girl, Chuck—nothing.

Blair brought up a shaky hand as she attempted to wipe the remaining tears that glittered her wet cheeks. She couldn't call Serena in this condition and If gossip girl had anything to say about Chuck then she might just lose it. Throwing her cell phone aside, Blair fell on top of her bed. She covered her face in her hands trying to stifle the loud, sobs that were escaping her lips. Blair remained there on her bed crying helplessly, when suddenly her cell phone began to ring. Blair peeked through her eyes to glance at her phone, her heart thumping in her chest. She couldn't be disappointed again…

Stretching out a quivering hand, Blair grabbed her cellphone. She gently wiped her eyes in order to get a clearer vision of the cellphone's screen—the name Chuck glared at her.

Without even giving it a second thought, Blair quickly opened the phone.

"Chuck," greeted a very shaky voice, "Chuck…sweetie please talk to me." Blair's voice was in complete agony, which Chuck could detect over the phone.

Blair strained to hear the sound of his voice, but she could only hear the booming sounds of music in the background. He seemed to be at a club.

"Chuck," begged Blair, "Please talk to me."

Chuck's heart broke as he heard the voice of the girl he absolutely loved over the phone. He didn't know why he decided to call her…it only brought more pain.

"Chuck?" asked the vulnerable Blair Waldorf.

Chuck grabbed his shot from the bar and devoured the harsh liquid in one gulp. "Blair…"breathed Chuck.

At the very moment Blair heard the voice of Chuck, her heart seemed to quicken in pace and happiness filled her heart. "Chuck," Blair cooed, "Oh Chuck, I've missed you so much." Blair gripped her phone tightly, "I love you so much."

The weight Chuck has been feeling over his heart was somewhat lifted as he heard Blair's sweet words, and the darkness that had overcome his mind had begun to clear. The effect Blair Waldorf had on him was astounding.

"Blair,"relpied Chuck shakily, "I—I'm so"— He struggled to finish his sentence.

Blair shook her head violently as she gripped the phone even tighter. "No Chuck. Please you have nothing to be sorry about. I understand." Her voice shook, "I'll always understand."

Tears made their way into Chucks eyes, but Chuck violently wiped them away. "Blair you don't deserve this…I shouldn't have called."

All of the happiness Blair had felt suddenly vanished. Her world came crashing down once again. "No," exclaimed a desperate Blair, "Chuck you should have called. You called because you need me. Where are you?" She was now pacing her room. "Please tell me where you are and I'll come get you."

"No." Replied Chuck harshly. "I'm not coming back I can't…"

A lump filled Blair throat. "Chuck don't…please"—Blair sobbed, "Don't you love me?"

A pain shot through Chuck's heart as he heard the utter devastation in Blair's voice. One stray tear fell down Chuck's cheek but this time he didn't bother to wipe it away. "Blair please…I do—god you know that I love you more than anything."

Chuck let a sigh of relief as he finally confessed his true feelings. It actually made him feel relieved and it almost made him forget about his—father. Again…the pain of his father's death came flooding back into Chuck's thoughts and he suddenly turned bitter. "This doesn't change anything." He spat out harshly. Once again—Chuck Bass decided to hurt the girl he loved.

The smile that graced Blair's tearful face—once she heard Chuck's love for her—was now gone. She could hear the coldness in his voice...and it broke her heart. "No," she cried, "Chuck don't shut me out."

It was too late. Blair heard the sound of a phone click and then silence. Chuck Bass had run away from her…again. Blair Waldorf let her tears fall. Collapsing slowly to the ground, Blair wondered how she ever got into this mess—oh right—she fell in love with Chuck Bass. It was a dangerous thing.

This is my first Gossip Girl fic so please let me know what you thought about it! I love Chuck and Blair by the way and I want them to be together so badly but for some reason the writers like to angst out their relationship—which is kinda what I did here lol. Please review!