A/N: I apologize for the long wait, so without further prolonging, I present to you, The Beginning of My End.

I turned the key in the ignition, and rolled down the window, restraining the sobs that threatened my body. "Yea?" I said looking up to him.

"Can I come in?" he said motioning to the other side of the car. I just nodded, rolling up the window.

His movements were swift as he moved around the car, and I heard the "click" of the door as it opened. I could feel the car shift slightly as he sat down, and then his hand ran up and down my back. "Bella," he said moving my chin slightly to look at him, "what happened in there? You're feeling so much, and to be honest, it hurts. Please talk to me." His eyes were filled with concern and sincerity, it was hard not to trust him.

I could feel my body begin to shake as I tried to think of the words. "I-I-I…" I didn't know quite where I was going with this; did he want to know this about his brother, did he want to know exactly why I felt the way I felt, everything that led up to everything? I didn't even know. "I, I don't know Jasper." I felt him wrap his arms around me, and I cried into his chest until I could think of something to say.

"Shhhh… Bella… shhh." he cooed, soothing me. I could feel his waves of calm attempt to wash over me, but it wasn't working. I tried to relax, but every time I did a spasm of grief ran through me undoing all that Jaspers gift could do.

I looked up from his chest. "Jasper." I paused and stared helplessly into his eyes. "It was Edward… Edward and Tanya." My voice was shaky and barely above a whisper now, but I was finally able to subdue the tears the wouldn't fall. His eyes widened with surprise at my words, and I knew this wasn't what he had expected. "They were… he was…I walked in, and they were…" I couldn't bring myself to say the words, but Jasper nodded as he understood.

"I'm so sorry Bella." He squeezed me firmly into his chest as I began to cry again. "This never should've happened to you" I could feel his chin resting on my head and we sat there. "I cant believe this Bella", he pulled me away from his chest, "I've got to go back, I'm sure Alice is insane with worry. Its okay if I tell her?" He asked, genuinely hoping for me, feeling my pain, and through his eyes I could see that he wished he could wash it all away. I felt a wave of calm yet again attack me, and this time I let it.

"Yea," I said, wanting to get away. "You go inside, and I'll just be in here." I pointed down towards the emergency break. With that, he nodded and opened the door, and going inside.

I remember that when he left, I felt lonelier than I had ever felt, like the entire world was moving around me, and I was left untouched in a bubble of unaffected space. Taking two deep breaths, I steadied my body, started the car and backed out of the garage. My mind went quickly to Jasper and Alice, but I stopped myself, after all I had told him that I would be right here. Its not my fault that right here happened to have the ability to travel.

I raced away, faster than I ever could have ran, and where I was going I didn't know. It didn't matter where I went. The image of them in my mind wouldn't leave me. Every time I closed my eyes, every time I tried to think of something happy, his face would come into my mind, only to be shattered by the words "mmm, Tanya."

I gripped the steering wheel tighter, threatening the integrity of the material. The sun was mostly over the horizon now, and the red it cast across the sky was breathtaking, or at least it should have been, if it hadn't been yanked away from me at the sight of them. Everything about them sickened me.

I had made it to the Washington border, and then I felt it, a slight vibration in my pocket. Annoyed, I pulled the small device from my pocket, and answered "Hello?"

"Bella?" It was Edward. I hung up.

What right did he have to even speak my name? "Ugh!!" I screamed. Frustration over took me now. What hadn't I given him? I gave him everything! He gave me nothing!

I gave him a beautiful little girl, so many years of my life; hell, I had given him my life!

Again the phone began to vibrate, and I answered. "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT?!" I had no patience in me for him.

"Bella, listen, its not what you think."

"NOT WHAT I THINK?! IM NOT THE 17 YEAR OLD VIRGIN THAT I WAS WHEN WE MET!"

"That's exactly it!"

I hung up again.

What did he mean "That's exactly it"? I just wanted to disappear. All of this was swamping my mind with deluded thoughts and worst of all the images from earlier that day, its like it was burned on the inside of my eyelids.

Everything inside of me was burning, and worst of all was the self pity. I pressed my foot heavily into the gas pedal, and the car pushed over 120. The engine roared, and I envied it, so strong, so powerful, and so dangerous. I wanted so badly to be all of those things so that I could get back at him, even the odds, take from him what he took from me.

Before I had even realized, the car went smashing into a massive wall of rock that was bordering the highway. Who am I kidding, with this mind, nothing is done without thought, I knew what I was doing. The sound of crunching metal is unmistakable, and unforgettable. His precious Audi was totaled, beyond recognition.

Everything was black around me, I could feel heat, smell smoke, I half way hoped that I was dead, or even dieing, but I could feel that I was just fine. It would just be too easy, although, the heat could work for me. Flammable skin was one of the few drawbacks of my kind.

Everything in my being made me want to move away from the heat, yet the dull aching that I felt in my chest made me want to stay. I could feel it moving closer, the temperature of the air slowly rising around me. Then I felt the flames begin to lick at my skin, and I savored the pain. It brought me back to how this whole thing started. This whole mess that I had learned to call my life, my existence. Once it hit, it seared across my skin, like a match hitting gasoline.

A/N: So, I hope that was enjoyable, do feel free to let me know, likes dislikes, areas for improvement. I am working on length, and i realize that this still isnt as long as it should be. This is a short story though, so I feel what is written is fairly appropriate. One more chapter, and it should be done. Perhaps there will be a sequel, I havent put much thought to it :)

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