Chapter: 1 - Ronon

Spoilers: S5

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Ronon had known Sheppard had feelings for Teyla, but it wasn't until he watched Sheppard rush under the lowering hatch did Ronon realise how deep those 'feelings' really went.

Thundering after him Ronon ran as fast as he could, aware distantly that he was screaming at Sheppard. Teyla was at the far end of the observatory and had been injured and Sheppard was going after her. The lights lining the corridor through which Ronon ran began to flash faster and the wail of the alarms reached a new pitch of intensity. He knew he was too far away. The hatch door began to fall faster now as he raced down the long line of the alien corridor. But, it wasn't enough and in horror he watched the hatch slam down into place and a burst of escaping atmosphere told him the seal was set.

Ronon reached the hatch and slammed himself against it, staring through the tiny window through which he could see Sheppard's back disappearing around a far corner. He pounded his fists against the heavy bulkhead hatch and had no idea who he was shouting at through the shrill sirens blaring around him. The section beyond the hatch was failing and the section would be automatically detached from the failing station. And there was nothing Ronon could do except pound his fists against the metal door and scream out his anger. At what and who he was screaming his anger out at even he wasn't sure. Was he shouting at Sheppard to come back, to turn round and try to get back through the hatch? Was he shouting out his anger that Sheppard must have known he had no chance of getting down that corridor to Teyla and back before the seal shut permanently? Or was he angry because he wasn't with them?

The station vibrated around Ronon and finally he stopped his shouting and pounding on the door and he watched in horror as the other side of the hatch vibrated, shifted and abruptly broke away from him. Momentarily disorientated from the movement he looked out as the stars appeared around the detaching section which held his two closest friends. His family. The section drifted further away and beyond it stretched the anomaly, ready to devour the section as it had everything that got too close. Ronon hadn't bothered to remember the name of anomaly, only that it was a type of gaping black hole. And that Sheppard and Teyla were in that ejected section of the alien observatory and there was nothing he could do to stop them being pulled to their deaths.

The sirens became a distant holler to him as he rested his forehead against the thick glass and watched the section gather speed as it was pulled towards the blackness that awaited it. Sheppard had known he couldn't get to her and get back, he had gone in there knowing he was never going to come back out again. Ronon closed his eyes briefly at the sadness of that fact. That his friend had sacrificed himself for a woman who he loved but had never told. Ronon prayed then that when Sheppard found her in that section that she was alive and aware of his sacrifice.

Ronon became aware of someone screaming in pain and he realised it was him. He kicked at the hatch with such force that he felt something snap in his foot, but he didn't care. He thudded his forehead against the glass as he watched the small dot that held his friends falling towards the anomaly until eventually he could no longer see it amidst the blackness.

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