This came into my mind and would'nt go away. The spelling and grammer may need fixing because I haven't got a beta to check it.

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I have always liked Raoul, from the moment I saw him. His huge figure and jolly nature attracted me to him. I never saw him as more than a friend for years that we knew each other.

Until the immortals war. That's when everything changed.

When I got the news Raoul was injured, I got a stabbing pain in my heart and I felt as if I was going to be sick. The only thoughts that would pass through my mind was

Not my Raoul.

It was then, that I realised what my emotions were, after all these years that I was in love with Raoul.

I sat for over a day sitting outside his tent contemplating over my new feelings. Thankfully it did not look strange because everyone close to Raoul was there.

I knew I had to keep my new emotions hidden because my friends are meddlers

It tortured me to be around Raoul when he was badly injured, I couldn't help him in any way. Not one. His usual cheery face was annoyed that he couldn't do anything; I knew I would be the same if it was me. It lifted my spirits knowing that we had a lot in common.

My love for Raoul only grew as I was around him, and it started to show, as I was always smiling in his presence. No one commented or took any notice of this until Keladry of Mindelan came along. She was Raoul's squire. When she first saw me she was intimidated by me, and who wouldn't. I was one of the fiercest warriors in all of Tortall. I sent recruits home every year running and shaking with fear of my wrath.

Kel saw through my disguise the moment she saw me and I saw through hers the moment I met both her and Dom together. She seemed to face the same problem I did. Both of us were madly in love with people we couldn't have without losing our position

Kel was a godsend to me. She is a very good planner.

It was midwinter and Raoul had to visit his family. He was scared. Raoul one of the best commanders in Tortall was scared of is family. The Giantkiller was scared. When Kel came to ask me to help, I had to help Raoul. If he was scared then it was in my duty as a friend to save him.

The evening went well, we laughed a lot and I felt glad that I fell in love with him. His family liked me which was a surprise; they were always asking us when we were going to get married. Both of us were a dark shade of red.

When it came for us to say goodbye we both stared into each others eyes, and I knew then, that he felt the same way as me. He loved me.

Once he saw the same thing in my eyes, he leaned down and kissed me.

From then on I knew I was never going to let him go.