Slightly Confused

Disclaimer: I do not own the Twilight or the Gossip Girl series. Stephenie Meyer and Cicely Von Ziegesar do. Thanks to them I came up with this idea.

Chapter One: The Perfect Night

As I ran around the living room, I mentally checked off my list of what I needed for a perfect night. A bowl of popcorn is set, check. Three bags of mini Hershey bars for my best friend, check. I found the remote lying on the long, beautiful coffee table, so check that off the list. Everything was set. I moved over to the vast selection of my mom and dad's DVDs and picked out a random disk to insert into the player. I looked at the box of my selection and it read, "I Am Legend". Yes, my favorite movie of all time I thought to myself. Now everything was perfect.

This night just had to be perfect. My best friend, Jacob Black, was coming over so we could watch a movie together like we always do but this would be the last movie night in Forks. Since my mom and dad have been here in Forks for a while, we have to move to New York to make sure we are not suspicious to humans. Since, you know, my whole family is immortal, we do not age and people would be very suspicious if my dad hasn't changed a bit after about 20 years living in Forks, Washington. I had never met my cousin or my aunt but for some reason I had a really bad feeling about this. So now that this was the last time in Forks, this had to be faultless.

This week I noticed that I began to keep on thinking about Jake differently. Every moment of the day, it was just Jake this and Jake that and oh I can't wait to see Jake. But before this, he was like a brother. I still thought about Jake before but now he was in my mind differently.

I look about 15 years old but I am really supposed to be 6 years old. I talked to Carlisle about my situation and he came to the solution that I was "coming of age and hormones were taking over" but then he also had the theory that maybe I was just nervous about moving to the NYC and that I just wanted to be close to my loved ones or whatever . But I just wasn't sure which of his theories were right but when I thought about Jacob, all I could see was when he had his t-shirt off, right after he phased back from his wolf form. Usually from the weekly hunt, he would be all sweaty and my body was reacting differently to that. As these visions began to unfold in my mind, I began to feel my palms starting to sweat and I felt a burning sensation surging through my body.

These visions were invading my mind at all times of the day. They were there when I woke up in the morning, in the shower, at breakfast, during school, and when I came home. They were everywhere! It also didn't help that I had the ability to remember everything that has happened in my life and those mere things that didn't mean anything before, when I was physically about 2 years old and I didn't know any better, I remember Jake playing with me in the forest and he would play pounce on me and then that memory would lead to me thinking that I actually wanted that to happen now.

Also, the vision that would swirl around was when Jacob kissed me on the cheek when he dropped me off at the cottage after hunting a couple of days ago. The kiss was like a dream. I remember he said, "Night Nessie." Then he proceeded and reached over and pecked me right on the cheek. As he pulled back, I had the urge to grab his face and plant good one where it counted right on the lips but all I did was lamely smiled shyly and closed the door in embarrassment. Wow, I am such a lame.

Since he imprinted on me, he was bound to me for life. I mean, I am pretty sure that if he wasn't bound to me, he would probably want to be involved with someone other than a little girl. He wanted to be with a woman.

As I kept on thinking about Jake as I waited for his knock at the door, I began to get nervous. What if I do something wrong, I asked myself, and he doesn't like me anymore? I paced the room as I reasoned with myself. No, he can't do that. I mean, he imprinted on me for God's sake! He can't just stop being my soul mate. He just can't. I smiled at the conclusion that I came to. Yeah, he can't do that. But then it dawned on me. What if I can magically undo the imprinting that was on me? What if, since I am part vampire, I can undo imprinting? I started to hyperventilate as I thought of the terrible possibilities. What if he ended up falling in love with another woman?

"Renesmee, honey, are you alright? I heard a rapid beat of someone's heart. Was that yours?" I heard someone behind me ask. I turned around to see my mom, Bella Cullen, standing in the archway of the state of the art kitchen. I silently cursed myself for overreacting. I forgot my mom was a vampire too so now she will definitely know that I am terrified. "Yeah, mom, I'm just kind of nervous about New York, you know?" I replied, straightening the remote on the coffee table for the fifth time tonight.

Once again, I heard another voice behind me, almost near my Mom. "Nessie, it's going to be okay honey. New York will be great." I rolled my eyes as I turned around to face the 70 inch flat screen TV. "Yeah, okay, Dad." I felt his body moving towards me as I stared at the blue screen of the TV. I felt his hand touch my shoulder and I flinched at the icy sensation that rushed through me. I mean, the man is at an alarming low temperature just like all of my family but because I was only part vampire, I still had the same characteristics as humans. Almost instantly, I felt his hand retreat to his side like he had just put his hand on a hot stove. "Sorry. I forgot." I heard him whisper almost inaudibly. I nodded slowly and turned around to face my dad. I smiled at him weakly. It's okay dad, I love you I thought to myself but I knew that dad knew what I was saying because he had the gift of telepathy. I reached over and kissed my daddy on the cheek.

He smiled weakly when I pulled back and said "I love you too Renesmee." I watched my dad as I watched him grab my mother's hand and stroke it lovingly. At that moment, I thought about going to New York. Why wasn't Jacob going? I mean, how come Jacob couldn't come with us? He was just like a brother! He was my Jacob. He had to be with me at all times as I had to be with him also. This was my chance to ask my parents. "Um, mom and dad," I started "how come Jake can't come with us to New York?" My parents looked at each other hesitantly and then gazed back at me.

"Um, Renesmee, sweetie… your mother and I think that Jake should go to-"my dad started but my mom interrupted him "Jacob said that he didn't really think it was best for him to go." My dad looked back at my mom and then said, "Yes. That's what happened." After he said that, he ducked into the kitchen with a weird look on his face. My mom stared me in the eyes. I stood in awe on the bear rug that Uncle Emmett brought home from hunting a year back. What was this about Jake not wanting to go with me? I thought he wasn't able to stay away from me without going crazy. Well, I don't care if he didn't want to go. That is okay. He didn't have to go if he didn't want to.

As I stood there in the middle of the extravagant living room, I was startled when I heard a knock at the door. I was at the door in the next few seconds. I took a look in the mirror next to me to check out my hairdo. I frowned at my curly, brown hair and ran a couple of fingers through it to give it that "I did my hair but I didn't spend fifty minutes on it look". I sighed and turned my attention back to the situation at hand: opening the door. I took a deep breath and put my hand on the knob and pulled the door back to find the man that was running through my mind all day.