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Nessie POV:

"Bye you guys, I love you," I mumbled softly to myself as I leaped out of the door to Alice's Porsh.

226 was still locked inside my mind, it was the only thing that I could think about. I haven't heard from Lewis--flinch--since that night and it pained me too much to do this to him, in love with a human... I shook my head to myself digesting the danger I put Lewis in. I couldn't erase it from my brain without thinking about it again, I don't know why that bothered me so much.

"Come on, Ness, let's go," Alice cooed to me as she gestured to the car, interrupting my thoughts. It took me a while to realize that my feet were glued to the concrete.

"Wait for me," Roaslie said in her silvery bell voice as she danced gracefully to Alice and I. Alice gave her a serious unsure look.

"What? You guys didn't think I would miss a shopping trip did you?" I nodded my head in agreement, it was true, but Alice just stared in pure dead amazement, like she just saw the most amazing thing in her entire existence.

"I can't believe you,"she said through clenched teeth. "You were eavesdropping on us!" Alice snarled the last word with venom boiling on her tongue.

"Hmm..."Rosalie pondered as if this was a trick question. "Yes, I think I did." If Alice could have gone red, she would have. "Nessie, may I please come with you, angel?" Rosalie begged as she gave me puppy dog eyes. She pulled my hands into hers and squeezed them gently. I gave a soft giggle and sighed. Rosalie released her grip, already sensing victory.

"Of course. Alice, is that okay?" I asked nervously, I wouldn't want a fight where heads were ripped off. Alice nodded her head, but her gaze never lightened on Rose. If I were Rosalie I would go bouncing off the walls from that look, possibly screaming.

A few seconds ticked by slowly, the tension never ceasing. "Okay," Rosalie mused finally,"let's go." I nodded slowly and pulled Alice along with me, afraid that she might snap any moment now.

Roaslie skipped toward me, ignoring Alice's threatening gaze, and pulled on my hold on Alice's hand. I let go instantly and quickly followed her.

"Don't worry, Nessie," Rosalie whispered softly in my ear,"I won't tell Edward and Bella." My eyes narrowed and and my hand coiled into a hard fist around her hand. "Thanks, Roaslie," I said through clenched teeth. She nodded happily and turned around, beginning to walk to her car but I held on tightly.

"Rose." She turned around and gave me a hard puzzled expression. "I'm thinking about having a baby, what do you think?" I said acidly as I dung my nails into her granite skin. She bit her lower lip angrily, her eyes burned into my skull. She gave me a silent nod and traveled to Alice's Porsh.

"I think you should ride in your car, Rose," Alice said coldly as she turned around to face Roaslie. Rose's head cocked to the side, her beautiful face puzzled in silent frustration. Alice nodded as if she knew Roaslie's question.

Rosalie nodded softly and gave me a peak on the cheek. "I'll follow you," she replied in my ear as she then turned to her BMW convertible, walking at a human pace.

"Rose," I called softly staring into her eyes. "I'm sorry..." She nodded and smiled an angel smile. I smiled back and waved in a friendly wave. She waved back and whispered 'I love you' once more. I turned my attention back to Alice after I farewelled Rosalie. Her expression was lighter but still as lethal as a lioness.

I didn't understand why she was acting so...dangerous.

"Alice--" She shook her head silently as I followed her gaze to the door. Apparently my family was watching the melodramatic scene of family life. I blushed silently to myself, trying to not attract attention, but no one was fooled. They all waved to me. I waved back and blew kisses to each of my family. Bella slowly trailed to me and gave me a heart warming hug. "Be safe," she said in my ear, though it was a command, not a comment.

I nodded my head and whispered 'I love you' in her ear. "I love you too,"she replied softly. "I love you too," she repeated again, not realising her grip on me.

"Any day now," Rosalie said impatiently as she popped up from inside the car. Bella growled threateningly and slowly pulled away, staring at me with approving but concerned eyes.

"Don't worry, Mom. I'll be fine." She nodded her head but her eyes were still unsure.

"Dad?" He traveled quickly to me with a twinkle in his eyes. "Yes?" He asked in a bell-ringing voice. "I love you." I couldn't help grinning by that hard fact. He gave me a smile and kissed my head tenderly. "Love you too." I heard him cough back a laugh but I wasn't fooled. I growled softly and turned back to my loving mother.

I kissed her cheek and waved once more to my family. "Bye, Esme, Carisle, Emmett, Mom, and Dad," I called to them, but I couldn't say good-bye to that other uncle I once knew... I grew glum by the fact, but was soon cheered up from Carisle's grandfather smile and I couldn't help smiling back, and Esme's charming smile and positive attitude. Emmett was grinning from ear to ear and he gave me a secret wink, I couldn't help but giggle. And there were my parents, each worrying their guts out.

"I'll be fine," I said to reassure them. They still looked like stone. I sighed and eagerly hopped in the car and waited for Alice to pop right up next to me, but she was already there.

"You ready?" She asked coldly as she turned on her Porsh, which she called Banana. She really was attached to 'Banana'.

"Yes," I said enthusticasticlly, trying to cheer her up a bit, I didn't like when she acted like stone.

Banana growled to life as Alice slammed on the gas pedal Cullen style. I turned around to see Rose close behind. I turned back around to face Alice happily. "Renesmee," Alice sighed softly as if it were a feather. "There's something I need to tell you." And by the look in her eyes, my heart sank deep into the pits my stomach.

Alice paused for a second as she let me digest what she was saying. My eyes turned wide and my arms began to shake in frustration. "W-What?" I stammered, though I already knew what it was about. Alice stared at me lovingly and sighed,"It's about," she stopped and shook her head, her smile completely gone, replaced by a tight frown.

"Jasper..."

I shook my head and tried to hold back the overflow of tears and the large lump in my throat. She wanted to talk about Jasper. Jasper. The uncle I loved and the uncle that cared about me, that would have protected me with his life, that Jasper.

She smiled at me and touched my cheek tenderly. "It's okay, Renesmee. I understand." I nodded softly as Alice pulled away and placed her hand back on the steering wheel, staring ahead at the road. Her eyes glassy, her hands tightening, making her hand even paler than usual.

"It--" she stuttered softly staring ahead at the road. "It was about three years ago, on a summer night... I went hunting with the whole family...even Jasper...and...well...you Renesmee were with your mother. Anyway...Jasper and I decided to separate and have some privacy in hunting. We went down south..." she paused for a second her eyes swelled into tiny little slits. She would be crying now if she could. The whole gaped from my chest, making it impossible to ignore. The one where Alice was in pain, and she was in pain now...

"Alice...don't. You don't have to do this..." She shook her and shushed me with her hand. "It's okay, Nessie," she sighed softly, giving a half-hearted smile, but she couldn't fool me.

"Anyway," she began again smugly, staring ahead at the road again. "We went down south... I was chasing a mountain lion and we got separated. I..." She stared at me and gave a sigh, staring down at her shoes. "Do you know about Maria?"

I nodded my head and stared at her suspiciously. "Okay," she said, staring ahead at the road once more. "I saw her..." she growled defensively, tightening her hold on the steering wheel.

My eyes widened and my mouth made an o in terror. Maria. The one who changed Jasper centuries ago, the one who taught him to fight. To kill...

"Yes,"she said bitterly as she observed my reaction. "It was Maria. I saw her and of course knew who she was. I was about to attack and I realized...that there were five newborns flanking her, all brand new... I didn't realize at the time, that...that one was right behind me... I knew once I felt teeth sink into my skin that I was going to die. I was going to die...Maria was finally going to get her revenge on Jasper leaving her and going to a bunch...of vegetarians..." she paused making a face in pure disgust, "I knew I was going to die, so I didn't even bother to fight, I just waited for the tearing and the burning..."

Again she stopped and she shook her head. "But... Jasper saw the newborn attack me and...he charged at him, not even noticing the others...but Maria got him first, along...along with the newborns... I--I was too late..." The whole in my chest grew larger and I finally snapped into a thousand little pieces.

"Alice!" I moaned loudly as I buried my head into her small slender chest, letting my tears soak her completely, not even caring if she was driving. I was expecting her to shrug me away but she only held me closer, crying sob-less tears into my hair along with me.

"I--Sh--oouuullddd have st--ooppped h-iim," she whimpered loudly as she hugged me even closer, her body shaking violently. "Ittt--wwwaass my faullttt."

I pulled away from her and stared into her lifeless eyes. "Nooo, Alice... It wasn't..." I said as serious as possible, though I was crying violently and shaking like I was an earthquake. I pulled her into my heart warming hug once more and never released my steel-like grip, squeezing every drop of pain that was in her tiny heart.

A few seconds ticked by and I never let go, trying to mend her lifeless heart. The sobs finally began to die down, and I realized that the car was pulled up in a parking lot in front of the mall. I heard an obnoxious honk behind us. I ignored it and rubbed my hand on Alice's back, trying to soothe her. Nothing else mattered right now. Not Jacob or how he feels about me, not my mother and father, nothing, only Alice.

The honking continued and I gave a soft sigh. "Alice," I murmured silently burying my head in her shirt like child that needs comforting. "I--I think we--we should go..." Alice gave a nod and pulled away softly, staring at me with love and care. "Thanks, Renesmee, for everything..." I nodded her and smiled thoughtfully.

I didn't realize that the window was open until I heard Rosalie's beautiful wavy voice. "Hello?" She said sounding annoyed. "Are we going or what?" I gave her a dark glare and shoved my way out the door, pushing her out of my way fearlessly.

I softly closed the door and saw Alice and Rose waiting patiently beside me, except Rosalie of course. Rose both of our hands forcefully and tugged at us, quickly pulling us along.

"Goodness, both of you take so long,"Rosalie complained, never slowing her pace. I ignored her constant chattering and rounded my head around Rose's figure to see Alice also being pulled by Rosalie, she didn't seem bothered with it but she had a sour look in her face, like she just ate a bunch of sour patch all at once.

"I was waiting for you for hours!"Roaslie said for the fifteenth time, interrupting my thoughts. I growled under my breath, rolling my eyes in distaste.

"Okay..."Alice said, speaking for the first time in a soft hollow voice. "I think we should go to Armani, they just built one right here." She gestured inside the mall, which read 'Armani grand opening!'

"I think that's great," I said in a weak voice, staring down at my shoes, I wasn't really in the mood for shopping right now. Rosalie nodded in agreement and pulled us along into the mall. We all stared around the mall in awe. Even though Alice and I lost our interest in shopping for the time being, we couldn't help but find hope.

"Victoria Secret!"Roaslie cheered excitedly as she clapped her hands together with glee. We all new that Rose loved Victoria's Secret and could never be stopped once she laid eyes on it. "Come on, what's the matter with you two?" She stammered angrily as she raced to Victoria's Secret as if it were a Marathon. She tried to keep a human pace as best as possible, though I could see the impatience in her eyes.

"Whoo-hoo!" She sang as she dropped our wrists and jumped around, searching through piles and piles of stuff. "I think I'll wait outside, Alice. I don't want to be here when she turns into a complete manic," I suggested as I edged to the door.

"Too late,"Alice murmured whispered in my ear. Rosalie shot us a piercing look but we ignored her, always Rosalie. Usually we would go bouncing off the walls like Rose, but we weren't really in the mood, well--I wasn't. My stomach was tied into knots that I was beginning to feel sick, as if I ate Susie's-flinch-birthday cake again.

"Come on, Ness," Alice said, trying to be cheerful, as she tugged on my arm harmlessly. I trailed behind her until me came upon some fine lingerie. I digged absent-mindedly through it and picked out some that I could wear. They didn't cost that much. Maybe $50 a piece.

"Alice," I said as I looked through the racks of satin. "Maybe we should go to the lake tomorrow, just you and I--you know maybe a picnic--some human thin--" I stopped in horror as I stared into Alice's eyes.

They were not the kind topaz eyes that I expected, but the brightest crimson red I have ever seen. Her eyes were a violent red and they looked half-crazed, like a mad women who just saw the worst thing she could ever see in her entire life.

"A-Alice. Y-Your.." I couldn't even spit out the words I was too mortified. She gasped as swept her hand toward her mouth, rushing quickly to a bathroom, not even glancing back at me. I raced at vampire speed to Rosalie, I didn't even care if anyone saw me, I was too terrified. "Rose," I shrieked as I tugged on her shoulder harshly.

"I need to tell you something." She swiftly turned to me intently, her eyes curious but in a funny way. "Alice--I think she's been--" but I couldn't even spit out the words before Rosalie interrupted me with humor in her pure voice.

"It's a joke, Nessie. Alice and I planned that! Gosh, you should have seen the look on your face!" She burst out another laugh, throwing her head up in the air in glee. My mouth gaped open, but I only stared in shock. My hands curled into threatening daggers. I shook my head furiously and stalked into the bathroom which Alice entered.

"Alice!" I yelled as I looked around with my vampire eyes. Alice was in a bathroom stall in a human manner, the room echoing with childish giggles.

"Alice." I repeated, banging on the door, though I didn't even know why she was in there. Again she giggled. "Don't make me come in there," I threatened banging on the door louder this time. She knew that I could slice the door in half if I wanted to.

The door burst open and there was tiny little Alice, grinning from ear to ear. I shook my head furiously and stalked out the stall toward the door, but Alice was just a half a step behind me.

"Renesmee,"she said in a flowery tone, turning me around to face her. "I'm sorry. Rose and I planned it when you were talking to Emmett," she gave me a humorous smile as she said this, apparently she knew about our scheme too. Great.

"It was only a joke, Ness," She said, touching my shoulder lightly. I nodded in a forgiving way but deep down, I knew it was really not just a joke.

I stormed out of the mall with Rosalie and Alice carrying a handful of clothes behind me. "Hey, did you see Nessie's fac--" Rosalie sang through giggles. Alice smiled and nodded cheerfully.

"UGH!" I screeched turning around throwing my arms up in the air. Rosalie gave an alarmed stare as I put my arms on her chest and shoved her, knocking her backwards onto the ground.

She hissed and threw down the bags, staggering forward to me, her hands clenching into fists. Her eyes blazing with fury. Alice came between us, putting her hands out to shield both of us. She gave us warning glares and shook her head.

"No." She said as she stared us down. I could look over Alice's head and see Rose giving me threatening glances. I shoved my way past them both and maneuvered my way to Alice's Porsh, but I felt a steady hand on my shoulder.

"Stop, Alice," I sighed not turning around. But it wasn't that cheerful pixie voice I expected,"No, Nessie. You're riding with me," said a stern rough voice. I turned around and there I saw calm Jacob Black.

I gasped and stumbled forward, falling on the back of my heels onto the rough ground. On Jacob's once perfect face was a jagged scar across his face, not noticeable for human eyes but was so noticeable for the average vampire that they would run faster than a speeding bullet if they saw it.

I remained silent. He shook his head as if knowing what I was thinking and held out his buff arms. I held on to them, digging my finger nails, and felt him lift me up as if I was a feather.

"Nessie, come here," he said sternly, his arm pulling me to his Rabbit. "I'm not your dog,"I said as nastily as I could, shoving my arm from his hold, but he held his grip.

"Let. Go. Of. Me," I said, my eyes like stone daggers. His face remained expressionless, his mouth curled up into a tight grimace. "Please.." he sighed as he dropped his hand around my arm. I frowned and snarled menacingly, not even caring if there were humans around.

"You think I'll forgive you just because I see you after weeks!" I sighed and walked to Alice's Porsh. "You're funny, Jacob," I called over my shoulder, giving a chuckle in disgust.

I stumbled and felt warm arms around me. "Jaco--"

"No, Nessie. Just let me explain," Jacob interrupted me as he stared down at me lovingly. I sighed and stared back at Alice's Porsh. Alice and Rosalie were no where in sight. "Where is she?" I asked, my eyes scanned around the lot. "She's in her Porsh, I asked her to. If you will ride with me, she'll leave." I sighed and shook my head.

"Jake, come here." I could feel his hold suddenly tightening around me.

I slowly turned around and stared, studying his reaction. I touched his cheek and could see his face go blank. I showed him the pain I was in these weeks, the hole I felt. He winced as I showed him my pain. A few seconds lingered by and I released my hand, letting him recover.

"Nessie...I'm so...so--" I put my finger on his silky lips. "I'll ride with you Jacob," I said lightly as I released my finger. "But that's all..."

I sank down into the leather seat and sighed, gesturing with my hand for him to speak. He sped up on the gas and the Rabbit grumbled in response. "Nessie, I'm sorry about all the pain I caused you, I really am. I just--we had some complications..." He paused, shaking his head slightly, his shaggy hair flying all over the place.

I nodded my head and gave him a glare. "Well," I sighed, rolling my eyes obnoxiously.

"Anyway," he continued ignoring my nagging. "There was a complication...We...my pack...ran into someone..." My eyes became intent on him, listening to every word he said.

Someone?

"Someone," I replied staring off into space. He nodded staring ahead at the road having that calm Sam statue look. I sighed, staring into his eyes trying to find my best friend that I knew, not a stranger.

"This someone, well--is a werewolf, or shape-shifter as I should say..." he trailed off, staring into my eyes deeply as if trying to look into my soul. I felt vulnerable and shuddered at my father's words a couple weeks ago. Jacob loves you like I love Bella! I shuddered again, shaking my slender body violently. Jacob looked puzzled. "What's wrong?" He asked, touching my shoulder tenderly. I shook it off and stared ahead, trying to remember how to breathe correctly.

"You smell like bloodsucker," he said with a smirk as he changed to subject. "What do you know Jacob, I am one!" He laughed and sighed, staring off into space. "I know, but I still love you..."

"So..." I said, ignoring his comment. "It was the wolf's...color?" He gave me a surprised but an annoyed look. He scoffed under his breath and sighed, letting that statue look overtake him completely. "White," he said, his hand tightening over the steering wheel, making it burst from pressure. My eyes turned wide and I gulped loudly. He stared at me angrily and he frowned even wider. "What's the matter?" He asked as he clenched his teeth. "I--" I paused suddenly, playing with my shirt. I was wondering if I should tell him or if he would flip.

"I saw that wolf..." He eyed me and laughed. "Where did you see him?" He asked in a happy tone. I shrugged, this was not the reaction I was expecting.

"If you're not going to take me seriously then I'm just not going to tell you." He sighed and stared at me with a glassy but an honest look.

"Nessie, of course I take you seriously..." I sighed and murmured,"Doesn't sound like it." He rolled his eyes and asked me the question again. 'Where did you see him, Nessie? And where were you going?'

I stared on the window, watching the beauty of the vegetation zip by me. Would he be mad at me if I tell him about Nahuel? He loves me, it would break his heart... I shook my head and thought the hell with it. "I was at--" Jacob's phone beeped loudly, vibrating in his pocket obnoxiously. "Sorry, Nessie. It's just your bloodsucker, I mean Roaslie. Continue..."

I sighed and replied,"Jake, answer it." He rolled his pitch black eyes and answered it. "Hello bloodsucker," he replied politely, smiling pleasantly while doing so. There was a long pause, his smile gone but replaced by a terrified and scared look. "Charlie?!"

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