Chapter 4

Just know that I Still Love You and will be Right here even if it takes A Little Bit Longer

As my relationship with Nick took its peak, we were only 14 so there was only so much we could expect from it. We dated for a good year and then we got into a stupid fight about ice cream or some nonsense, you know the stupid things little teenyboppers fight about, and just said we'd stick to being friends. I assumed I'd be fine and dandy with it but it turned out to be harder than I realized. I got angry at Nick and tried writing all these rude and nasty things about it but then I remembered something about him and my trashy song turned into a song telling him I'd always be there for him. I didn't want him to think he'd have to face his issue alone.

It was March 11th 2007 and Nick had an important event to go for to support Diabetes. He was pacing back in forth through my room so much it was making me dizzy. He walked back and forth reciting his lines that he planned on saying but I didn't understand why he was going so crazy.

"Nick why are you stressing out about this? You've been in front of big crowds before and sing lyrics that you memorize so why is this any different?" I asked as I laid on my purple queen sized bed. He stopped pacing and looked at me. He opened his mouth to speak but decided against it and kept pacing. Something about the look in his eyes made me feel like there was something he was hiding. I stood up and grabbed his hand.

"What is it Nick? What aren't you telling me?" I asked, gripping his hand tighter. He stared at me for awhile until he finally blinked and let out the big secret he had been holding onto.

"I have diabetes…"

And then it all made sense. At that moment he let himself go and fell into me crying. I held onto him so tight, as if I was afraid if I let him go he'd fly away, so he knew I was there for him. How did he keep this from me?

"I found out a couple years ago," He explained as he pushed off from me. "I didn't know what to expect at first but my doctor kept insisting I would have to change my lifestyle a lot. Miley you don't understand how terrified I was that I wouldn't be able to ever become a serious musician, let alone stay in California and be your boyfriend. And I have an Omnipod that helps regulate my blood sugar but sometimes I just feel…"

"Feel what Nick?" I asked, urging him to finish.

"I feel like it might just shut off and then I'll die! What am I going to do if that happens? And how am I supposed to go speak at this benefit and tell all these people they'll be okay when I don't even believe that I"LL be okay?" He shouted and began to pace again. His anxiety was so adorable that I couldn't help but giggle a little. He glared at me with evil eyes.

"I'm sorry Nick but you're just so cute when you freak out," I walked up to him and wrapped my arms around his back. "Nicholas Jerry Jonas you will be just fine. Every time you feel like you won't be okay, just breathe and think to yourself, a little bit longer and you'll be fine. Get past those ten seconds of worry and you'll forget you even have diabetes. I promise" I said then kissed him lightly on his lips. I could feel his lips turn upwards.

The next day he flew to New York where he announced to everyone he had type 1 diabetes. He asked the room full of people who had diabetes and he was the first to raise his hand. I watched from backstage as people asked him what he does when he starts to freak out about his diabetes. He looked at the crowd and smiled at all of them.

"I take a long breath then tell myself a little bit longer and I'll be fine"

So even though I was angry that I wasn't with him anymore, I couldn't make him feel like if he needed me I wouldn't be there. So I wrote a song called Right Here so he knew how much I loved him. To tell him; No matter what, I'll be there for you. No matter where we are in life.

I didn't understand why I felt all these strong feelings for Nick. I mean I was only like 14 and a half so how was it that my stomach could feel these butterflies going crazy and my head hurt just thinking about him? And my heart… oh it beat like thunder after a huge storm. I wanted to see Nick. No I Needed to see Nick. Thankfully someone out there thought so too.

Spring rounded the corner and it was the Easter Egg Roll at the White House and I was lucky enough to be invited. I was a little nervous at first but I was with my family and a few of my close dancers so my nervousness quickly turned into anxiousness. I got up on the balcony, sang, and before I knew it I was talking to the first lady at the time Laura Bush. The whole event was a lot of fun but then all of a sudden fate slapped me across the face.

Walking through the crowd was none other than Nick Jonas. The instant I saw him my heart did a cartwheel. And the second our eyes locked a spark jolted through my body and that was it. A huge goofy smile was planted on Nick's face. I don't know if it was just us, or gravity pulling us towards each other but we walked up and just got really close to each other's faces. It didn't matter how we fought, what was said, how hard it might be, or if we were "taking time". There was no question in my heart. We were back together. Everything was right in the world.

Later that night after we flew back home, we walked hand in hand back to my house. I was on cloud nine now that we were officially back together again. We crept through my house, careful not to wake my mom up because she was fast asleep since she had my sister go with me due to work issues she needed to stay around for. We tiptoed into my room then I shut the door so we couldn't be heard as well. I turned around but was given no time to think because Nick pulled my hand so I twirled, falling on top of him on my bed. He smiled at me then flipped me so I was under him.

"Oh Miley Ray, these past few weeks have been terrible on me. I'm so happy you're mine again" he exclaimed with that goofy smile on his face again. Oh that goofy smile. I loved it when he showed his teeth but he claimed that anytime he smiled like that, that he looked weird but oh how I loved it. I loved everything about that kid. I pulled him down so he was lying next to me now. We laid there like that just holding each other for what felt like the longest time. That was until he interrupted the silence with an announcement.

"So I wrote a couple songs while we were broken up..." he said into the darkness. I turned over and faced him. We were so close our noses were touching.

"Me too. What did you write about?" I asked. He kissed my nose lightly as if that answered my question.

"I wrote a couple different ones. Would you like to hear?" he asked but gave me no time to answer cause he grabbed my hand and before I knew it we were out in the night time running to his house. Right as we reached his front door, I pushed him up against the wall. I crushed my lips onto him then leaving him dazed as I opened his door and walked right in. one of the many perks of being so close to a family is not having to worry about feeling like a burden when you're in their house. I turned back to Nick before continuing.

"I'm really glad we're back together" I said smiling at the love struck face Nick was making into the air. He broke out of his trance, grabbed my hand and led the way. We ended up in his basement which was also a mini recording studio as it had dozens of guitars, a drum set, and of course Nick's grand piano. He guided me to the piano then sat down.

"Well first I wrote a song called A Little Bit Longer. It's not about you but as you can see by the title you inspired me to write it" He explained then began to play a beautiful melody of notes.

Got the news today

Doctors said I had to stay

A little bit longer and I'll be fine

When I thought it'd all be done

When I thought it'd all been said

A little bit longer and I'll be fine.

But you don't know what you got 'til it's gone

And you don't know what it's like to feel so low

And every time you smile you laugh you glow

You don't even know, know, know.

You don't even know

He continued to play notes but he was unable to sing anymore. I sat down on the bench next to him, grabbed his arm, and kissed his cheek.

"Nick it sounds beautiful. And when you're ready to play it for me, I'll be right here" I said looking straight into his eyes that were filled with tears. He shook his head, causing his curls to go crazy and whipped his face quickly.

"Which brings me to my next song," He said chuckling. "I think you'll really like this one."

He began singing lyrics about a girl who left him but no matter what he couldn't stop thinking about her. the words were heartfelt because I knew they were directed at me. I closed my eyes and took in the melody combined with lyrics.

But your smile still makes my heart sing

Another sad song

I can't forget it

I won't regret it

Then I heard the words I'd been wanting to hear since the moment I laid eyes on him.

"Cause I'm still in love with you"

I turned my head and looked at him as he got caught up in his song. Feeling my stare on him, he turned my way. Seeing my shocked reaction sent a wave of panic through him.

"Oh Miley I mean… It's just.. you know.. ha.. they're just word.. I mean.. haha.. uh.. you know…" he rambled on. I did the proper think of silencing him with my lips as I crushed them once again on his. I deepened the kiss as I got up and straddled him, pushing him against the piano creating a messy melody of its own. But it described us perfectly; though we may not have been the perfect couple, together we were perfect for each other.

"Miley… I love you" Nick said. I glanced up at his deep brown eyes. The sincerity in his voice could have killed me. I smiled at him.

"I love you too Nicky. Always have always will."

So hey everybody! I know it has been a couple years since I have updated this but after all the Niley things that have been surfacing lately, I felt this need to finish this story. I plan on making this a story about what I personally think happened/is going to happen between Miley and Nick by using all the songs they've written about each other. There are some quotes that I've taken from Miley's book or interviews so I obviously don't take any credit for those words I have used but they are small quotes nothing major. I hope there's still people willing to read this because I know the gap it's taken me to update is crazy but I'm here to stay and keep writing I promise! A lot of the people I used to talk to about Niley news have all disappeared off here so if anyone's looking for a gossip pal I'm your girl! Like about Nick's song Wedding Bells?! Also I'm looking for some help with this story. There's a lot that has happened with Niley in the past few years and I'm not perfect so there may be plenty of things I leave out so I could use help in refreshing my memory. Review and let me know what you think so I know if I still have some support! . I hope all is well everyone!