Holding On

A Jacob Black fan fiction.

And a sequel to The Nessie Chronicles Books I and II

Summary: Nessie's made her choice, and she's chosen Keith over Jake. How does Jake deal? How does he hold on to the reason of his existence? Companion to The Nessie Chronicles. R&R

Prologue

I stared at her back as she ran back to the house. As her once curly, now straight, hair bounced up and down. My Nessie, my angel, wasn't choosing me anymore. She was choosing someone else. That human boy Keith. How I loathed him. Stop, Jacob! I commanded myself, You don't even know him!

I had made the stupidest mistake of my life! I had run away, because I thought she didn't need me. I thought that she would be happy with Skye and Kendall and get with Nahuel, even. I thought I wouldn't care. But after I left…it didn't matter. Nessie and I were made for each other. That was all I knew. It was.

Then Leah found me. She told me off, saying I was exactly like Edward. Back almost twelve years ago when he left Bella. It left her broken. But it wasn't the same with Nessie. She could stand on her own feet. It had taken Bella half a year to find someone to lean on--me-- but it only took Nessie a matter of days.

Then Sam shifted at the same time she was in wolf form. He found me, and sent me home. I was going to eventually. I knew Leah was right. Leah! Unbelievable. So I came home, expecting Nessie to fall into my arms. And I hated to admit it, but I thought it would be like Bella to Edward. Boy, was I wrong.

Clenching my fists in pain, a ran into the forest. It was small and thin compared to the forest in Forks. I could break a tree with a finger. The rage I could usually control, the only time I ever shifted was when Nessie and I went hunting. I sometimes caught glimpses of what the others were thinking if they were in wolf form. But the rez was safe now. No more vampires roaming around.

But this time I couldn't stand it. The clothes ripped off my back, and I sighed at the thought of my shoes coming apart. It reminded me of before when I was only a new wolf, and we all messed up our clothes. At least those shoes weren't old.

"Um, hello?" a voice echoed in my head. "Is someone there?"

"Oh. Hey Seth." I thought back.

"Jake!" He said excitedly. "Man, good to hear your voice! Or…well…thoughts. But whatever. Is it true you were just here?"

"Well, yeah kinda." I replied. "Um, you think you can shift out and go find your sister? I need to talk to her."

"About what?" he asked. Then he saw it. He heard it. He lived it. "Oh. Damn! Jeez man. I'll find her."

His presence was gone. It kind of reminded me of a chat room. I talk, you talk. If you leave you sign out. You come, you sign in. I laughed at my own joke.

"Jake?" Leah thought.

"I'm here." I said. "We were wrong, Leah. Dead. Wrong."

"What do you mean?" she asked. I showed her what happened. "Oh, fuck, Jake! That is harsh! Your fault though. You only did this to yourself."

"Nice to know whose side your on." I remarked coldly.

"Whose? Keith's?" She exclaimed. "Ha. Yeah right. You fucking imprinted on Renesmee! That boy cant be with her!"

"I don't even know him. He could be a nice guy." I said half heartedly.

"Ugh. Don't tell yourself that Jake. You never know. He could be some creep." she said. "You know what? I need to go. I hope to talk to you again soon Jake."

Then her presence was gone, And I was alone.

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