Chapter Three

*Jasmine POV*

ARRGGGHHH!!! What the hell am I going to do? I knew I should have never even started talking to that guy. First he asks me out on a date and I'm like sure, I'd never been in a situation like that and I didn't want to turn him down. He seemed nice enough. But now it's gotten out of hand. Now I'm meant to MARRY this guy. But I don't love him. I love Lief. What the hell am I going to do?

I decided to walk down to the great hall where I knew Queen Sharn would be. She would help me out with this. Surely she will. She always does. I got to the large oak doors and heard crying noises. I put my ear to the door and listened. "Oh Ma! What am I going to do?" Oh My God that's Lief. I've never heard him cry before. Something horrible must have happened! I listened some more. This time it was Sharn's voice. Come here Lief. It'll be okay. There are plenty of other women out there that I'm sure you will love more than Jasmine," Oh Shit. Does that mean… Oh God I've really fucked things up now. I gathered the courage to go in. I was determined that I would tell Lief the truth and I would leave Phillip and everything would be okay. I pushed open the door but froze and said "Uh maybe this is a bad time. I'll come back later." I closed the door again and leant against the wall next to it. I closed my eyes. I can't do it. I just can't. He'll think I'm some sort of a slut and he won't love me anymore. But I have to do it.

Then an idea came to my head. If I was in love with Lief is that technically 'cheating' on Phillip? I need to let him know now before he starts making plans and telling everyone. I set off in search of Phillip. I found him talking to Barda. He probably already knew. "Uh hi Phillip. Can I talk to you for a sec?" I asked. "Yeah sure honey what is it?" he replied with a smile. "I was wondering if we could talk in private?" I said. "Of course," I took him by the hand and lead him into and empty room. I took a deep breath and said it. "Phillip, I can't do this. I'm sorry. I know you love me but I… I just don't feel the same about you. I'm really sorry Phil. There are so many girls out there I know you'll find someone better than me." "What? But… Well if that's what makes you happy then I'll have to deal with it," he said. I was surprised by how fine he was with all of this. "Something's going on that I don't know about," I said suspiciously. He looked away and I grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and pulled him close to me. "TELL ME!" I growled menacingly. "Okay, Okay, I'll tell you," I let go of his shirt, "My parents wanted me to be powerful and influential but I was nothing, I wasn't smart, I wasn't skilled at anything, I knew I could never become what my parents wanted me to be. So when I saw you in Tora I concocted a plan. I would marry you and my parents would be proud of me, that's all I ever wanted, for my parents to be proud of me…" he explained sadly. I hugged him. "Phillip, I'm sure your parents are proud of you. You're a wonderful person and a good friend and don't tell me that your carpenting skills aren't world class!" I reassured him. A smile came to his face. Well at least I didn't break his heart. That's a major relief. But could I have possibly broken Lief's?