Disclaimer: you know whos it is:) Richelle Mead's. If it were mine, i would think of a way to bring back.. you know who.

soo, i read shadow kiss in one day. yes. ONE DAY. from 3- 11. eight hours of straight reading. anyways i loved it loved it loved it. I couldn't help but laugh at the parts where I was ALMOST close, like after she saw mason, Rose was all like " A lump formed in my throat" but in mine i was all like "and found it hard to swallow that lump in the back of my throat" which you guys probably don't care about right now :) so its ok. but yeah i wrote this short chapter the day before i read the book, and I could never find the courage to put it up after because.. well the real one is way better. i would have changed the ending maybe? :P but no it was perfect. I might start a new one about maybe Rose's quest to find Dimitri but for now, i'm going to take a hiatus on this. IM SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG. AND IM SORRY THIS MESSAGE IS EVEN LONGER. :|

How could one look make your world come crashing down. How could one person look at you and make you feel so important and change you all at the same. All it took was one look..

Dimitri's face kept replaying in my mind. That look of anguish before he turned to walk away with the other guardians.

If I were the old Rose in this situation, I would have let my ego get the best of me by finding the next boy I could find to cover up the embarrassement I felt.

If I were the old Rose, I would have gone into that lounge and sipped on a couple of drinks with my friends to try and forget about stupid Dimitri.

If I were the old Rose, I would have walked away right now thinking that I could get anyone I wanted, so why should I care about this one?

But I was the new Rose. The one who cared too much about Dimitri to forget how he made me feel. And without knowing it, my legs began to take me in the direction of none other than, Dimitri.

What concerned me was that if he was back, that would have to mean that the trial was over and that the court had made a decision about Victor Dashkov.

Just thinking about him made me shiver. I had to know what was wrong. What was making Dimitri, even Alberta, look so tense? I knew for a fact that Dimitri had seen me, and that he was avoiding me for a reason. I deserved to know.

"We're going to get back on our regular shifts starting tomorrow. As for tonight, Celeste is still scheduled to take your night shift so I guess that means you have the night off." Dimitri nodded at Alberta's authority, "I didn't think we would be able to get back this quickly. " Alberta shook her head in some sort of disapproval, and turned to walk towards the door, which was also in my direction.

I quickly walked a few paces away from the door and turned around and came back, trying to walk nonchalantly, so to not make it seem like I was just eavesdropping right now. If anybody was around to watch, they would think that I was a lunatic. Well, they were probably right.

Alberta acknowledged me with a nod as we passed eachother. As soon as she turned the corner, I steered towards Dimitri's office and stopped at the threshold. Dimitri looked up from where he was sitting.

"Roza."

Hearing his voice say my name like that just gave me the sudden urge to sigh in relief. It made me forget why I came here in the first place. And it reminded me that, Dimitri wasn't someone that could easily be replaced.

"Hey comrade," I tried not to let the relief and desperation show, " back so soon? "

Something about my question made him tense up all over again. He stood up and walked past me to shut the door lightly. The smell of his aftershave wafted through my nose, and it made me realize how much I missed it. Him.

I waited for Dimitri to walk back in front of me but he just stood at the door and honestly, it felt like his eyes were burning the back of my head. I kept my back to him, afraid of seeing what was written on his face.

I could have sworn I heard him hesitate before he said, "They know about us. "

If it were any other time, I would have relished in the fact that he had used the term "us", which meant that there was an "us". But instead, I had a feeling that this wasn't the right time to speak up about it.