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By the time school was over I had collected six letters from Edward, and I was ready to pull my hair out. How could he just sit there with that stupid smirk on his face, I knew he couldn't read my mind. I was positive that hadn't changed. He was just so damn confident that he just knew everything was going to work out in the end. How he knew that was beyond me. After lunch I didn't say two words to him, until he walked me to Alice's car. "I'll see you tomorrow Bella!" he said with the same stupid smirk on his face. I was tempted to try my hand at smacking it off his face, but before I had a chance Alice bounced to the driver's side of the car. "Ready Bella?" she asked. "You have no idea!" I said returning the smirk to Edward as he opened the door.

"So I was wondering Rose and I are going to go hunting. Esme will probably come with us and I just wanted to know if you would like to come with us. You know like a girl's night out!" asked Alice as we pulled out of the parking lot. I smiled at the thought, I knew I needed to hunt, and it would be much more fun hunting with the girls than alone. Plus Alice would probably threaten Edward within an inch of his life if he followed us. At least this way I wouldn't risk running into him alone. "I would love to Alice, what time are you guys going?" I asked. "Oh I don't know probably about eight or eight thirty," said Alice as she pulled into my driveway. "Sounds great," I said. "We'll meet you here then?" asked Alice. "Okay!" I said.

I watched Alice pull out of the driveway before turning toward my house. Once back inside the house I was finally able to let my tough defenses fall. Edward had been so calm and patient, he was clearly willing to wait until I changed my mind and why wouldn't he, we had all of eternity. I climbed into bed and cried my tearless sobs for what seemed like hours. Seven o'clock came more quickly than I would have liked, and I forced myself to get out of bed and shower thankful for once that the red eyes and puffy face that I used get, couldn't give away the fact that I had been crying over him for the past three hours.

After showering I pulled on my favorite sweat suit, it was dark blue, with comfy tennis shoes. I knew Alice would kill me and it really didn't matter I would have been just as comfortable in heels and a mini skirt, but the thought of being comfortable made me feel better. Around 7:45 there was a knock on my door. I plastered a smile on my face and opened the door preparing myself for the worst. But I was pleasantly surprised. "Esme," I said unable to hide the surprise in my voice. "Oh Bella!" she said hugging me tightly. I returned the hugged and asked her to come in.

"What can I do for you Esme; I thought you would all be coming together!" I said."Oh well, the girls will be here shortly, I just wanted to speak to you before we left" she said. "Ok, please have a seat!" I said. "Thank you!" she said having a seat on the couch, I sat down next to her waiting for her to begin. "I wanted to talk to you about last night, and honey before I even start I want you to know that I love you. Regardless of how things turn out between you and Edward I will always see you as a daughter of mine!" she said pausing to gather her thoughts. "But that being said, I don't understand. I don't understand why things are so bad between you two. We only left so that you would be safe. We couldn't stand to cause you any more pain, or put you in anymore danger. It was something that we fought about for many, many years! It wasn't an easy decision for our family to make, but in the end Edward said that it was the only way, so we left. It wasn't necessarily the way we wanted to end things, but it was going to make it easiest for both you and Edward!" she said. I took a deep breath, trying not to loose my temper with Esme. "Why is it that everyone is so concerned about how Edward feels? I know that he is your son, but he's not going to change his mind, he doesn't love me, he made his mind up about that 100 years ago. That was his choice, I was simply a human then, and he didn't love me, I was just one of his distractions, someone to keep him occupied while he was in Forks. I'm sure he has had many more since then, and if he is hoping that I have changed into this magnificent creature since my change, he's wrong. I'm the same Bella I was in Forks, quite a book worm and plain and simple. I have come to grips with that. When I was attacked, I was engaged Esme!" I said taking my necklace off and handing her the ring that Jacob had given me. "I had moved on, I was happy and I was in love. I will never love anyone as much as I loved Edward but I loved Jacob, and more importantly he loved me!" I said.

I watched as Esme looked down at the ¾ carat cushion cut diamond engagement ring that Jacob had given me the day that I was attacked. "I……I……" she said attempting to get something out. I couldn't decide what emotion was most evident on her face, shock, fear, sadness; suddenly I wished that I had Jaspers power. She took a deep breath and handed the ring back to me. "Bella I am so very happy that you were able to move on, as Edward intended for you to do after we left. But I don't understand something!" she said. "What did he tell you when we left that would drive you to believe that he didn't love you?" she asked. "That he didn't love me! He told me that the entire family was leaving and that he didn't want me to come with you, which is something that I was more than willing to do! He told me that he didn't want me, period, and then he left me standing alone out in the woods!" I said fighting back the invisible tears that threatened to spill down my cheeks for the second time that day. "I asked him point blank if he loved me, and his answer was no. He would have no reason to change his mind, he didn't love me then and he doesn't love me now, and I refuse to be a distraction to him again!" I said. "Oh Bella!" she said reaching for me.

I hugged Esme in return having nothing against the woman I once considered a mother. "What are we going to do with you two?" she asked smiling weakly. I opened my mouth to answer but there was a knock at the door interrupting our conversation. "We will figure this out honey, I promise you we will!" she said. I simply nodded, not even 100 percent sure that I wanted to figure it out. Esme and I walked to the door to find Alice and Rosalie waiting. "Let's go ladies!" said Alice, excited as usual. "Bella are you okay?" she asked. "I'm great Alice, ready to spend the night with my three favorite girls!" I said. "Well then let's go!" she said.

I was distracted the entire hunt, Alice and Rosalie were talking my ear off, or at least they would have been if I would have been paying attention. We stayed out all night, and I hunted some but not as much as I would have if I hadn't been upset over Edward. Finally about four in the morning we headed back towards my house. "Bella, are you sure you're okay?" asked Alice as we walked into my kitchen. "I'm okay Alice!" I said meekly, sure she didn't believe me. She gave me a disbelieving look but didn't push the subject. "Okay ladies, why don't we head home, so we can let Bella get ready for school!" said Esme. "Okay, Bella we will see you in a few hours!" said Rosalie. "Okay guys, thanks for inviting me on your hunt, I had a good time!" I said. "Anytime Bella!" said Esme.

Once I was sure that they were gone I fell back on the sofa and sighed, "What am I supposed to do?" I asked myself. It was then that I realized that I hadn't read the letters from Edward. I grabbed them from my tote bag and made my way up to my room, and climbed into bed, which ironically seemed to be my favorite place to be these days.

*Esme*

I was beyond angry by the time we left Bella's. All these years he had moped around feeling miserable for himself and he had told the girl that he didn't love her. How did he expect to feel, it would have been hard enough to leave if she had known the truth behind our reasons. But for him to flat out lie to her, and hurt her unnecessarily like that was unacceptable. I stormed into the house, which was something that I didn't generally do, and was completely out of character for me. I was usually in control of my emotions, especially when it came to Edward. I didn't stop until I had reached the third floor and was standing in front of his closed door. I debated knocking first but quickly decided against it and stormed in. Edward looked up at me shocked. "Esme, is everything okay?" he asked panic clear in his voice. "How could you?" I yelled.