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I was sitting in my bath room, frightened of getting a vision. I hadn't let Jasper come and stay in with me, I didn't want him to feel my fear and upset him. The same that I didn't want Edward to see what I was seeing. I was on lock down, not for myself, but for my family.

I was sitting in the corner of my bathroom. I was in fear of myself and I hated it. I started to whimper as I felt a vision coming on.

The girl, who was me, was about fourteen years old. She was sitting on a swing when she tensed up, a blank stare coming over her face. She was having a vision.

I came back to the present, breathing heavily. The vision wasn't that bad but was it over? I placed my head on my knees and my hands clasped behind my head, whimpering still. There was a knock on the door. "Alice?" Jasper asked softly. "Come on baby, just let me in, I-" Once again I was sucked into the vision, cutting Jasper's voice off.

The girl ran away from the swing and over to a small house. There were her parents, their hands clasped together, looking upset. No, not upset. Ashamed. "You're sending me to that place aren't you?" She said, her eyes filled with tears. "I know what's going to happen if I go, please, please don't send me there."

"Honey what else can we do?" Her mother said looking down at the floor. "The whole town is talking about the demon child in the house on the corner." She looked up at the girl. "That's you, even though we don't want to, we can't have our name tainted." She looked away from her daughter, it was as if she couldn't bare to do what she had to. "You think it's easy for us?" She whispered. "You can't go through life like it's all god damn happiness and sunshine because one day it's going to come back and get you, you have no choice, just as we don't. You have to go."

"Please! Don't let me go there!" Tears spilled over onto her cheeks. "I'll keep everything quiet, I won't tell anyone about the pictures please don't send me there?!" The younger me was now crying, tears rolling down her cheek and spilling down onto her dress.

I was pulled out of the vision to find myself once more dry sobbing hard and Jasper breaking the door down. I backed away from him before I faded back into my past.

Her father grabbed her roughly by her arms and shook her hard. "You know that's not good enough! Just stop seeing these things!"

"You know I can't!" She screamed at him crying harder. "Don't you think I've tried dad! I've tried my hardest not to see these things. I don't want to be such a disappointment to you, please don't send me there. I'll do anything, ANYTHING!" She was crying harder now, on her knees in front of her father, almost begging him not to send her away.

I looked up at her father and saw his eyes. She could see that it broke his heart to send her to the hell that would eventually kill me. He had killed his daughter without him knowing it. And now I knew why he had done it, I forgave him.

I opened my eyes, my Jasper was sitting there, stroking my face soothingly. He smiled sympathetically at me as I looked into his beautiful topaz eyes.

"He didn't want to do it." I whispered to Jasper almost silently.

"Who honey?" Jasper asked in such a calm and understanding voice he sounded like a therapist.

"My dad." I whispered. "My real dad. People were talking about the devil child of the town, the girl who knew about things before they happened. I was that girl and he was forced to put me there. I could see it in his eyes. He didn't want to do it." I explained.

Jasper gently hugged me. "How bad are these visions?" He asked me after a moment of silence from both of us.

I looked at him. "Rather bad." I admitted. "It's not like I'm seeing it like I did then, it's like, I'm not supposed to be there, like I'm watching a movie, or I'm just watching something that I can't do anything to perfect or change the outcome of." I tried to explain.

Jasper hugged me tighter as I tried to explain. I smiled and hugged him back gently, loving feeling this close to him in such a difficult time. "I wish I could stop this for you." He whispered to me.

I closed my eyes. "I don't." He pulled away from me and as I opened my eyes I saw the confusion in his. I sighed and looked away from his smouldering eyes. "I always wanted to know what happened to me in my human life. And now, I can know the details." I licked my lips slightly and looked back up at him.

"But look what it's doing to you." Jasper countered, not in a challenging way, but in a sort of protective way. I glanced away from him when he said that. "You've resorted to hiding in a bathroom Alice."

"That was for you and Edward." I said looking back up at him. "I love you too much to see you upset and scared because of my emotions." I said starting to get upset.

Jasper looked at me, hiding any emotion from his face, and hiding it well. "Alice." He said so quietly I had to turn my head away from him. "Hey, hey looked at me." He placed his hands on either side of my face, gently forcing me to look at him once more. He smiled at me warmly. "I'm going to be here to take away the pain. You're not going to bare this alone."

I smiled at him and slowly kissed his lips, lingering there for a second. I then rested my forehead on his, looking deep into his soulful eyes as my smile became warmer. "I love you." I whispered to him almost silently.

He smiled back at me, and gently stroked my hair, pushing it behind my ear before gently tracing my cheek with his thumb. "And I love you."

A.N.- Ok so I really truely love this fic, I find it really really good. So I think that Alice's father was a good man, I think that he wasn't given much of a choice and this is what happened. Remember that Alice is only getting little snippets of her life nothing else, so it's all jumbled up and stuff, but things will get clearer for you guys when it gets clearer for Alice.

Thanks to emoTWiLiGHT who beta-d this about a month ago and then I kinda lost the beta-d document but it's ok, I don't think she changed much so yeah!