Titel: Keep me save?

Author: Phoebe

Disclaimer: Nope, not mine!

Background: AU. Starts after 'Run away little Boy' Rating: M Pairing: Trory

Summery: After a tragedy Rory finds herself alone and decides to go to the only person she thinks can keep her safe.

Chapter 1

"So, I might kiss you goodbye but, uh, your boyfriend's watching. Take care of yourself…Mary."

Those had been his last words to her and she couldn't stop thinking about them. Rory knew she had a thing for Tristan, even though she always turned him down. But how could she agree to go out with him, when she knew that if she started something with him, it would turn her whole world around. Tristan managed to bring something out in her, she had not known was there. Whenever he was around she got that warm sensation inside her belly and she just wanted to get lost in him. But being the daughter of one Lorelei Victoria Gilmore taught you that getting lost in someone could be a quite dangerous thing and if it got out of control you could end up pregnant at 16. That was something Rory wanted to avoid at any cost, even if it meant giving up a potentially great relationship.

After Madeline's Party she started to see that she was more than a conquest to him and that was when she started to panic and told him that, the kiss meant nothing to her. She had seen the flick of hurt in his eyes for a second and it tore at her heart but she could not end up like her mother. So she decided that she would pretend like nothing happened and to make sure that he stayed away, she'd told Dean in front of Tristan, that she hated Tristan and that she loved him. She knew that she didn't, but he was safe and convenient, and that was what she needed. After that incident Tristan stayed out of her way and even though she missed him, she knew it was for the best. But then the Idiot had to go and break into that safe and get his ass kicked out of Chilton and into Military School.

So here she was...sitting on her bed and thinking over everything that has happened and wishing that she had done things differently. She knew there was no point, but it didn't stop her from doing so.

Lorelai noticed that her daughter had not been in her right mind after she talked to that blond boy in the hallway. Judging from Deans possessive behavior afterwards she would say that, that was Bible Boy, but one can never be sure. So she sent Dean on his way to get some alone time with Rory.

After watching her daughter another few minutes sitting on her bed lost in thoughts, she went to the get some ice cream and spoons. With that she positioned herself in front of Rory, gave her a spoon and started with the questions.

'So...are you gonna tell mommy who that Greek God was you were talking to earlier?'

Startled Rory looked up at her mother only now noticing that she wasn't alone. Quickly looking around she furrowed her eyebrows.

'Where did Dean go?'

'Seeing as you were not paying him any attention, I send him home'

'Oh'

'So are you gonna tell me what happened tonight that has you so occupied...or does mommy have to find out all on her own who that guy was?'

'That was Tristan' ... Rory said with a slight blush on her cheeks, which didn't go unnoticed by Lorelai.

'Bible Boy...thought so! So what did he want and why was Paris your Romeo instead of him?'

'He and two of his stupid friends broke into a safe and he got his stupid ass shipped off to Military School' ... Anger started to rise within her and she wanted to throw something to get rid off all her frustration.

Lorelai noticed the barely hidden anger in her daughters voice and the frustration that radiated of her and raced an eyebrow.

'But I thought you and E.T. didn't get along ... so shouldn't you be happy, that he is leaving? You see ... you have mommy a little confused here!'

'We don't get along ... he was making my life hell !!'

'I'm still a little confused here'

'I love that fuckin' Idiot !! That is my problem !!' ... She stated breathing heavily, after finally telling somebody how she was feeling. And the first tear started to leak out of her eye, with many to follow.

Taken aback by her outburst Lorelai took a moment to look at her daughter and after seeing her tears she rushed to her side and hugged her tightly. Never had she seen Rory so distressed over anything. It broke her heart to see her baby so broken and sad, but what she couldn't understand was why Rory, if she was in love with Tristan was together with Dean.

After a while of rocking her crying daughter and trying to sooth her, curiosity got the better of her.

'I'm sorry ... but if you love Tristan, then why are you together with Dean?'

Looking up into her mothers confused eyes, Rory answered with a hiccup ... 'Because Tristan is my Christopher and I didn't want to mess up and disappoint you. I want to do all the things you never got to do, because you had me. I want you to be proud of me'

'Oh hun.!!' ... kissing to top of her hair, Lorelai had her own tears to battle against.

'I am proud of you...more than you'll ever know. You could never disappoint me Rory. You are my everything and I wouldn't change that for anything...do you hear me??' ... Looking to see if she understood her she continued.

'... I know you are scared that something could go wrong, but hun...that is life...nothing ever goes the way we want them to. You can't let your fears hold you back from being happy and being with someone you love. Don't make the same mistake I did.' ... again she kissed the top of Rory's head and wiped away the tear that had escaped her own eyes.

Rory nodded slowly and a fresh stream of tears came when she realized that it didn't matter any more, because the person in question was already out of her life and on his way to North Carolina.

After Rory cried herself to sleep in her mothers arms, Lorelai laid her down on the bed, covered her in her blanket and kissed her goodnight. Walking out of the room she glanced back again before closing the door and picking up her phone and the Phonebook that lay on the counter.

Leafing through it she was looking for a phone number under the name DuGrey. She could have called her mother, but she knew that, that would only resolve in a load of questions which she could not answer. Finally finding what she was looking for she dialled the number and waited patiently for someone to pick up. Nervously she tapped her fingers against her legs. Suddenly a voice could be heard on the other line.

'Janlan DuGrey's mansion, how may I help you?'

'Hi ... this is Lorelai Gilmore speaking. I would like to talk to Mr. DuGrey, is he available?'

'Please hold on a second, I will ask if Mr. DuGrey wants to take this call'

'...sure...' ... Lorelai was unsure if he would even talk to her, not to think about what she was about to ask him.

'Janlan DuGrey speaking ... Miss Gilmore how may I help you'

Nervously Lorelai laughed. She had met Janlan on several occasions but he was still a stranger to her.

'Well you see...my daughter goes to Chilton with your Grandson and she just told me that he will be attending Military School in North Carolina from now on...and I wanted to ask if you could maybe give me the address of said School so my daughter could write to him.'

'Miss Gilmore not to offend you, but the reason Tristan is going to Military School is because we want him to get away from everyone around here...and I don't want to hand out the address to his 'girlfriends' so that they can write to him.'

'And I understand that completely, but you see ... my daughter was never one of his 'Girlfriends' as you like to call them...but she just told me that she had liked your grandson for a long time, but never got around to tell him. I just want her to have some closure and I assure you I mean no harm.'

'May I ask your daughters name?'

'Ähm...Lorelai Leigh Gilmore ... Rory for short ... or Mary as your Grandson referred to her'

'Mary, you say?' ... Lorelai could hear the surprise in his voice.

'Yes...does that mean anything to you?'

'Yes...my Grandson often told me of his Mary and that she wouldn't give him the time of the day. I always thought her to be a clever girl for not giving into his charms so easily, but I never got to know her real name...well I think I can make an exception for you, but you are not to give this address to anyone besides your daughter!'

'Of course not! And thank you...this will mean a lot to Rory.'

'Well...maybe I'll get to meet her one day. I'll send the address to your house, sine I don't have it with me now. Have a good evening Miss Gilmore'

'You too, Mr. DuGrey. And thank you again. Bye.'

After she put down the phone Lorelai let out a breath she didn't know she was holding. She walked up to her room, and pulled out a box that she had been hiding under her bed. Slowly she opened the box and took a good look inside. Fear overcame her when she saw the contends and she had to stop herself from crying. Yes she had problems of her own...big problems. And like every night she battled with herself, if she should talk to Rory about them, but like every night she decided against it. How could she take away her baby's innocence with her problems. She'd do everything to protect her daughter and that was what she was going to do.

But instead of closing the Box again and putting it under the bed, she took out a pen and some paper and began to write. When she was finished she folded the paper, put it into an envelope and wrote Rory's name on it. After she put the envelope into the box she again hid it under the bed. She changed and went to bed and after hours of restlessness she finally fell asleep.

AN: Well people that's the first chapter. Since this is my first fic I hope it wasn't too bad. Please review and let me know what to think. Whatever you think ... just be honest.

Thx Phoebe