Not So Innocent

Disclaimer:

Stephanie Meyer own Twilight.

Summary:

"The pain and anger was swallowing me up, pulling me into darker forces I didn't know existed. And that was the problem. I was innocent. Young. Naïve. But I wouldn't be for long. I'd show him." BxE Two shot

A/N This takes place when Edward left Bella in New Moon.

So this is a twoshot. The next chapter will probably be posted in a few days…

I guess this could be a little bit dark - especially next chapter...

Anger poured through my veins, drowning me.

I couldn't breath, couldn't think - couldn't live.

The anger was swallowing me up, pulling me into darker forces I didn't know existed

And that was the problem

I was innocent

Young

Naïve

But I wouldn't be for long

I'd show him

Bella Swan stood outside the school gate, sighing as she stamped out her cigarette

"I really should quit…" Bella said as her foot made contact with the burnt out fag

"Why?" Kevin Rosh asked.

Kevin stood opposite Bella, his face hard as he watched the brunette glance behind her at the drab school she was about to enter. There was something about his appearance, his stance, his features that warned the few students dwindling up the steps and to the entrance of the school to stay away

He was dangerous

That much was obvious

"Screw giving up…." Kevin spoke, his voice harsh and cutting

Bella looked at the hand that was currently outstretched towards her, the packet of cigarettes in his hand, offering her

"I can't now anyway, no smoking at school…"

Kevin rolled his eyes, withdrawing his hand

"I don't even see why you go to school Bella. It's a piece of shit"

Bella cringed. School was another way of escape – a safer way. She'd immerse herself in her work until he was only at the back of her mind, still plaguing her thoughts, but in a hazier form. And then when school work started to run out, she turned to something more dangerous. Something rebellious

Something he would hate

His growling and furious words – figments of her imagination – were the only reasons she did it. She wanted to break her promise to him – just like he broke his.

She'd promised him to be safe – to not do anything dangerous

And Bella Swan took great pleasure in disobeying him

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Walking into the classroom, Bella rolled her eyes as she noticed the disapproving stares of her classmates.

Gone was the innocent schoolgirl.

Gone was the girl who blushed under the gaze of other people

Sitting in her assigned seat at the back, Bella laid her head on the desk, hoping to catch a few minutes of sleep before the teacher came in. If she was lucky, no one would notice her closed eyes and she could sleep through homeroom.

But she was hardly ever lucky

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"Bella Swan wake up!" Bella jumped with a start as she opened her eyes and saw a furious teacher looking down on her. "This is the fifth time you've fallen asleep in class Bella. May I suggest you either get a full night sleep or don't bother coming in…"

The brunette girl glared at the teacher in her attempt to hide her mortification. It was only when the teacher made her way back to the front of the class did Bella notice the shocked glanced of everyone else. She wondered what it was they were so shocked about – she always fell asleep in class on account of never sleeping for more than a couple of hours the previous night. So what made today so special?

Tilting her head to the right, Bella caught sight of a person she had never wanted to see again.

Elicting a loud gasp, realisation dawned on her as to why her classmates were staring at her.

For sitting a few seats away from her, staring disapprovingly and in shock was her ex best friend.

Alice Cullen was back.

The bell rang, a harsh sound against the silence of the class room. Bella sprung up from her chair, knocking it over in the process, to eager in her haste to leave.

Grabbing her bag in one hand and swiftly pulling it over her shoulder, she stalked out of the room, her face as stormy as thunder warning her fellow peers to move out of the way or else.

She knew she had to get away quickly. She couldn't afford to slow down. She needed to run – she needed to get away.

"Bella…" the familiar voice swept over Bella, opening wounds she had previously thought were closed. Closed – but never healed. Her wounds would never heal.

Alice placed a hand on Bella's shoulder in an attempt to get her to stop walking so briskly.

Bella flinched away, stinging from the cold that pierced her skin through the flimsy fabric of her clothes.

Alice quickly withdrew her hand. Stepping in front of her, she blocked the path of the furious human, unwilling to let her get away.

Bella lifted her face to meet Alice's and Alice gasped as she saw the pain and torment plaguing Bella's eyes. She inwardly shrank away from the fury and rage that she knew was directed towards her.

"Get out of my fucking way Cullen…" not once had Alice heard such venom coated words directed at her. And it was all that more of a shock hearing them from someone she considered to be her best friend – her sister.

"Bella – listen…"

"I don't think so Alice. Now get out of the way…" Bella cut off

"Bella – don't do this…"

"I'll do what I like…" Rage was engulfing Bella. How dare they show up now and order her about?

Pushing past the small vampire, Bella stalked past, her bag slapping against her side

And stopped

Edward stood there. And next to him was Emmett and Jasper. The three Cullen boys were attracting the attention of every student at Forks High that passed; however, Bella's eyes didn't stray from him.

Her gaze took him in, drinking him in. Her eyes started from his feet, up his legs and then stopping at his lean chest. With the top he was wearing, she could just about see the toned body that was covered by the material.

And then her gaze travelled up, taking in the strong jaw, the lips she yearned for. And then she looked at the bronze hair she had spent all too long wanting to run her fingers through.

Her gaze did not meet his eyes

She refused to look into his eyes

For to look into his eyes would mean that she would beg, weep, plead. And she wouldn't do that. She was strong now. She couldn't do that. She had built herself up too much to be torn down by a certain Cullen.

No man was ever going to mess with her again

Edward fidgeted underneath her gaze. She looked at him and her eyes bore through him. But then he took the time to take her in.

She was thinner. Her hair was limp. Her face drained. Her hands were clenched tightly into fists bracing herself for an attack. Her face was contorted with shock and anger – and yet, to him, she still looked beautiful.

Emmett looked around and saw that the students had stopped going about their daily things and instead were blatantly staring at the newly arrived Cullen's and Bella.

"Instead of standing I suggest you go back to your routines…"

Everyone dispersed. A suggestion by Emmett Cullen was not a suggestion – it was a direct order, a threat. And no one would dare disobey Emmett Cullen.

Now alone, the four Cullen's didn't know what to do. Bella stared away – seemingly lost in her own world.

"Bella…" Edward whispered, his mouth forming the word he loved the most

Bella's head snapped up, her attention caught. She met Edward's gaze, stared into his eyes with a fury. Her fists clenched tighter, her body trembling.

Jasper tried to calm her

"No! Jasper don't even think about doing it. You are not going to manipulate my emotions…" her voice was cutting, a harsh sound that rang clearly through the halls.

"How have you been Bella?" Edward asked, trying to break the tension

It was the wrong question

Bella's eyes widened in disbelief before shaking her head, biting back the sarcastic laugh she was sure was going to fall from her lips anyway.

"How have I been? How have I been?" Bella's voice was rising. "Oh I've been fucking fantastic thank you very much. After finding out that I was just a distraction I've been over the fucking moon." Bella spat, her face mocking. "It hasn't been all bad though…" a twisted smile overcame Bella's features as she thought of her next words carefully. "I've actually been quite good. I met some people – started enjoying myself. I guess you'll never know how amazing it is to get drunk and laid" Bella spoke casually, her words had the aim to hurt

And hurt they did

Edward visibly flinched, his eyes narrowing as images of his Bella plagued his mind.

"Anyway, enough of me" Bella relaxed a bit, crossing her arms in front of her body forming a barrier. "Why are you here anyway? I'm pretty sure you promised I'd never have to see your face again…" her words were harsh, filled with contempt

Alice frowned – this wasn't her best friend. This wasn't the same Bella who just a few months ago was infuriated with Edward.

"You've changed Bella?" Alice stated quietly, almost whispering the words

Bella laughed sarcastically. "No shit Sherlock. You can blame your bastard of a brother for that. Now if you don't mind – I've got a party to attend…"

Bella started to walk away; however, was stopped by a restraining hand

"It's the middle of the school day Bella…" Emmett said, looking down on her.

"I don't fucking care. I'll do whatever I like… You're not the boss of me…" Bella walked off again.

The Cullen's stood in the hallway, shocked.

"We can't let her go you guys. This is when my vision will take place. If she goes now…" Alice's voice trailed off. She didn't need to say the words. Her meaning was clear.

The Cullen's looked at each other, silently nodding. Edward sighed, running his hair through his bronze locks

"We'd better follow her then…"

A/N Reviews are welcome - constructive critisicm is appreciated. I would like to know what you thought of this.

XxxNicolexxX