In Love With Him

Chapter 3

The computer kept beeping. Light stared at the screen with a bewildered expression. As soon as it stopped, the TV program switched to news that "Kira Has Returned". I hugged Ryuuzaki. He knew I was afraid. He just put his arms around me. Light however, excuse me for my language, looked extremely pissed. What could be this bad to him? Of course, he was the antagonist of the group, but I'd never seen him like this.

"Of course…Kira can't just disappear." Aizawa said as I let go of Ryuuzaki and bent over Matsuda to check his pulse.

None.

Matsuda had been lost to Kira. I locked my fingers together and prayed for him. He was a good friend. Ryuuzaki looked troubled.

"Kira's onto us. He knows our names and our faces." I gasped. The last thing I needed was Ryuuzaki or anyone else in the task force dying. Right now, though, I was more mad at Kira than afraid of him.

"Everyone, this is really the last straw. We can't go outside; we have to stay in…if Kira finds out where we are…" He sounded so nervous. All I wanted to do was hold him like he has held me to calm me.

And for the next few days, he wouldn't let me out of his sight unless I was going to wash up or do girl things. Every time he couldn't find me or had forgotten where I had gone to, he would run, and then when he did find me, he'd put his hand on my cheek, sigh, then go back to where he was and pull me onto his lap. None of us were really talking to each other, and now it was starting to bother me. So one night, Ryuuzaki took me up to his room, saying that we needed some sleep.

I was still so upset. I had trusted Matsuda. And now he was gone. The next morning when I woke up, my heart felt heavy. Of course, we all had a reason to be sad…so why not over a fallen comrade? Seemed fair enough. Venturing back downstairs, there was no noise. The computer beeped a few times now and again. We all stayed calm, though.

"Love, can…can I talk to you for a moment?" Ryuuzaki asked and took my hand. He sounded dismal.

"Of course." I brushed my finger down his cheek and went outside into the hall with him. "What's wrong?"

"I know we're all upset and afraid because Kira knows who we are. But he doesn't know you. I'll do whatever it takes to prevent your death."

"Ryuuzaki, don't…do this…"

"I just can't have you die. Go home…if I can't live without you then I can't let you die…That means that consequently I'd have to not come in contact with you until I've solved this case. I'll see you soon." He kissed my forehead, then made Watari take me home. I was definitely going to be lonely.

Day One:

Nothing. I missed Ryuuzaki so much. All I did was keep up with the news and get a call from my parents time and time again.

Day Two:

I slept all day. There was nothing else to do besides sing and practice dance.

Day Three:

More Kira killings. I couldn't believe how lonely and quiet it was.

Day Four:

I don't know how much longer I can take this.

Day Five:

The only thing I got today was my cat's paw in my face and the daily paper.

Day Six:

I slept again. All day. I even forgot to feed my cat.

A week later, there was a knock at the door.

"Hang on!" I yelled. I opened the door, and almost thought I would cry. "Ryuuzaki…why…"

"I got lonely…" He said as he hugged me. The feel of his arms around me again seemed to make my heart lift out of the deep pit it was in.

"I thought you didn't want me."

"I never said that."

"I thought you did."

"Well, if I did, you know I'd never mean that."

"You sounded like you…" I was stopped by him pressing his lips to mine.

"I didn't mean it, okay?" I nodded as he led me back to HQ. Everyone welcomed me back, and they had no idea how glad I was to see them.

I tried not to be much of a burden to Ryuuzaki, so halfway through the day I went into the hall and saw one of the shinigamis. Rem. I wasn't afraid of her anymore, but I tried to act calm because this being could control deaths.

"What burdens you, child?" She asked and I shook my head.

"I just…don't know. I don't want to bother Ryuuzaki, but I want to be around him more than anything."

"You love him, don't you?" She asked and kept eye contact.

"Yes…I love him so much…"

"Then you must talk to him. I will get him for you."

"Thank you, Rem." As she vanished through the wall, I sighed. Did Ryuuzaki even love me back? I didn't know. I hadn't even thought of that. I did everything he asked me to do. My thoughts then stopped short as Ryuuzaki hovered over me.

"Rem told me something was wrong. Are you alright?"

I wrapped my arms around his waist.

"I'm sorry! For anything and everything." I started to cry. I must have been losing it. Why was I apologizing? It came out so wrong. Ryuuzaki picked me up and had me in his arms on his bed a minute later. I sobbed out the whole thing. "I'm sorry for being a burden, I just wanted to spend time with you! I don't deserve you, you're just way too good for me. You're L and I'm just some normal girl who isn't pretty, can't do anything right and doesn't deserve anything better than a creepy and obsessive mail-delivery-guy…"

"Shh, it's gonna be okay. I don't deserve you. You were never a burden, and you never will be. I'm the one who should be apologizing. I should have been spending more time with you."

We just sat there, comforting each other, until I fell asleep. I woke up a while later, and was out of it. I was also wondering why all I saw in my field of vision were bed sheets and someone's chest. Then I knew and recalled what had happened before, and snuggled close to Ryuuzaki. He had sent all night with me. And judging by how stiff I was, it had been a long night.

"Love, are you alright now?"

"I'm fine…I think."

"Okay. I had Watari bring some clothes for you."

"Thanks." I stood up and walked over to the bathroom, shutting the door behind me. Sure enough, there was a plastic bag full of clothes. And…my jewelry box? Good, that gave me some earrings to wear. I changed into some blue flare jeans which were faded on the shin and top, and then followed with a black tank-top that had lace by the collar, spaghetti straps, and some little sequins scattered across the lace. I tied my hair up and put in the diamond studs I had worn on my first date with Ryuuzaki. Then I walked back out and he was dressed as well (yes, part of me was sad that I had missed it).

"Let's go downstairs. We're gonna interrogate and watch the news." He said, held my hand, and then we walked the whole way downstairs without any interruptions. And as we walked in…

"How are they?" Ryuuzaki asked.

"No confessions, no talk, nothing." Aizawa answered. He was staring at two screens of jail cells. In one was Soichiro. And in the other was….Light?