A/n: Here's a preview of the "Is this how juliette felt" sequal that i'm thinking about starting. if you like it so far, let me know and i'll continue.

Prologue

Off and on, on and off,

what the hell is this?

Cannot just keep it steady,

this isn't making sense!

Don't know if I can do this

on and off thing for more years

Constant love and constant pain

never ending streams of tears

Just don't understand it,

when is it going to end?

You know I want to be with you

yet you keep this off-on trend

Are you trying to tell me something?

Something I cannot hear?

If that's the case just say so,

make your intentions clear

Everyone knows I love you

but my heart is badly bruised

I know that I can't wait for you,

I'm so badly confused…

Confused – I thought you loved me

Hurt – I thought you cared

Upset – I thought you'd never leave

That you'd always be there

I see now you've deceived me

I see now that you lied

I know now that you never cared

As much as you implied

I know I won't get over you

No matter how much time

Deceit should be a misdemeanor

Lies should be a crime

I'll still move forward in my life

And learn from this mistake

Nobody new will get close to me

The same chance, I'll never take

- Kagome Higurashi

Chapter 1

It'd been two years since Sesshou had disappeared from my life and I'd undergone many drastic changes since then, in order to try and forget him. The first thing I'd done was get rid of all the pictures of us and just of him period. After that, I switched rooms with Sango and Miroku until we moved out of that apartment into our current home in San Diego. I'd also changed a lot about myself; the first thing being my hair. Where before it'd been down to just below my shoulders, it now came down to my waist and I'd dyed it from its natural chocolate brown to black with blood red streaks running through it.

I sighed in frustration, running my fingers through my ebony locks and proceeded to uncross and re-cross my toned creamy legs before speaking into the sleek black phone at my ear.

"Look Jaken, I already said no. You, Sango, Miroku and Kikyo all need to get a life outside of mine…"

"Leah you're being unreasonable! It's your twentieth birthday, you'll officially be an adult now and not a teenager but you don't want anyone doing anything nice for you?" I heard Kikyo's voice.

"No! I want to go to the club, dance, have a nice guy buy me a drink or two or five, go home, pass out on my bed and wake up with an immense hangover just like every other twenty year old that isn't rich."

Another drastic change that's occurred is my change in attitude. I shy away from a lot of attention now, preferring to be behind the camera instead of in front of it, and I've become very cold hearted. I also prefer to save my money instead of spend it, even though I have more than enough for everything I could possibly want and more.

Kagome, stop letting your life pass you by! I'll take you to him if you'll just stop moping!" I heard Sango's voice yell into my ear. I heard my phone beep and looked at it. The name Rin was flashing in bold black letters.

I rolled my eyes at Sango's statement. "I'm not moping, and I told you already, I'm over him. Now, I've gotta go, Rin is calling me." And without saying 'bye' or anything, I clicked over.

Sango, Jaken, Miroku, and Kikyo had all been trying to plan a vacation for my twentieth birthday. I was all for it until they told me I couldn't be involved in the planning. Sango and Kiki, who I've become close with over the years mostly due to the constant absence of Sango, both like to play match-maker, and any vacation they plan without me will most likely result in me being reunited Sesshou. I'd been avoiding him like the plague and I planned to continue doing so.

"Yes Rin?" I answered the other line.

Rin is my new prodigy. I met her at one of my photo shoots and I heard her singing. That girl can sing like no other, but she doesn't know how to deal with people for anything and she doesn't write very good songs. That's how I got my job; I'm her manager. I deal with all the people she collaborates with and the people who signed her. And I write all her songs. She's definitely pretty, with long black hair and hazel eyes, and she's got a nice figure, but she doesn't have the acting skills in order to succeed in the music business. That's where I come in.

"I want to collaborate with Hood Fab." See what I mean? No tact whatsoever.

"I'll see what I can do and get back to you, ok?"

"Yeah."

"Alright." I said before hanging up.

I tossed the phone on my desk, leaned back into the heavily cushioned chair I sat in, and slid my hands down my face with a loud, exaggerated groan.

"Everything ok kid?" Inuyasha asked from outside my door.

"No!" I whined, getting up from the chair and flinging myself onto my bed. I heard Inu laugh a little bit before opening the door, coming in, and settling himself into the chair I'd just vacated. Yasha and I were room mates most of the time. Sango and Miroku lived here too, along with Kikyo, but they were almost always gone for the music. Kiki had decided to become Hood Fab's manager and she liked going on tour with them. Yasha had been signed with the NFL but preferred to be at home than anywhere else. The five of us had moved from Sacramento to San Diego for a reason; it was far enough away where the painful memories were left in the dust but still in California. I couldn't live outside of Cali, it just couldn't be done.

"What's wrong?" Inu asked me.

I told him about Sango and them trying to plan the vacation for my birthday, how I suspected Sessou was hidden somewhere in the scheme, and how Rin had a sudden need to collaborate with Hood Fab.

"So you're basically afraid of seeing Sess again." He said and then laughed. "You went from loving him to being afraid of him."

"I am not afraid of him." I snapped. "I'm afraid of what will happen to me if I see him again."

Yasha nodded at that. He understood. We could both clearly remember how I was for the few months after Sesshou left. I shuddered at the memory of it.

"And you don't know how to let Rin and H.B. collaborate without having to see him or speak to him, right."

"Exactly."

He sighed, staring at my face and said, "I'll go."

"What?" I asked sharply, sitting up so fast that it hurt my head to do so.

"You heard me. I'll go. You call Sango and Miroku and talk to them about the collaboration and when they have to record, I'll go in your place, say you're sick or something, and bring you the CD so you can hear how it went. How's that sound?"

"Perfect." I breathed. I could already feel the tension in my shoulders decreasing. Yasha smiled at me and stood to leave. He stopped at the door and turned to me,

"You might want to take Sango and Kikyo up on the vacation. It looks like you could use one."

I smiled at him sadly. He was right of course. I needed a vacation like a fish needs water. I sighed and lifted myself up off my bed, snatching my phone off of my desk. Dialing Sango's number, I waited for her to answer. She did after a couple rings.

"Did you change your mind about the vacation?" She asked in obvious excitement. I sighed.

"Yes Sango." I waited for her high pitched girly squeal of delight to finish before I continued. "But if I catch any hint of Se-" My heart clenched painfully and I paused to catch my breath before I continued. "…of him in the planning, I will disembowel you and leave you in a public place for the press to find you." She laughed at me, but agreed.

"Oh, and San… I need a favor."

"They said yeah." I told Rin the next morning.

"Do you know what time it is?"She asked me angrily. I checked my watch. It was eight fifteen.

"Yes I do and you should be up by now. Don't be lazy."

She groaned and I could picture her sitting up. "Who said yes to what." She asked exasperatedly.

"Hood Fab said that they'll collaborate with you. I've set up a studio to be open on Saturday at eight at night. Look your best, bring your best attitude, and do not piss these people off. They can fuck up your whole career."

"Why are you telling me this now instead of on Saturday…?"

"I have a shoot that night so a friend of mine is going in my place. Be on your best behavior Rin. I don't want to have to pick up after your shit."

"Who are you sending…?"

"Not Souta." I sighed, hearing the hope in her voice. I heard her sigh sadly. I never did understand her intense infatuation with my brother. "I'm sending my friend Inuyasha Takahashi in my place."

"Inuyasha Takahashi? The Inuyasha Takahashi?" I could clearly hear the excitement in her voice and sighed. I found that I did that a lot when spoke to Rin. She's nice and everything but she just takes a lot of energy to deal with.

"Yes Rin. Inuyasha Takahashi that plays for the NFL. He's a very good friend of mine and I would appreciate it if you don't act like an obsessed fan-girl when you see him because it makes me look bad if my client doesn't know how to behave."

"Alright alright I get it. Geez Kag you really need to chill."

"So I've heard…" I muttered. Then, louder, I said, "Look I have to go. I'll come to your house tomorrow and help you with what to wear if you want to make friends with these people. Ok?"

"Yeah."

I hung up and walked into San Diego State with my poker face on.

Even though I had two very well paid jobs, I still wanted to pursue my educational dream of achieving a master's degree in psychology. That was the main reason I hadn't joined Hood Fab with Sango. I was the one in the family who was supposed to go and do something that actually meant something to people outside of music and movies. I was the one who was supposed to actually interact with people and help them. That was always what he thought I would do. He always knew me well enough to know what I wanted…

Shaking my head at the painful thoughts that began to plague my mind, I walked into my first class and sat down right in front. I knew I wouldn't get much sleep tonight…

A/N: So... what do you think so far...?