Pushing Me Away

RothGrayson-Kydd

Disclaimer: Dont own the Titans.

1. Homecoming Nightmares

October 17, Friday

I was riding my bike when I saw her. She was sitting on the front yard of her ex-boyfriend's house. For some strange reason I just stopped in the middle of the road, staring at her. I was about ten feet away from her but she still had yet to see me. I tilted my head a little when she finally looked at me.

Her face was calm, but i could tell that she had been crying. Then she glared at me when someone called out my name. I looked around, the setting began changing but no one else was here. She was in the middle of a football field and I stood at the very top of the bleachers.

I ran, taking two steps down at the time. The closer i got, the better i saw her. She was still the same, maybe smaller. My eyes grew wide when as i stood still. She was like a lost child hugging her knees. And like a lost child, she was crying. "Do you really regret everything?" She looked up at me, the tears still wouldn't stop.

I tried to speak but my mouth was dry and nothing would come out.

She held her self tighter as she continued to speak. "Our past... Our friendship."

I fell on my knees, crawling towards her slowly. I could feel my heart sinking when i realized she was talking about us. I just knew it. It broke my heart to even imagine failing her. I tried to reassure her everything was fine, that i have no regrets. But i was still speechless. I couldn't even get near her to hug her. No matter how much i wanted too, she pushed me away.

He shot up straight out of bed, gasping for air. He felt as if he was drowning. "Dick?"

"Woah!" Richard shouted, falling out of the bed. It was awfully messy from last night's movie marathon. He looked back at his bed where someone called his name.

"Dick, are you ok?"

Sitting on his bed was a dark haired girl looking confused. "Rae..."

She sighed. "Good dream or bad?" She raised her eyebrow as if to wait for him to do something.

He blushed madly when he followed her gaze down to his underpants, out of sheer instinct he scrambled to cover himself. "Would you stop staring!"

"What? As if i wasn't already used to it."

Richard's eyes widened in horror. Suddenly his dream came back to him, it seemed so real. He couldn't remember who the girl was.

He turned his attention back to his best friend, she was wearing a black spaghetti strapped shirt and pajama pants. She was heading towards the door. "Where are you going?" He called out to her.

"I'm hungry." She simply said before leaving him baffled. As the thought registered in his head, he scramble to his feet and followed her to the downstairs kitchen. She was looking through the refrigerator, looking for something to eat.

He took a seat, watching as she picked out a small ice cream container from the freezer before getting a spoon. She looked back at him, he was still starting at her as if she was a puzzle he couldn't solve, a tricky enigma that seemed impossible to figure out.

She walked towards him. "You're acting a bit strange..." She put her spoon into her mouth before placing her hand on his forehead. "Didn't hit your head too hard this morning, did you?"

She felt his face heat up but it wasn't because he's sick. His face reddened as her cleavage edged closer and closer to his face. He bit his tongue then ducked out of her way.

"Kinda strange." He blurted out.

"What is?" She scooped out more ice cream, offering him some.

He shook his head. "My dream. I don't remember much but i was in a football field and i was running down the bleachers. There was a girl in the middle of the field but i couldn't get close to her." He sighed.

"What girl?"

"Not sure. Maybe im just nervous about the homecoming game tonight."

"Dont forget, you also have to take Kitten to homecoming tomorrow, dinner then dancing." Rachel smirked, swinging her spoon in his face.

Richard groaned. He was annoyed that Victor, the captain of the football team, had agreed to auction off his dateless teammates to raise money for new uniforms. While every other boy raised 30 dollars at most, Richard beat their record as Kitten paid over a hundred dollars just so she could be his date to the dance. Unfortunately for him, Rachel only had three dollars and sixty two cents.

It had been against the rules to help pay for yourself.

Plus she had no intention of going to homecoming dance anyways. She was only going to the game to support her best friend at the football game.

"I can't believe it, after all this time of trying to avoid that rich bitch..."

She smirked. "That's what you get for rejecting Kori. Why'd you say no to her anyways? Isn't she your type?"

"Types got nothing to do with it. Kori's cute but not for me. I hear that Xavier is taking her anyways."

Rachel shrugged. "Right. Well I should get going." She says, handing Richard the half empty ice cream container. "Better be ready when I come back for you."

"Nah, im taken my motorcycle today." He replied as well as walking her to the door. When she left, he ran back up to his room.

He wore his black and green football jersey -he was number 13- and black sweat pants, grinning at his reflection. By now, he thought his hair was far too long to spike it up but he didn't feel like getting a haircut. He like it when Rachel played with his hair, and now she was starting to do it more often.

He felt that his reflection was mocking him as a few strands insisted to stick up.

He rushed back to his room to get his backpack. The junk food on the floor along with a movie box brought back memories of the previous night. He was staring into the most beautiful and exotic violet eyes he has ever seen. She was staring back at him, smiling. It was Rachel's eyes staring at him, he couldn't help but smile.

Richard was leaning against his motorcycle at the main gate where Garfield kept him company while he waited for Rachel. Or at least, Richard was trying hard not to let Gar get on his nerves. It actually wasn't hard, all he had to do was nod, laugh or somehow make it look like he was actually listening to him.

"Dick!" A deep booming voice called him. Richard turned around, Victor shoved a bouquet of roses and a few heart shaped balloons into his hands. "Here. Be right back, I forgot the chocolates!"

"Sure."

Just as quickly as he had appeared, Victor disappeared. Gar gave Richard a skeptical look.

"Hey man, its cool if your into that kind of thing." Gar sniffed, taking a step away from him. "Just remember, this sexy beast is taken."

"Idiot!" Just as Richard was about to punch Gar, someone tackled him.

"Richie-poo!" Kitten's high pitched voice squealed, squeezing his neck tighter. She gasped when she spotted the balloons and flowers. "Are these for me?" She snatched them before Richard could protest. "Why you shouldn't have! Im going to show these to my friends. Good luck at the game tonight!"

She winked and blew him a kiss before she left. Richard cringed as if that kiss was almost tangible.

"Kitt...ah never mind." He turned his attention back to Gar, where he could freely let his frustration run loose. Gar was gone, Victor stood in his place instead. "Damnit."

"Yo, man! Where's my stuff at?" He held up a heart shaped box of chocolates.

"Kitten ran off with it, she thought they were for her."

"What?! Oh, you better get it back. Karen aint gonna be happy 'bout this." Victor gave him a menacing glare.

Richard laughed nervously. "I dont think so."

"And why is that?" Victor crossed his arms, obviously his glare wasn't convincing enough.

Richard shrugged. "Hi Karen." And obviously, he wasn't aware of Karen and Rachel right behind him. Victor's eyes almost popped out of their sockets but he quickly gained his composure to kiss her.

"Hey baby," Karen was greeted by her boyfriend and a box of chocolates, she smiled.

"C'mon, Richard." Rachel tugged his arm. "Before these lovebirds make me sick."

During class, time seemed to pass a bit slow. If it wasn't for Rachel sharing the same classes with her, he would be bored out of his mind.

His last class was the one he shared with the cocky Roy, who made his life hell. He was glad when he didn't see him and took a seat behind Rachel. With a few minutes to spare form the bell, she turned around.

He was spacing out towards the window and didn't hear Rachel speak to him. She waved her hand on his face. "Huh?"

"I was just asking whats on your mind. You're acting a little more distracted than usual."

"I was just thinking..."

"What about?"

"That stupid dream!" Richard exclaimed, catching several other students attention.

"Ok well, talk to me. Thats what im here for, right?" She was a bit surprised by his odd behaivior, hopefully he was going to tell her what was going on.

After a long pause, he said. "I can't stop thinking about it, it gives me a bad feeling." He turned away from her hoping that she would believe his lie. He spotted Gar walking in with his girlfriend Terra. Gar wasn't exactly popular but people knew him because he's been dating her since freshman year. They were now going for their third year together.

Rachel saw him stare at them, she knew he wasn't being honest with her. Was that his problem? Did he feel like he needed a girlfriend? Maybe it wasn't such a good idea for him to go with Kitten. She knew how obssesed that girl was about him. Everyone knew.

But then again, Richard could any girl he wanted. He was in the football team, he was no captain but still a well known and loved player. He had gorgeous blue eyes and a killer smile. Almost every girls dream come true.

He only had to go on a date with Kitten for that one night. He would survive.

She had to wonder though, why he hasn't dated ever since his ex-girlfriend Barbara dumped him two years ago. People were already asuming that she was dating her own best friend.

She looked at Richard, that idea was almost laughable.

As soon as Roy walked in with his girlfriend Jade behind him, he said something that only Richard heard. He stood up and grabbed a handful of Roy's shirt, startling Jade and Rachel.

"Take that back!" Richard growled. He pushed Roy back against the wall, seperating the couple. Roy was grinning.

"As if, you know its true."

Another push, then a grunt.

"Dick!" Confused, Rachel tried to push him away but he wouldn't budge. "Let him go!"

"You better apologize to her, now!" He almost roared.

Roy was about to panic, but lucky for him the teacher stepped in. "Dick, what is the meaning of this? Unhand him before i send you to the office."

Richard growled as he let go of Roy.

"Now back to your seat young man. This is the last time you will disrupted my class, I will not tolerate any more of this nonsense."

He kept glaring at Roy, Rachel knew something was off. This was the first time he's ever disrupted class. Through most of the class time, he kept his head down, never taking his eyes off of him. Roy threw him nervous glances at him every once in a while.

Rachel took out a sheet of paper and wrote a note to Richard. Wanna tell me what that was all about?

Nothing.

I know you better, Dick. You've never taken it this far before. He's always been the one who resolves to violence, not you. :[

Its nothing.

You better not be fooling around...

He tapped her shoulder, shaking his head.

"Just be careful, ok?" She whispered at him. Soon enough the bell rang, dismissing them all.

Richard was waiting for Rachel to pack her stuff, he glared as Roy and Jade past him.

She threw her backpack over her shoulder, walking away with Richard on his side. He was quiet, that much seemed different with Rachel. She knew something was wrong but it looked like he wasn't ready to talk to her about it yet, and she respect that about him because he did the same thing when she had a problem.

The one thing she was worried about was what had happened in class. It was so out of character for Richard to attack Roy just like he did. She wasn't sure why he did that, and he wouldn't tell her either.

There was a sort of eerie feeling to the empty field. The slight breeze that made some leafs dance in the air was surprisingly chilly. He took in the sight before him, the sound of the cheering fans was rather faint against the sound of his heart beat.

Victor took a deep breath, behind him stood Richard and the rest of his team ready to go out and play. This was it. His helmet was tightly secured, the adrenaline was pumping hard.

Together, they marched out as a one. From across the field, they could see their enemies. Richard turned his attention back to the croud, looking for Rachel. She was wearing only one of their school colors that she felt comfortable in. All black. She did have a few green bead necklaces that he had given her on the first game she attended.

She was sitting with Terra, Karen and Kori, who had invited Xavior. Gar got a few of his friends to help him spell out "GO TITANS" on their chest to cheer on their teams. Every other guy had dyed their hair green and were all cheering in unison with the cheerleader.

The line of girls in their uniform began to get the fans hyped up with several cheers as the game began.

A/N: I hope i didn't rush into this too fast. Usually, most HS fics start in the beggining of school. Blah i just didn't feel like doing that. Plus, i want this to be a bit different than most HS fics. :p

WARNING: This fic will most likely jump timelines, in other words; keep a close eye at the top of each chapter, they will have month [maybe day, i dunno] posted because i dont feel like writting each day.

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