A/N: So i've been wanting to write a Scrubs fanfic for a while, and have had this idea based off of one of the episodes of Grey's Anatomy. It isn't the same, but there is a similar plot element based on a couple of scenes. ps. Italics are a flashback.

My Oxygen, Chapter 1

Disclaimer: I do not own Scrubs, or Grey's Anatomy.

"Come on, Elliot, it not that bad!" JD countered, hurrying behind the blonde doctor.

"Not that bad?" she shrieked, her voice squeaking out of the range of human hearing on the word 'bad.' He winced. "JD I slept with a man to find out he was married!"

She quickened her stride, yanking open the door to the doctor's lounge ferociously.

"You just made a mistake, is all," he said, following her in, trying to think of something to soothe her with. "Remember Tasty Coma Wife?"

"It's not the same! Her husband was dead, not in the next room! Frick!"

"Well technically he was, just in a casket…" JD trailed off as Elliot gave him a look that could match Jordan. Fortunately, Turk and Carla stepped into the room.

"How is she?" Turk muttered in his ear. "Still freakin' out?"

"Yep," he replied.

"You two are not helping," interjected Carla, giving each of them the eye. "Elliot…" she sat next to her at the table.

"I'm a whore," Elliot moaned.

"Shhhh, sweetie, you're not a whore…" Carla soothed, rubbing her back as she buried her face in her hands.

"I'm a home-wrecker, just like my mother! You guys must hate me…"

"Elliot, we don't judge!" Turk said. "None of us are perfect. Hell, we've all done stupider things! In college I slept with JD's girlfriend!"

JD glared at him. I always knew it, he thought.

"That's not as bad as what I did!"

"What about me?" tried Carla. "When I was in highschool I—" she faltered, and then continued in an ashamed voice, "I helped one of my friends buy drugs. Anyway, they were found in the girl's locker room and when I was questioned, I lied and gave someone else's name. She was expelled. I still feel horrible about it…"

"That's awful," said Elliot, in a quiet voice.

"Baby, I never knew that!" Turk exclaimed.

"Yeah well," Carla gave a grimace, "It's not something I usually admit to the public. So Elliot, what you did, well, there's worse."

Dr. Cox popped up from behind the couch, newspaper in hand.

"Take it from someone like me, Barbie," he said, "Hell, I'm a border-line alcoholic!"

"I've smoked pot," offered Turk.

"I once tried to kill myself," JD said.
They all turned to stare at him, gaping. He felt his eyes widen.

"I… didn't mean to say that out loud."

The silence was suffocating. JD couldn't stand it any longer, and quickly turned and hurried out of the room. In an instant, Turk and Carla were following him. He quickened his pace. He knew they'd be questioning him, and the last thing he wanted to do was talk about it, or remember it at all.

"JD wait up!" Carla called.

He half-ran to the end of the hallway, pressing the button for the elevator. Please come, please come, he thought. Ding! The doors opened and he slid in, pressed for the ground floor, and began jabbing at the 'door close' button. Come on… The doors began to slide shut, but not before Carla sidled in. Damn. Turk, behind collided with the door and JD heard him crash to the ground and swear loudly.

JD tried to nonchalantly lean up on the railing. He felt Carla's eyes on him.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine, never better, why shouldn't I be?" He said this all very fast, and saw Carla's look. Nothing got past her, even when it was in coherent sentences. Clearing his throat, he tried again. "Nothing's wrong if that's what you think."

"Bambi," she said softly, "I'm not an idiot. It's a mother's instinct."

"You're not a mother," he said, put out.

"Don't get that tone with me, Bambi," Carla retorted, doing that thing with her finger Laverne was so good at. Damn her and her Latino-blood! "Turk and I will keep trying, and in the mean time, I want to see if you're okay, which you're obviously not if you tried to kill yourself!"

"You know what, Carla? Just mind your own business!" he snapped. She looked shocked, but fell silent. At that moment the elevator doors opened and he was able to whip through the lobby and out into the parking lot, leaving Carla staring wide-eyed.

He pulled his helmet off Sasha. It was dark. His hands shook as he fastened it around his head. Don't think about it, don't think about it, he silently chanted. He screwed up his eyes, breathing in short pants. Don't think about it. It happened years ago, it was over. Don't think about it. He inhaled and then exhaled slowly, calming himself. He wished his hands would stop shaking. He climbed onto Sasha and drove out of the parking lot. The cold night air bit at him. The roads would be icy tonight, perfect for sliding, perfect for accidents—don't think about it. It'd be so easy to slip off the road…

Crash.

The car flipped through the air, compressing at the impact.

Pain.

Searing pain.

Everything was frozen, suspended, completely dark. The pain that had been there a second ago had gone, replaced by nothing. He couldn't move, he didn't remember how to move. Time passed, he didn't know how long. Maybe an instant. Maybe more.

He blinked. Dizzy red lights popped up everywhere, and suddenly there was sound. Voices were talking very quickly, shouting, a siren was blaring, someone was screaming—was it him?

He blinked again. People were moving, hurriedly, in blurred outfits. Someone was pulling him, lifting him out. He tried to form a word—no! He looked to his side, the passenger side.

He saw blood.

JD gasped, pulling Sasha to the side of the road. He sat there, shaking compulsively, trying to regain control of himself. His heart was pounding a million miles an hour. He didn't know how long he sat there, shivering in the cold, resisting the urge to vomit. Finally, he maneuvered the bike back onto the road and drove home.

Don't think about it.

a/n: So. My first chapter. Please honestly tell me what you think: comments, criticism, anything. I love reviews. Go for it.

I've been wanting to write a Scrubs chapter fic for a while... yay, i've actually started it! Update'll be coming soon!

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-JR