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It was bedlam.
Rose was complaining at top volume to Carlisle about me and what I'd done, and I was yelling back that I didn't know what had happened, meanwhile Jasper and Edward were both growling out accusations and insults that couldn't be understood, but weren't nice judging by their expressions and the tones of their voices. Alice was calling out in her musical little voice that Jasper shouldn't be blamed, her high pitch able to be heard over the melee, and Bella was stammering out that it was her fault, and blaming herself, I couldn't hear everything she said because of Edward and Jasper, but it was pretty clear Bella was being Bella.
Esme frowned deeply, as Carlisle's eye's first widened in shock, and then tightened, as he frowned also. Carlisle held a hand up and gave all of us a pointed expression. It silenced us all almost at once.
"Now," he began quietly, "I do want to hear this from everyone's point of view, but I have no intention of hearing them all at once. Edward and Jasper, it seems to me that you're the ones who were being asked to explain yourselves, so I'd like one of you to begin, one of you." Carlisle specified.
Edward and Jasper looked at each other for the first time since we'd entered the room, Jasper dropped his head down and motioned towards Carlisle, giving Edward permission to start. "You'd better start Edward, this began with you."
Edward grinned and nodded smugly, "I hope you realize it will also end with me, Jasper." Jasper's head snapped up to look into Edward's face. His challenge visible in his features, as his breathing became more than audible. Bella reached forward and laid her hand on Edward's arm.
"Edward please, i-if you won't begin, th-then I w-will." she said quietly, stuttering. She looked like talking was the last thing she wanted to do, but was the first thing she should do.
Edward looked at her, then looked at Carlisle, who spoke, "That will be fine Bella, I'd like to get this explanation underway in as peaceful a manner as possible."
Bella blushed bright-beet-red. For a minute she was so red her entire face was glowing with it, then it melted into blotches across her cheeks. She took a deep breath and began talking. "A few months ago-"
"Two, love." Edward interrupted.
Bella flashed Edward the most vicious look I'd ever seen her make, and I stifled a chuckle. Edward actually leaned away from her in surprise at the ferociousness of her expression.
"Are you telling this, Edward?" she asked, still glaring at him. Edward responded by covering his mouth with his right hand, and shaking his head no. He jerked his head in Carlisle's direction asking Bella to continue.
Bella turned back to Carlisle as she took another deep breath, "Two months ago, apparently, Edward began to try his best to convince me that I didn't need to be changed. I-I" she choked slightly, coughed, then clearing her throat kept on, "I cited our inability t-to....to.....I a-argued that...." she blushed again, strongly, "I reminded him we couldn't be intimate until I was less, fragile as he likes to call me." I could somehow tell by her tone that if she hadn't been looking eye to eye with Carlisle, she probably would have rolled her eyes.
Bella continued, "Edward explained that there were ways around that, and said he wanted the opportunity to show me what he meant. A couple of days later, Edward brought me out to our meadow. It's not unusual for us to visit there during the week. What was unusual was that Jasper was in it when we arrived. He was standing in the meadow, very still, with his hands clasped behind his back, and an uncertain look on his face, though he was smiling."
"I asked Edward what he was doing there, Edward said he was there for me. I didn't really know what he might mean by that, but I found out quickly. Jasper explained that he was going to begin manipulating my emotions to help Edward and I enjoy our more intimate-" Bella froze up. Her blush covered her face, and went down her throat, she was completely embarrassed and was looking at Carlisle with her eyes wide. She didn't even notice that Edward had stopped breathing next to her. Her blush was so strong I could smell her blood like I was sitting with my head on her shoulder.
Jasper spoke up then, "Uh...Edward had asked me to assist him in making Bella feel the pleasure of their innocent kissing by intensifying the passion between them. Bella was adamantly against it, she said most of the time she didn't even like it when I calmed her down, and didn't want me messing with her genuine emotions. Edward tried to explain to her that it wouldn't be uncomfortable for her, that she'd just feel better, but Bella got very angry. I excused myself and made a hasty exit out of the meadow for her sake. However, I didn't leave all together. I hid myself discreetly behind the screen of trees surrounding the meadow. Bella argued with Edward for awhile, but he calmed her down eventually, and they sat and talked for awhile. I stuck around and was consequently there when they began kissing. I used my ability to intensify it for her as we'd suggested. She enjoyed it a great deal and was a bit mystified until Edward explained what I'd done. At first she didn't believe it, but I stepped out from my hiding spot." Jasper looked at Bella apologetically. "I was very sorry to fool her, but relieved that she was pleasantly surprised by the results once she was informed that I hadn't witnessed anything, and remained hidden. I've continued working with Bella ever since, and-"
Edward cut Jasper off, "Indeed, whether I was there or not! I wonder brother how long it was before you forgot the purpose of your little, exercises." he finished sarcastically.
Jasper and Edward glared at each other, and once again Bella leaned forward and putting her hand lightly on Edward's shoulder, pulled him back towards her. "It doesn't matter Edward."
Jasper sagged a little, and turning back to face Carlisle, continued. "As Edward so kindly stated, I did continue manipulating Bella's feelings even when Edward wasn't home. She is so often anxious in his absence my intent was to make her feel soothed. I paid attention whenever I knew Edward wasn't here with her, and if I felt anxiety from her, I would send her whatever emotion I felt would calm her nerves most effectively. What I hadn't expected was her response. Bella....."Jasper turned to look Bella in the eyes, who blushed slightly again. Edward tensed as he noticed the direction of Jasper's stare, and even I smelled the blood pooling in her cheeks in response. Jasper continued his explanation. "Bella never responds to anything quite the way I expect her to, and quite frankly, when I sent certain feelings in her direction, her response was, intriguing." Jasper's voice dropped to a deeper tone, and seemed kind of husky as he said the last word. Alice hissed from behind him, causing everyone to look at her.
"Alice, were you aware of this...experiment prior to its being carried out, or did you learn of it after the fact?" Carlisle asked her.
Alice looked angry, but mostly hurt. Before she answered, she dropped her head for a minute. I reached out and put my hand on her knee and gave her a quick squeeze, smiling at her. She looked up at me, smiled weakly and then turned to Carlisle, "Yes, Jasper and Edward asked me before they considered approaching Bella about it. I love Bella, I knew it would be good for her, but I forgot to take into account Bella's ability to surprise. I don't blame her in anyway. I don't blame anyone, except, well...who could have known it would go the way it has. Even when I began having visions I just couldn't believe they were telling me facts. I figured I was misunderstanding what I was seeing, or that there was some context I wasn't comprehending. I should have known it was out of control when Jasper started broadcasting so much that he affected poor, unsuspecting Emmett. I should have realized then that it needed to stop. I just never believed that Jasper would..." Alice's face crumpled then, and she suddenly stood up and walked out of the room.
Jasper looked desperate to follow Alice out of the room, but he merely allowed himself to drop his head momentarily as he turned to face Carlisle again. "I've pushed Alice to the limit of what she can deal with recently. I'm not proud of my actions, but I am pleased by the progress I've made with Bella." Edward snorted loudly, and Carlisle looked at him. He doesn't glare, he just looks. It's always enough.
Jasper went on, finally looking up again. "Bella has learned to be content whatever the circumstances. She has been enjoying her passionate moments with Edward, that's never been an issue, but she has had difficulty occupying idle hours." I could see Edward's head tilt toward's Bella as he looked at her.
"I discovered that if I gave her small amounts of the same sort of passionate feelings I was providing her with during she and Edward's intimate moments, that she seemed less anxious during his absences. I was doing this one day, from inside the study, where she happened to be at that time. I usually stay well hidden, and I was certain she hadn't realized I was in there. She felt anxious as she sat reading, and I knew Edward was gone, so I allowed myself to change her emotional climate slightly."
I frequently feel something of the feelings I cause when I do this, but I haven't ever had anyone...it was as though..." Jasper paused, and looking at Bella, he seemed to become unfocused. "It was like she sent it back to me. She moaned,...my name. I was by her side in an instant. I stood just behind the chair she was sprawled in. Having the feeling sent back to me unbalanced me, I found myself drawn to Bella. I took her hand, strengthening the connection and asked her to allow me to make her feel even more than I had. It had never been my intention to make this process a physical one between Bella and myself. It merely happened, and I responded without considering the consequences. I could feel that she understood my unspoken request, and she looked at me in wonder. I fooled myself into believing that the brown eyes staring back at me were conveying consent. I think it more likely Bella was just surprised by our therapy, if you will, becoming physical. She spoke my name again, in warning I presume," He looked at Bella for confirmation. She colored brightly and nodded twice, allowing her head to drop after the second nod. She was ashamed, poor little sister.
"Yes, I thought so. But at the time it drew me in. I was just leaning down to..."Jasper turned to look into Edward's eyes, who had begun staring him down. "Leaning down to...kiss her, when the door crashed open. There stood Emmett, the unwitting recipient of my rampant desire, and he looked every bit as confused as I suddenly was.
I jumped up, "You caused that?" I scared everyone by yelling. Jasper turned around to me, "Yah, buddy, I'm really sorry about that. Originally, I didn't mean for it to affect anyone but Bella. But you got caught up in it that day."
Suddenly I remembered Alice coming in, her anger, and her words. "So that's what Alice meant by it was you, not me."
"Afraid so brother, and I'm very sorry for it Emmett." Jasper said.
I raised my eyebrow at the look on his face, "Quit looking at me like a kicked puppy Jas, I'm not mad at you. I'm just glad I'm not so confused anymore."
Jasper turned back to Carlisle, "Then I nearly ruined Bella's plans for your birthday. I was beginning to have trouble keeping control of the feelings I sent to Bella, and it was complicated by the fact that I was beginning to send her feelings of my own." He dropped his eyes. "When Bella came over to me I looked into her eyes and I lost control completely, but for only a few moments. I fought against it, but I remember the look Bella, and Edward, gave me. My feelings were getting away from me, and they knew it."
Remembering my reaction to Bella's shirt lifting I said, "Yah, they weren't the only ones. Jeez, you gave me some really confusing moments. I had thoughts about Bella that night that...well, it ended with Edward hitting me in the back of the head." I said ashamed as Rose hissed behind me. I looked at her with wide eyes, "I'm sorry Rose, I couldn't help it. I didn't...I..." Rose stood up and glared at me for a moment, and then walked out and said,, "I'm going to check on my sister." and she was out of the room. Esme and Carlisle exchanged a look and Esme followed after Rose, but she didn't leave without giving all of us a very disappointed look.
Jasper was the only one who tried to respond, "Mom, I didn't mean to, it was an accident." She touched his arm as she walked out, but it just seemed to make Jasper look even worse.
Edward growled, "Do you see what you're doing!" and he snorted as he turned his body away from Jasper, his back tensed, and his arms folded across his chest. Jasper shook his head, looking miserable and turned back to Carlisle.
"It's true, and I'm entirely to blame. I'll leave if everyone wants me to, but I should finish the story before I go, so you will see how entirely at fault I am." he said. Edward snorted again as Bella took his face in her hands.
Carlisle looked at Bella and Edward, and then said to Jasper, "I doubt repairing this situation will require your absence Jasper. We'll work through it somehow. We're a family, I can't imagine anything like this pulling us apart so easily. Now, please, continue with your story."
"Well, the next really serious event happened when Alice dragged us all to a night club a few weeks later. Things were fine until Alice headed out to the dance floor with some kids. Her presence kept me in line, and I'd been trying to make sure I kept her near me always, but she left, then Rosalie dragged Edward away. Next thing I knew I was looking at Bella while she was talking to Emmett. I felt annoyed, here I couldn't talk to her, but he could and though I have no excuse for it, I felt...jealous. Bella looked beautiful, and I just...I looked at her and something left me, I slipped. I noticed Emmett and Bella both had frozen while they were talking and was trying hard to pull it back when Edward grabbed the water out of my hand and threw it at Emmett. He crouched, ready to defend himself against Emmett, but first he threw a look at me that let me know in no uncertain terms that we had business. I realized I'd gone too far. I walked over to get Alice, but Edward caught up to me before I had a chance to find her." Jasper looked at Edward's tensed back then. His eyes were round and hopeful looking. I could feel the atmosphere of the room change, and knew Jasper was trying to soothe Edward, but all he got in response was a low growl.
Giving up, he turned to Carlisle again, who was still watching Edward, and didn't looked entirely pleased. "Edward pulled me aside and we argued. He insisted I stay away from Bella, and made me swear I would. We argued heatedly for several minutes before he...before I realized I needed to leave. Alice found me and we left then. I don't know where everyone else went, but soon after Emmett and Rosalie appeared in the garage where Alice and I waited."
Bella's soft voice spoke up then, "Edward." her voice chastised him lightly, and her face looked angry. Edward growled again, more loudly, it built into a snarl, "Stop Bella,...alright, alright, I threw him. That's why Jasper left. I tracked him down after I saw what he'd done to Emmett," Edward turned and shot a look at me, "Who I'm not much happier with than I am with Jasper." he snarled at me.
I looked back at him with shock, "What?! I didn't do anything on purpose here Edward, I jus-" he cut me off.
"NO?! Then would explain your recent actions?" he growled. "Or better yet, your thoughts!"
I frowned and could feel my mouth opening several times to answer, but my mind was blank. I couldn't think of what to say, Jasper saved me from having to try to come up with something.
"Edward, we'll get to that, and I don't blame you for throwing me. I deserved it.
Carlisle seemed very upset by this, "Edward, you threw your brother, in a crowded dance club, in front of humans?" He was distressed.
Edward looked at Carlisle. "Yes Father, it was unforgivable I know, but Jasper's lack of control affected me too I'm afraid." he said resignedly, to which Jasper scoffed. Edward shot a glaring look at him.
"That's pathetic, Edward. You threw me because you were angry." he said sarcastically, Then he looked at Carlisle, "I told him Bella was enjoying my emotions more than she was enjoying his kisses, and getting them more often to boot. That's when he threw me." he looked at Edward again, "I'm perfectly willing to take responsibility for my actions, which were wrong in the extreme. I don't see any reason you shouldn't take
responsibility for yours, brother." Jasper said, seething.
Edward snarled at him again, and suddenly they were both crouching towards each other. Edward must have really lost control, because for once I hadn't even seen him get out of his chair. I jumped up between
them as Bella reached out and tried to pull Edward back towards her.
Carlisle spoke, tersely then, "Boys, I will have no more fighting inside the house. Both of you sit down now."
They both did as they were asked, and Carlisle nodded to Jasper, asking him to continue.
"I realized I wasn't going to be able to keep my feelings for Bella bottled up anymore, so I tried to deflect them. I purposely went in to talk to Bella, to try and be around her without changing her feelings, or losing control of my own. When I felt it start to slip, I tried to find someone else to deflect them to. I heard someone step up and wrongly assumed it was Edward, since I was in Edward's bedroom with Bella. She was listening to a CD trying to keep herself occupied while I was in there working on my control, so I guess I didn't recognize the difference between Emmett's footfalls and Edward's plodding step. He didn't come in, and I was suprised when a moment later, I heard his voice asking, 'What are you doing?' in a very accusatory tone. I opened the door prepared to be defensive. Since I was trying to make things better, I admit I was feeling defensive. Edward saw me, and glared, and I crouched in response. It put me in challenge mode, but the next thing I knew Emmett had me around the throat against the door frame. Alice came up just then and kept Emmett from fighting me, but it was a near thing. I was lucky she'd had a vision, and knew I was trying to make things better."
Edward snorted in disbelief, and Bella looked at him. "He really was Edward. He explained it all to me, and I was just going about my business doing things in the room. He didn't affect me at all that day, until you came to the door. Even I felt his challenge then." she said.
"Your feelings were unusually defensive and annoyed when I came out Emmett, what' happened?" Jasper surprised me by suddenly turning to me.
I felt embarrassment tickle my skin all over, almost like an adrenaline rush, "I...well, I'd just had a very realistic daydream about Bella doing an erotic dance and I was just a little on edge!" I said in a defensive tone. I could tell Bella blushed, and knew if I'd been able to I would have too. I looked at the floor, "I'm sorry Bella. I really...it didn't...it wasn't....Oh hell!"
Carlisle reprimanded me, "Emmett. I'm sure there are better ways to express your feelings."
"Sorry Dad." I said
Jasper was snickering, "So that's why you reacted the way you did when you came into Edward's room with the popsicle for Bella."
I glared at Jasper, "Quit laughing Jas, I'm really embarrassed about that." I warned him, which made him laugh harder.
Edward looked up curious, "What happened?"
Jasper looked at him, "Well, he came bounding in with a popsicle for her and had it all opened and ready for her, saying he thought she might appreciate it since it was so hot and whatnot. I was still trying to keep control of my feelings, working with Bella on it again. I....I'm afraid the idea of Bella with a popsicle had undesired effects on my imagination. I ended up sort of broadcasting my feelings again, and Bella leaned forward and tasted the popsicle. Emmett threw his hands up over his eyes and screamed "This has got to stop! I can't take this anymore." Bella thanked him for the popsicle and started eating it, and I came out from behind the door I'd been hiding behind, chuckling at Emmett's reaction. He glared at me, then he looked at Bella, causing me to look at her. She was eating the popsicle, I lost control of my feelings completely and next thing I knew...well...we...I...Emmett and I that is....."
Bella was blushing furiously, but she stammered out, "Th-they both k-kissed me." she looked down at her lap, "a-and, I-I didn't r-really m-mind." all four of us sat gaping at Bella.
Bella looked up at Carlisle, "I just don't want you," she looked at Edward for a moment then back to Carlisle, "Either of you to put the blame only on Jasper and Emmett. They weren't alone in what happened."
Carlisle was the only one who spoke, "Bella, this is an unusual circumstance, but I don't believe anyone here can blame you for what's happened."
Bella's eyes began to tear and Edward crumbled, he reached around her and hugged her to him. "No love, don't blame yourself."
Jasper looked at Carlisle, "That was pretty much it. Edward came in at that moment and yelled at me, reminding me he had forbidden me to be around her after the dance club night. I guess I was still a little miffed he'd thrown me, because I just launched myself at him. We fought and that's when you came in on us."
Carlisle stood then, "I think it's high time for a Cullen family vacation. We all need a change of atmosphere," he looked at Jasper, "One without you manipulating anything, son." he said. "I'll speak to Esme, and we'll work this out. Meanwhile, Emmett, Jasper, I believe there's still some tense feelings to clear up. If you would please ask both Alice and Rosalie to come in here. But first," Carlisle walked around to the front of his desk, "Jasper, Edward, you two will shake hands and agree not to let this come between you as brothers." He didn't phrase it as anything close to a question. They shook, a bit gruffly on both sides. Jasper said, "I agree." and Edward mumbled his agreement.
Then Carlisle turned to Jasper and me, "Jasper, Emmett, I believe you both owe Bella an apology."
Jasper's face fell a little, "Of course. Bella, my conduct has been shameful. If you can't accept my apology I will understand, but I offer it nonetheless." he was looking at the floor. Bella walked up to Jasper and reached her arms up around his neck, she hugged him and kissed his cheek. "I forgive you Jasper, but please, let me live through my own feelings from now on. Keep yours to yourself." Jasper nodded.
Bella turned to me and I suddenly felt a deep shame too. "Ah Bella, I don't have it in me to say things the way Jasper and Edward do. All I can say is sorry." I said, wringing my hands in discomfort.
She walked over and put her hands on my own. I could feel the warmth of them and I looked up into her eyes. "Easily forgiven big brother." she said, and I leaned over and lifted Bella into a bear hug. Bella hugged me back and then began to talk in a raspy voice, "Emmett...I need to breathe."
I lightened my grip immediately,, "Oh, sorry little sister...er....am I allowed to call you that anymore?" I asked. She smiled at me, "Of course. I wouldn't have it any other way. Besides, it's not your fault Jasper's been causing you to have un-brotherly thoughts." she said with a mischievous smirk on her face, and a quick, teasing glance at Jasper.
I looked at her, and then at Jasper. "I'm so glad that's over. I like you better as a sister, even if you are a hot dancer in my fantasies." I said teasingly.
Bella smacked my arm, and everyone laughed.
Carlisle chuckled as we all left the room, he hung back preparing to talk to Rose and Alice. I looked at him questioningly, he caught my experssion and grinned widely. "It's nothing Emmett, I was just thinking, it seems I'm always the last to find out when somethings going on."