Walking As The Damned
Before I had just been walking amongst them; watching with horrified, widened, and reddened eyes as they fought around me. Now, I was in the center of the fight, the center of all that was evil and good within these two vampire clans, and let's just say that it sucked to be a human at that time. The huge question on my mind, and probably my fiancés' too since he now knows about all this, is how long will I stay just walking with the damned instead of walking as the damned?
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I shot up from my bed with my heart pounding loudly in my ears while my hands shook uncontrollably. Even after being away from them for almost two years, I was still having dreams that haunted me with memories and what could have been. There were also those times when I had thought I had felt someone watching me only to feel a breeze of cold air.
"I moved away damnit! I should be done with them," I cursed in my thoughts before feeling the weight in the bed shift next to me.
"What's wrong Kor?" Roy asked, sleep heavy in his voice with his words slightly slurred. I had never told him of what had happened to me while I was gone for those few weeks, partially because I didn't want to relive it all, but he knew something had gone down that had shaken me up. All the same, I refused to tell him and I refused to give a report to the police because I knew that it would be useless since they would never find the culprit who broke my heart.
"Just another dream. Really, it's nothing. Just go back to sleep Roy," I told him sweetly, though my voice shook a little bit.
"Are you ever going to tell me what happened?" There was more movement following these words before I found myself staring into Roy's brown eyes since he was now sitting up and facing me.
"I can't Roy and you know that. I made a promise," I lied. He sighed before pulling me against his hard chest before kissing my temple affectionately.
"I know that, I just hate having you wake up like this night after night because of something that happened almost two years ago. Especially after Terra's disappearance… you just seem like you think something is haunting you." Roy's words hit deep especially since I also knew the reason behind Terra's disappearance.
"Just go back to sleep Roy. I'm going to get some water, but I'll be right back," I promised before kissing him softly and climbing out of bed. The silk nightgown held loosely on my form as I left the room quietly and headed for the small kitchen. It wasn't like Roy and I couldn't afford anything bigger, we just didn't need the extra space since it was only the two of us.
When I reached the kitchen, I took a deep breath before taking out one of the plastic cups and getting some water. Right now I didn't trust myself with a glass cup since I had a feeling my shaky hands may not be able to keep a good grip on it. When I was in the middle of taking a sip of water, I looked in the reflection of a window and swore I saw someone standing behind me. Just as I had predicted, the cup dropped to the ground as I spun around to scream but instead fell to my knees as I choked on the water I had been drinking. The next thing I knew Roy was next to me helping me stand while cursing under his breath.
"I'm sorry," I apologized in between gasping breaths.
"What's wrong Kory? What happened?" he asked, ignoring my apology while looking around after scanning over my body to make sure I was unharmed.
"It was nothing, I just got a little spooked." Part of what I had said was the true because I had gotten spooked, but I knew what happened couldn't have been nothing. Something was going on that frightened me because I was finally beginning to get my life back on track again. Sure there were those times before when I had felt a cold breeze after feeling like someone had been watching me, but never before had I actually seen said someone so I knew that something was going on.
"Jesus Christ Kory, when is this going to stop?" Roy asked, letting out another frustrated sigh. He sounded slightly angry, or maybe frustrated, but mostly worried.
"It's just because of the dream Roy. Come on, lets just get back to bed," I tried to convince him, but he didn't seem to be taking any of it.
"Are you sure you're alright?" Roy asked and to stop him from asking anymore questions, I silenced him with a passionate kiss. He fully returned the kiss and soon I found myself back in bed with Roy's arm wrapped protectively around my waist while he slept silently and I let my thoughts go racing around in my head.
"What's going on with Terra right now?" Was probably the biggest question on my mind right now and part of me thought that maybe she had already been turned into a vampire. If that had happened though, would I really still be getting these feelings after peace was restored between humans and vampires.
"Then she's still human." That was the thought I wanted to believe because I didn't want to think of Terra as a vampire just yet. Maybe, just maybe, she got the note I had left her and she ran for the hills.
"They would find her anyway," I thought while letting out a quiet sigh. The note I had left didn't leave enough information that would make Terra run anyway. Closing my eyes, I blocked out thoughts of vampires and Terra and instead focused on Roy's arm that was wrapped around my waist. A smile spread to my face as I thought of how much he and I loved each other before I let myself fall into the deep sleep I had been waiting for.
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I couldn't remember if it ever rained this much during the winter in the previous years, but it was certainly raining now. The forecast had been rain everyday for the past couple of days now and everybody seemed to be in a bad mod because of the constant cold and wet. Right now I didn't much care about the rain or the harsh winds seeing as I didn't have an umbrella to protect me, but was more concerned about the safety of the small piece of paper in my hand. This piece of paper was important because it would probably be the last thing I ever said to Terra even if she didn't know who the note was from.
The breaths I took in as I approached her apartment door were shaky and didn't fill my lungs with as much air as they should have. My whole body was shaking by the time I got in front of her door looked down at the note that said so little, but at the same time said so much.
'I'm sorry I told them… I shouldn't have. Don't let them change you.'
That was what the note had said and now as I slid it underneath her door I felt the sobs coming on. This goodbye was probably harder than the one I had with Richard only three days ago because I knew they would be taking Terra and changing her into something she never was.
"Something she isn't supposed to be!" I yelled out loud as the tears began to pour over. The tears were met with anger which was never a good combo.
"I hate you, you assholes! Leave her alone! Take and ruin someone else!" I cried out again while pounding and kicking on Terra's door. I was sure that a neighbor would soon be coming out into the hall to ask me what the hell I was doing or possibly to get a good look at the crazed person while they called the police. I didn't expect the door I was pounding on to open though and I certainly didn't expect to see Roy standing on the other side staring at me.
"Kory?" he asked in slight disbelief which didn't surprise me since the last he had seen of me was when I had been taken away again almost a week ago.
"Where's Terra?" My words were quiet as I asked them and tried to stop the tears so that Roy wouldn't see me crying. Even though I had forgiven him for everything he had done, I still didn't want him to think of me as weak for crying (let alone crazy).
"She's at the store… what are you doing here Kory? I thought you went back with your friend." Roy sounded uncertain and somewhat confused as he spoke to me which only made me feel more hurt and somewhat lost.
"Uh no… I left because things weren't working out. Just make sure Terra gets the letter… it's important," I told him, pointing down in the direction of the note. "Just don't tell her it was from me." I added the last part as an after thought.
"Why don't you want Terra to know it's from you?" Again the confusion was thick in his voice as he spoke to me.
"I don't want her to know how badly I messed up." It was a simple answer that told Roy only part of the truth, but that was all he needed to know.
"Where are you going now Kory?" Roy asked me as I started to head down the hallway.
Maybe a huge bridge.
"Away from here… it's not safe for me and I can't bear to be here because of the memories," I explained. I had actually been considering to moving from Jump City to Gothem or possibly Steel city as long as it was away from here.
"So you were just planning on leaving without saying anything to me or Terra?" Now his voice held some anger which didn't surprise me much either since I would be mad if my friend suddenly chose to walk out on me without a word.
"It'd be safer for you guys," though they'll be coming after Terra anyway, was what I wanted to add, but kept that comment to myself.
"What is it that's coming after you that would make it unsafe for us?!" Roy suddenly yelled which made me jump slightly. He obviously saw my fear since his expression softened as he slowly walked towards me until he was close enough to hold me which he did. And I let him hold me because even after the cheating, I still felt safe in his arms as my tears overflowed and I finally let all of my pent up emotions out.
"I h-hate everything t-that's g-going on, b-but I c-can't d-do anything t-to s-stop it," I told Roy between sobs while wrapping my arms tightly around his narrow waist while crying into his chest.
"Let me come with you Kory," Roy suddenly spoke and I actually jerked away from him in surprise.
"W-what?" I stuttered out in utter shock and surprise. He smiled weakly before repeating what he had said just moments before.
"Let me come with you. You don't have to do this on your own Kory and I want to be able to help you with this." Of course my first reaction was to tell him no because I couldn't risk it, but I found myself nodding as my parted lips told him yes. Roy's smile grew as he pulled me into another hug as I thought over what I had just done.
When I woke up from this dream, I found myself once again surprised by how vivid it had been. The reality and clarity of my dreams never ceased to amaze me even after having these types of dreams for almost the past two years. Roy was still sleeping peacefully next to me whom reminded me that it was in fact a Saturday and neither of us had to work. This thought brought a smile to my face along with the thought of how much Roy had helped me out and saved me from probably killing myself.
"Would I have really ended up killing myself?" I wondered in my head while staring up at the plain white ceiling. I missed being able to look to my side and see the beautiful flowers out in the clearing or being able to look up and see the stars shining brightly above me. I even missed just being in the presences of the vampires that could almost always know what I was thinking so that I didn't have to always speak my thoughts and explain everything.
"You threw the chance to stay with Richard away and now you're back with Roy," my conscious oh-so-viciously reminded me. Going back to my other thought, in an attempt to rid myself of thoughts of Richard, I concluded that there was a chance I may have just ended up seeking out that tall bridge and taking one final leap from it. When my thoughts were about to continue down that suicidal road they had been down a couple of times before, I once again felt the bed shift next to me before I heard Roy sleepily yawn.
"It's too early to be up," he grumped into the pillow while rolling over onto his stomach. I looked over at the digital clock next to me and couldn't help but laugh.
"It's almost ten thirty," I pointed out between giggles. The light that was streaming in through the open window certainly helped prove my point and, even with his face pressed against the pillows, could tell there was light as well. Groaning, he got up from the bed, nude as the day he was born, marched over to the window, shut the blinds, and then came back over to bed where he slid under the covers and pulled me against his chest once again.
"Sleep," he ordered through closed eyes while he himself tried to fall asleep again.
"You could have pulled on your boxers at least instead of flashing that grandma next door again," I pointed out while I felt my own eyes start to droop again.
"That doesn't matter right now, just sleep," Roy told me, his voice once again gruff and slightly incoherent as sleep began to grasp him once again. I only nodded mutely against his chest before letting myself also slip back into sleep knowing that I wouldn't be waking up again for at least another two hours.
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So as I promised to those who were kind enough to review the last chapter for Walking With The Damned, it's Wednesday and I have updated! Anybody who's a fan of my vampire stories should begin to love Wednesday (even though every Wednesday I have to run a mile for PE) because it has become the official day that I will update this story!
This is when everybody starts jumping down and releasing white doves into the air because they're under the impression that I'll be updating this story every week. Well, here I come with gorgeous thunderclouds to rain on your parade because I'll be updating every-other Wednesday. That means that the next update will not be next Wednesday, but the following one (on the 24th of October). This will follow in a pattern so that every-other Wednesday I will be updating this story. The good news is that, with this new updating schedule, I'll be on time with my updates (hopefully) so you guys won't have to wait a week for an update!
Also, with two weeks to write each chapter, I'll have time in between to work on other stories along with hopefully making each of these chapters longer. Soon (hopefully in a few weeks) I'll have each of my stories on an 'Updating Schedule' so that you all will know when I'm updating and I can keep more on top of it. This fabulous idea was actually presented to me by my awesome beta-reader mochalvr who suggested the idea for my (hopefully soon to be posted we're looking at around January) story If These Feelings Are Wrong, I Don't Wanna Feel Right.
So anyway, sorry for the long ass author's notes, but I had some stuff to say. I hope everybody enjoyed this chapter and don't worry; all the burning questions that you probably have by now will be answered in chapters to come. I'm estimating that the latest the vampires will really start getting into the story again is like chapter 6, so it won't be much longer until the drama starts up again.
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Kattie