Summary: Zack is in love with Cody but won't tell him because what happen in the past. But what if the past comes back to haunt him. Later Twincest, Rape, Cutting.

Disclaimer: DON'T NOT OWN SUITE LIFE OF ZACK AND CODY

Chapter 5: Is this really happening?

Zack's POV

"Zzz…aackkk"

Was I hearing things, I swear I heard my name.

"Zzz…aackkk"

I look up and see Cody… but his eyes aren't open

"Cody? Cody, buddy, are you awake?" after I said that I start to see he eyes slowly flutter open. OH MY SWEET JESUS!

"Zack."

"Cody." and then I couldn't help but have the tears that have been building up in me flow out. I run over and hug him hard but not too hard. I don't want to hurt him.

"God Cody! I've missed you so much." A smile started to for on Cody's face.

"I know." I gave him a questioning look.

"What do you mean you know?" I'm still sooo confused.

"Well I could hear everything you were saying and…"

"Everything?" my eyes widen as I am shocked at what he said… he said he heard everything I said… oh crap.

"Yes everything and Zack…"

"Listen Cody sorry if you heard what I said just a few minutes ago. It's just that…" I was stopped when he grabbed me by the collar of my shirt and pulled me into his soft lips. This was the most blissful moment I could ever have. We pulled away slowly from each other. A blush had crept onto my face.

"You don't even have to apologize Zack because I love you too." With that, everything in my world would be sane again. We then sat there and talked about what had happened in the past two months he had been asleep. I had explained what happened… well not everything like how exactly ended in the hospital. The doctors said that it could trigger some things and it could make him go into a depression. Then the doctors came in here to check Cody out and told us that they called out mother, and within seconds of them telling us that, she walks in slowly. But when she saw what was in front of her. She burst into tears.

"Oh my god, Cody. You're awake." She screamed and came over and hugged him carefully, trying not to hurt him.

"Hi Mom, good to see you too." My twin tells her.

"You don't know how glad I am to see that you're awake and hear you talking again." she tells him, still gripping on to him.

"Oh I could probably guess because you still are hugging me…tightly I might add." He giggles and she broke away from him as she was laughing too. The doctor came back in with her clipboard.

"Okay Cody looks like you are looking good." Dr. Kay tells us. "but you have to stay here for a few more days until you have the energy and such. Is that okay?"

"Are you kidding me? As long as I have my family here, it will be the greatest." And after he said that, he leaned over and kissed me. I froze, not moving a single muscle in body. Cody just kissed me; in front of the doctor, and in front of our mother. We back away from each other only to hear the awe's in the room

"What?!" I simply said, there is no way that no one can be not be okay with this

"I think it's cute, don't you think dr.?" my Mom asked Dr. Kay

"Yes it's very cute." She replies back.

"HUH?! You are freaked out by this?"

"Of course not honey, this is what you wanted anyways?"

"What do you mean what I wanted?" I'm so lost.

"Zack, this isn't real." My Mom said plan and simple.

"What? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!" and with that I jolted up looking around the room to have my Mom come into the room with a panicked look on her face.

"Zack honey, what's wrong? What happened." I looked around the room and looked at the stilled figure that my hand is still entwined with. This never happened. It was all in my head. Then the tears that I have been fighting back for months started streaming out. "Zack, what happened?"

"I… dreamed that Cody woke up. He said my name and he woke up! But it was all a dream. And stupid dream that wasn't real." I balled into my brother's hand. "Cody, please! This has to be real… you can't still be asleep, it seem too real. PLEASE!" the tears kept coming down my cheek. My Mom knelled down beside me.

"Zack, shhhh… part of that dream was real." She told me. I looked at her wide eyed

"What are you talking about?"

"He did say your name. You were excited and you told the doctors but he didn't do anything after that. Then Dr. Kay told me you fell asleep." So that part wasn't a dream, he said my name. But none the less, he's not awake yet. He still is in his silent, stilled state, only to say my name one time. That's probably why I was dreaming about it.

"Zack please just give some time. He will wake up soon." I can hear my Mom voice waver. She couldn't take it anymore either.

"I DON'T WANT SOON I WANT NOW." I burst out loud. "You don't understand, I need him, he is my second half Mom. The other part that makes me Zack. With out him, I'm not whole. We shared a different bond between each other. It's not the same with out him here. It's just that… I want him back. I want to be able to help him when he's scared, make sure no one else bullies him, and make sure that THIS will never happen again. I want my baby brother back." I tell her breaking down soon afterwards into more sobs. She wraps he arms around me.

"I know Zack, I want him back too. I don't know the feeling of the bond that you guys share but I have my bond with him too. He's my son, and believe me Zack. He's the missing piece too, I hasn't been the same without him here. I know you know it, but we just have to deal with it. I'm sorry honey." With that she kisses my forehead and leaves the room. I look back at my brother and more of the salty tears begin to fall.

"Cody, please wake up. I need you. I promise that I will stay here with you as long as it takes before you wake up. I just need you hear… with me. I want to be able to be the big brother that you will always have to protect you." I tell the stilled body that was my brother's. I wiped away the tears with the back of my hand and leaned up and kissed his forehead. "Please wake up." And with that, I wait here. Waiting for my other half to wake up, hopefully soon.

A/n

Sorry I haven't posted for a while. I've been busy with stuff for school and other personal stuff. Please comment, tell others about this story, and I hope you liked it!!