A/N. I know this whole avenue has been explored heaps, but this is a different variation to the events that followed in 'Partings'. Don't be put off my the first few chapters...it really is a Luke/Lorelai story I promise! And a word of warning...This is probably not the story for you if you are a Christopher fan. Don't say I didn't warn you! M rating for some mature themes later on.

Chapter 1

He could literally feel his heart breaking as he watched her walk quickly away from him. Her usual bouncy walk replaced by one that he could tell was filled with disappointment. What the hell was he thinking? The woman he had wished was his for so long had just stood in front of him, and in all the time that he had known her he had never seen her look so vulnerable. The woman who was always so strong. The woman who never needed help from anybody. The woman who hated letting anybody see her cry; especially him. The woman he was pretty sure he had loved for years before they finally got together had just walked out of his life for good.

He hated ultimatums, and that was exactly what she had come to him with.

He sighed painfully as she disappeared out of view. What was he still doing standing here? He should be running after her, telling her he's sorry, telling her that he loves her, telling her that he absolutely will marry her right now. He knew all this, and yet his feet were still rooted to the ground.

Lorelai Gilmore had stood in front of him, asking him to marry her tonight...and he had rejected her.

She looked at him, eyes wide with emotion, and pleaded with him to please marry her now.

It almost didn't feel real, what had happened tonight. Actually none of it seemed real. If she had asked him to marry her the night of their first date he probably would have said yes to her. So why on earth had he said no to her now?

Their relationship had changed, and he knew that. He knew he was the cause of it too. He had been pushing Lorelei away for months, and he had no idea why. She had done nothing but support him, give him space, love him. She had done nothing wrong, and now it seemed he was punishing her for it?

He had made a terrible mistake...

Of course he wanted to marry her. There was nothing more in the world he wanted to do than to call her his wife. To wake up next to her everyday. To live in the house they had renovated together. To have the life they had planned together...

He began to run. His legs felt shaky at first, but he soon got into the rhythm. His feet pounded on the road beneath him. He had to get to her. He had to tell her he had made a mistake. This was all his fault.

As he rounded the corner and her house came into view, he saw her jeep pulling out from the driveway. 'No' he said to himself, picking up the speed of his run.

She reversed out onto the road, and drove away at a greater speed than she normally did.

She hadn't seen him. Hadn't seen him running towards her with his hand in the air. Hadn't heard him yelling her name as took off.

He had seen her though. He could see her clearly through the drivers window. He had seen his beautiful fiancee, her dark curls perfectly framing her usually smiling face. But she wasn't smiling tonight...

Instead, she was crying.

She drove around aimlessly for what felt like hours, struggling to see through the tears that had been clouding her eyes since she left Stars Hollow. Since she left Luke. Since she left their engagement, their wedding and their life.

She didn't understand what she had done wrong. She had tried not to push him too much. To give the space that she could tell he needed. She tried not to get too upset at the fact he hadn't told her about his daughter. She tried not to feel angry towards him at the fact that the whole town knew April, and he still wouldn't even let the two of them meet! She had honestly thought that she had done a good job at keeping her emotions in check when she was around him. She had tried her hardest to keep their relationship together, to keep it normal, to keep herself in high spirits about their upcoming wedding. But ever since April walked into his life, she knew something was missing.

And that was something was him.

She pulled the jeep over, wiping at her eyes as she did so. She hopped out, and headed towards what looked like some sort of pub. She had no idea where she was or how she had got here. She didn't recall any of the roads she had driven on, or any signs that she had passed. She walked into the dark place, the smell of cigarettes and booze almost overpowering. She headed straight to bar, asking for a vodka double. She downed it in one long sip, passed the bartender some cash and told him to keep them coming.

The heavy pain that she had felt only moments ago began to feel lighter and lighter with each sip she took.

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