Sorry for the spacious updates guys ^^' i've been getting no motivation these days for writing ^^' but dont worry i will NOT GIVE UP *laughs evilly**coughs* aanyways TMNT isnt mine, Ava is mine and Shauna 'me' is also mine. Ellie and samantha are (c) to malasia19845

You are loved pt 9

'never fear change, embrace it'

I let out a soft tired sigh as I lay curled in the fatal position. I was in my new and first own bed, Ellie had went well out of her way to ensure that I had the softest and most thick of the blankets, I smiled softly remembering how she kept placing her hand on my forehead every minute declaring I was too pale and needed thick blankets to warm up and get some colour. She fully ignored my response of claiming that I'm always pale. She was certain she was right, I let out a soft giggle it was a night that I know I will remember for a long time.

Turning sideways I glanced over to see the back of Ava snuggled into her blankets sleeping soundly. Another sigh pressed through my lips, I cant believe it. In the space of a short few hours I have made new friends, new really different friends, my life has also been changed, a big statement but in reality it was a true one. But the question that remains in my mind is that 'is it really over?' will I ever see my… "parents" again?, will they find me? And what would happen if they did?. I allowed myself to shudder at that thought.

"Okay maybe I should try to think on something positive?" I whispered softly, staring into the ceiling I mused "well school is tomorrow, it should be… fun?" okay maybe fun was being a little TOO optimistic, I've never been to high school before, heck the last time I was at a school was when I was 7 years old so I don't know how exactly this is going to go. Or how Ellie and Samantha are going to get me in without any previous records, they really are gonna need a miracle.

I'm not exactly the brightest crayon in the box but all I can really do is cross my fingers tight and hope everything runs the minutes ticked by I knew that I should sleep, fear prevented me from doing so. Almost every night since I was five I have had nightmares, arguments, wars, all the evils going on both within my family and outside of it. Turning once more I now faced the wall, I knew I needed rest, a new day was tomorrow so reluctantly I allowed my eyes to slowly drop, just praying in vain that since this day has been good that maybe for once I wont have any nightmares.

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Meanwhile in a remote area of the city…A shadowed building stood in an abandoned factory, untouched by any recent human activity other than vandalism by rowdy teenaged hoodlums. Approaching the building were 4 cloaked figures, each remarkably tall, their faces hidden. The figure in the centre walked forward among the others, signalling to them to split up, surrounding the perimeter of the building to secure its abandonment.

The three comrades of the leader separated into the shadows, leaving the leader momentarily alone to stare at the building, although he looked at it, it was not the main focus of his attention. Momentarily he pulled the hood down from his head revealing himself to be the leader of the dark clones of the turtles, seconds later his brothers returned "like I told you before brother this building is abandoned, from the looks of it has been abandoned for at least a decade" the smartest of the four said with a hint of annoyance in his tone, the leader brushed off his complaint stating that "precautions need to be taken, just get inside and set everything up". the smart one nodded before turning towards the building and with a stride he walked in.

He was momentarily followed by the youngest of the four, grinning a crooked wide smile his long tongue poked out as he yelled "I get fist picks of the rooms!" he shouted sprinting in the league "will you shut up you yellow, noodle brained Neanderthal!" the smart one retorted whispering harshly. The red brother rolled his eyes and followed his two brothers but not before turning his neck to face the leader "aint ya comin'?." he asked, the leader looked at him for a brief moment before nodding "in a minute" he replied. The red one nodded before walking on ahead leaving the leader alone with his thoughts. Once he knew his brothers were out of hearing range from him, the Blue leader turned around to stare out into the dark city " I know your out there somewhere" he mused softly before the sides of his lips curled up into a smirk "rest assured I'll find you"

with a sharp inhale of air my head shot up, I was covered in a cold sweat and panting heavily. Wheezing precious oxygen into my lungs I let out a shallow sigh. Another nightmare had come, this one seemed to be much more intense than my previous one from last night. Using the back of my hand I wiped the beads of sweat from my forehead, still panting heavily. I let out a gasp when I felt a hand on my shoulder, instantly as a reaction I flung my hands up to cover my head whimpering. When will it end? "s-shauna?" came a soft tired voice.

Shivering slightly, I slowly lowered my arms, this wasn't the voice I was expecting. Looking up I saw a sleepy Ava with a tired, concerned expression written on her face. I found that my throat was dry from gasping, I couldn't find anything to say "are you okay? You were crying in your sleep"my brows furrowed "I-I was?" I asked, finally finding my voice, bringing my hand up to my face I was surprised that there were in fact tear stains on my cheeks. Oh god I woke her with my stupid crying, sighing I looked at the wall, to ashamed to glance at her to apologise "I'm sorry I woke you Ava" I said my eyelids drooping, gosh I felt so small at that moment, but suddenly I felt Ava use her hand that was resting supportively on my shoulder pull me into a friendly comforting hug " you don't have anything to apologize for sweetie, it was just a nightmare, it cant hurt you" she smiled softly. I looked up into her eyes, she was so sure of what she said. I only wish that I could believe her "ok" I whispered softly averting my eyes away from her face. Ava soon let me go again " now it's really late, or early but wither way we need to get to sleep, we have a big day tomorrow" she smiled trying to stifle a yawn. The springs squeaked as she climbed into her bed, I sighed softly snuggling into the blankets once more, just like I did earlier I closed my eyes and prayed silently, that soon everything will be happy and good in my life, just like it used to be a long time ago.