It Wasn't
It wasn't supposed to be this way.
The first time Sesshoumaru had heard that phrase it came from lips of his brother. The hanyou stared into the amber glow of the blazing funeral prier. Their only chance at salvation was slowly turning to ash.
It wasn't supposed to be this way.
Inuyasha had turned his back on her when she refused to offer anything more than friendship. He had turned her out of the village when he realized that the miko longed for his brother. Never once did the hanyou realize that it was his own inability to see her that caused the obsidian haired woman to look to another.
It wasn't supposed to be this way.
The pristine tai-youkai saw only weakness in the woman who had been displaced by time. He had already unburdened himself of the adoring ward to venture in his solitary life. A power threshold had been reached, but, yet another was already in his sights.
It wasn't supposed to be this way.
Centuries had passed. Yet, time never allowed the memories to fade. Her face as he sent away his half-brother's left-over's. The cold feel of her clammy skin shrouded in death. The insanity that over took his hanyou sibling. The time that Rin saw him as a being that was not infallible.
It wasn't supposed to be this way.
Sesshoumaru should have died in the age of the sword. He should have never been forced to endure an age that thought him nothing more than fable to be told by eccentric old men. He should have never had to put his brother down like a rabid dog.
It wasn't supposed to be this way.
Kagome… Kagome should never have fallen into the past, but she did. Her heart should have been cherished, but it was not. She should have been a beacon of light. All should have defended her, but he did not.
It wasn't supposed to be this way, but it was.
Countless centuries lay ahead, and all he longed for was to hear her voice once more. The great Sesshoumaru longed for the one that he could call home. Maybe, if she had not come back, he would have been able to accept her love in her time.
It wasn't supposed to be this way.
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AN: I don't think this one has a happy ending.
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