Disclaimer: The Mediator doesn't belong to me. I'm just playing with their fate for a bit. :D
Rating: T
Summary: Snapshots of Suze and Jesse's life together in the future.
A/N: I've really been looking forward to writing this. I kept getting random funny ideas that I could do for Suze and Jesse. Like snapshots of their life together. So I thought, why not put them as a collection of lil stories? :D So there gonna mix between some funny, (or my attempt anyway) some fluff, add in a bit of angst or whatever. But I really want them to mainly be funny.
This is came out a little more serious than I intended. But the rest should be lighter and just totally random. Something to help me ease out of the rut I got in with the series. Anyway, I hope you enjoy and the second should be updated really soon. :) Enjoy!
Moments In Time...
'We've come a long way.'
I let the thought run through my mind as I gaze upon the photo sitting comfortable in its silver frame atop the mantel piece. It's a photo I love to look at and imagine all over again. It was of Susannah and myself. The night I took her to the Winter Formal. An evening that was so normal and so special, I never wished to lose the memory. It's written in our eyes and in our hold on each other. Shining through our smiles as we gaze at each other.
It was an image, neither Susannah or myself had realized had been taken. It wasn't until after we had moved into our new home, when Susannah's mother had given it to us as a house warming gift, did we know. She had kept it from us, until she felt it was the right moment. Telling us of the tears she had nearly shed when she had first seen it.
Because it was so full of love and happiness, she had told us.
Susannah was wearing the white orchid I had gotten for the occasion. It was a gentle and wry reminder of all we had been through and shared together. A symbolism no-one asked of, or questioned. It was only for Susannah and I to share. How I felt it was supposed to be.
We look perfect together in that photo.
It had been a week that night, that Susannah had travelled back in time to save my life. To right a wrong and change our lives. And to give me an opportunity and chance. Thankfully, her plan hadn't turned out quite as she had expected. If it hadn't of done, I certainly wouldn't of been here now, looking at a memory I cherished and loved. Letting past momenys of that time, wash over me.
Susannah had lost her father that night. After spending ten years, walking the earth with only his daughter being able to see him, he had finally moved on. Having witnessed and felt Susannah's pure happiness for himself, there was nothing holding him back. He had seen all that he had been held from moving on to. And now her happiness was a constant emotion streaming through her.
And I knew, I in large part, played a hand in that content.
I can't help but swell with pride whenever I would think of this. Knowing I could make her so happy and loved. For Susannah to feel so safe and comfortable. That I could make her smile so bright and dream so big. If at all possible, I had fell more in love with her over the years because of it. That not only did I evoke such emotions and sentiments in her. But that she did myself in return.
Where before I had known Susannah on a deep and personal level. Able to see into her soul and know how she was truly feeling or wanting. Able to say with sure keen fact, exactly what Susannah was like and how she felt. Now I knew her more. Her characteristics, her loves. I was able to understand her small thoughts and wanderings.
She opened up to me even more. Showing small traits and desires, no-one would of thought she would hold. Telling me things, she normally wouldn't of told someone before. Unafraid and comfortable enough to express to me all the small things. All the minute fears or joys. Things she had kept suppressed for so long, never believing to meet someone who was her equal.
She let me see the strengths and weaknesses I had always thought I had known. In turn, bringing us closer than anyone could ever realize.
Where once upon a time, there was a lingering fear and doubt that one day, we would be pulled apart and swept away from each other, was now banished and forgotten. There was no room for them with us anymore. There was too much history and so much unconditional love, that no-one could ever break or tears us. We had grown and changed together. We had been through too much and had come to far, to have let that happen.
We went through the usual trials a relationship holds. Jealousy, denial, anger, petty differences. Little things that we had to endure in order for us to learn. Sometimes we would argue, sometimes we would laugh. But at the end of the day, we never went to sleep on bad terms. We never let a misunderstanding, or an anger grow and consume us.
And each time, we only came through it stronger. In ourselves and in us.
I have learnt a lot about myself, I had never thought possible in the six years my life was dramatically changed forever. Mu own traits and characteristics, I never thought possible for me to hold. When really, they had always been there. Laying dormant and waiting for me to open my mind to them. The act of getting my life back, had made me become less judgemental and more willing to gaze at the world, through a different view.
Susannah helped me to find myself a little more, the more time we spent together. And the more we grew. My own weaknesses and vulnerabilities I would have kept hidden and away, for my own pride and mind, was torn away and opened by Susannah. There was no place for such insecurities in this world. In our love.
I had accepted Susannah and all her fears and joys, without question. She set aside her own concern of being so readily able of being hurt, to let me see the whole of her.
I could do nothing but do the same.
So over time, I did just that. It took a little longer than I would of liked. But old values and ideals, stood in my way of being able to let Susannah in straight away. Though she was nothing but patient and understanding. Helping to ease my transition and heal my pride even further. And when finally, I had fought away the fear of being so vulnerable, I had never felt so whole and complete.
I slowly found myself losing the ways I normally would have thought, behaved or acted in certain situations, when I was alive before. Chipping away at my pride and allowing myself to ease and slip into my new life gradually and fully. To accept and enjoy it, rather than fight and lose it.
Susannah was with me, at every frustrating and painful turn. Soothing and comforting me. Helping me to lose the guilt I felt at leaving my past and the way of life, that had shaped and given me a starting point, at the beginning of my new life, six years ago.
I still thought of my family, long since passed. The remorse of being able to have a new life and to never have seen my sister's grow up, or for my family to witness my love and compassion, was only eased, by knowing I should enjoy and make worthwhile the life I have now. To not waste their memory, but to remember and celebrate them.
I had a new life and a new family now. Though nothing would change the love and pride I had for my parents and sisters, I didn't turn away from the opportunities that came with my new life either.
Once it became quite clear, that I was here to stay in Susannah's life. That our love wasn't a passing infatuation, but was one to be looked upon with awe and acceptance, Susannah's family were more than ready to welcome me with open arms and open minds. Making me feel the familiar warmth that came with being included and with a family. Letting it shine and grow within me again.
All steps that brought me closer and closer to Susannah.
David had quickly become the younger brother, I had wished to have always had. He was the most ready and willing to bring me in, than anyone else. We had much in common. And the views and opinions I had always wanted to talk with him about when I had been a ghost and occupying Susannah's room, were finally unleashed and unbidden. We would often spend hours at a time, just talking and theorising.
I always chuckle at the bored and lost look Susannah would wear when she would come into the room in the middle of a discussion. Looking from one to the other, before turning and walking away.
Jake had surprised me by being understanding and happy for us. He never lectured me to take care of Susannah. To treat her right, as I had always expected him too. He just kept a wary eye on us and didn't interfere. I always believed it was because he knew, Susannah could take care of herself. A sentiment I happily shared with him.
But it wasn't until he met his wife that he really understood what Susannah and I held between us. Causing us both to have become good friends in turn. Something else that had surprised Susannah as the years progressed.
Brad, much to everyone's surprise, had grown-up over the years. His competitive nature with Susannah had worn away and dissolved as they went through the rest of high school and into college. I always believed the influence and happiness I had given Susannah, was something that helped towards that. Making her ignore his childish comments and tries at getting her riled up.
She had just let them sweep over her. Making his respect that I had always suspected he held for her, shine through and come forth at long last. Now they could have a conversation without someone having to intervene. His enquiry to her well-being, was genuine now. As was his own acceptance to me.
I made it quite clear from the beginning I wouldn't take his disrespect to Susannah lightly. Something he looked up to and awed over.
As Susannah and I grew together, so did our lives threaten to take us in different directions. But we resolutely held on and pulled through.
I had accomplished what I could once only have dreamed of. I had made it through college and all the rigors that came with it. Coming through and moving on to the bigger ambition. Medical school had been harder though. I was often exhausted and mentally drained. It was a test of character as well as a challenge of self. One that I knew I wouldn't of managed to have completed, if Susannah hadn't of been there to support me.
And I return, did the same for her. She had gone onto college when she had finished high school. Hitting her own dilemma of where to go from there. I stood by her as she discovered and sought what she wished to be. Pushing her along when she wanted to quit. Held her when she became frustrated. And listened with a willing ear when she needed to shout and vent.
Ending with laughing with her, when she had overcome her own challenges and trials. Praising and just as happy when she made it through. Just as she had with me.
But together, we faced our gift. Helping lost souls on their way. Both with a new understanding and willed patience that came with all we had been through and witnessed before my renewal of life. Approaching it together and stronger.
We built our lives together over the years. Facing new dilemmas and trivial problems that tried to stand in our way and bring us to a halt. Laughing together when we overcame them and moved forward. Starting with our own home. A sanctuary all our own, that was ours to keep and build new memories and moments in time, in and around.
Our engagement swiftly followed. A worthy and timely step. And one of many that was soon to follow in its wake and for then after. Family and friends joining in with helping towards this. But more importantly together.
The sound of steps approaching behind me, helped me focus back on the moment, frozen in time that sat before me. The memory among many that followed that and ones yet to be made and held. I felt Susannah come to a stop behind me. Her voice like silk to my soul as it glided over me and wrapped me in happiness and love.
"You ready?" She quietly asked.
I turned away from the picture of my beautiful querida, and looked to the more stunning sight before me. Drinking in her image and savouring the love that always made my heart speed up. That caused my gaze to soften and become gentle as I looked into her own.
"Sure," I smiled in return, closing the small distance between us and pulling her to me. I felt her arms wrap around my waist and hold me tight. Both losing ourselves in each other for a few short moments.
Eventually Susannah pulled back slightly. Keeping me at arms length as she looked up at me beneath thick long lashes, her eyes holding slight concern and questioning.
"Everything okay?"
"Yes, querida," I looked back into her shimmering green eyes, giving her the smile I only reserved for her. "Everything's perfect."
That moment frozen in time, had felt like the end of an era and time. But in truth, it hadn't been the end, it had only been the beginning. And more was yet to come for us both...
A/N 2: Shorter than normal, hehe. Thanks for reading, y'all! Please review :) Toodles!