One month. That was all the time I had until I was totally screwed. This was the most horrible situation I had ever gotten myself into and I've been in some tough spots before. Edward would leave me again. I winced at the thought. I hadn't acted to my true nature since I left Phoenix but my Edward was stubborn. I wasn't so sure he would see it that way. I wont be able to be without him again. I wouldn't survive but right now it was inevitable. The guys would come up here once school was over, well at least when they dropped out, next month. I probably didn't even have that long because once the guys got closer to me I would disappear and Alice would freak out. She was already having issues with seeing me now because our fates were going to soon mix. They were kind of like werewolves when it came to the visions; You couldn't see them. I was terrified of what the outcome would be once they met. Who would try to attack first; My family or my coven. I wouldn't let them of course. I hadn't use my abilities in awhile so yes I was a little weak but strong enough to keep them safe. At least I hope anyway. I was so infuriated when James had attacked me. I was far to weak to even try to harm him or the others, believe me I had tried. With the Voluturi, it would have been pure suicide. If they had found out what I was they would have killed me without thinking twice. With the Cullen's with me that would have been their deathbeds too. I felt so useless when I had power but couldn't use it. I could have loss my family to those blood thirsty leeches ...vampires, I mean.

Ugh! I needed a distraction. Edward left late last night so I was going to be alone this whole Sunday. I had already cleaned ever surface in the house twice. I could go hang out with Jacob but then Alice would know then Edward would know. Jake probably didn't want anything to do with me any way. They made me choose and according to Jake I chose wrong. I thought that too some times. Don't get me wrong, I loved Edward to death. Obviously considering I almost did die for him. It was just simple things that made me crazy. I loved that he cared about me but he was over protective. I had no real freedom...I sighed. I was whining now. I needed that distraction now; I was thinking far too much for my own good.

I thought for a moment before remembering my hair coloring. When I moved back here I changed my hair color back to it's original color. It was mainly for Charlie's benefit. I didn't want to frighten him. But he was strong and besides he was hardly ever home any way so it would be too tired to even notice. My decision was to do it after I had been here for awhile but I never got around to it. I went into my closet and pulled out the box I kept hidden in the back. I didn't want Alice to find it so it was under a few other boxes. I accidentally dropped a box and it clattered to the floor. I wasn't naturally this clumsy. I only started to do that so humans would think I was...well human. I realized after it was too late that they weren't that klutzy and people would have noticed if I went back to normal. It became a habit to be this way.

I checked out the items scattered across the floor. A smile appeared across my face. I had taken my piercings out when I came here. I think it was time to put them back in. The ones I could any way. I had had my belly button and tongue pierced before. If I got around to it I'd go get those professionally done.I ran to the bathroom and got to work.

...X One hour later X...

This was far better than my natural hair. This was so...me. My hair was now jet black. I cut my bangs so they were some what in my eyes. (Pic in my profile) I pierced my ears several times and my nose. Now all I had to deal with now was rather or not Edward liked it or not. I sighed and went to my bedroom. I pulled the guitar from under my bed. I hadn't played it in forever. I was probably horrible. I started to play the first song that came into my head.

When you're taught through feelings. When you're taught through feelings. When you're taught through feelings

When you're taught through feelings. Destiny flying high above. All I know is that you can realize

Destiny who cares destiny who cares. As it turns around. And I know that it descends down on me

It's just another day. The shame is gone. Hard to believe. That I've let it go, let it go, let it go. Destiny can't replace my life

Scary shadows of my past are alive. Destiny who cares destiny who cares. As it turns around as it turns around

And I know that it descends. With a smile. Just another day. The shame is gone. It's hard to believe. That I've let it go away

I froze when I heard a small gasp. I looked up to see Edward staring at me with his jaw dropped. I blushed and dropped my eyes. Great. I wouldn't just have to explain why I looked completely different but also lying about my musical talent. Why was he even here? I could see hunger in his coal black eyes.

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