Hey guys, I'm struggling with a few personal family issues at the moment so if you wonder why I don't update as often or why my fics seem crappy there's your answer. I'm trying to not let it affect my writing, so just bare with me while i get stuff sorted, K? Anyway, here's the last chapter for flower garden. Don't own it blah blah blah...

Huggles to shadows.salvation, Laven Walker, sakurakissy, tinytruefan, milonar, sharinganj, nusku, sleeping moon, snowfoxallen, d.gray man sorrow invoked, knux33 and nella.

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Allen's eyes slid closed blissfully as Lavi held him around the waist. He felt the redhead slide his tongue across his lips, and allowed it entrance, giving a small sound of pleasure as Lavi began mapping out the cavern of his mouth. He kissed back, though more shyly and less lustily, being younger and no doubt more inexperienced then the older boy. He reached up and grabbed the fiery locks at the back of his head, needed something to hold on to, wanting this to last forever...

There was a knock at the door and the two boys pulled away hastily wiping their mouths and smoothing the wrinkles in their clothes.

'C-Come in...' Allen tried to look innocent as Lavi got off the bed. The door swung open to reveal two maids with trays of food.

'Lunch, Master Walker.'

'Thank you...' Allen swallowed nervously and stared at his lap, blushing. The maids set the trays on the bedside table, said farewell and left. Lavi sat on the chair next to the bed, staring out the window as though interested in the clouds. He was waiting for the white-haired boy to say something, a yes or a no at least, though that kiss seemed pretty confirming.
He swallowed nervously, his cheeks pink, and raised his hand to gently touch the place where Allen had kissed him on the lips. He'd felt so warm, and even though he'd been alive for a few days now, and he'd been things like hungry and tired, then... He'd actually felt it. He could feel his heart rate and the blood pumping around his body, even now when the kiss had been halted.
He cautiously glanced back at Allen out of the corner of his eye. The shorter was hugging his knees to his chest, eyes downcast and face red. It was obvious he was too embarrassed to speak. Lavi sighed and smiled.

'So, uh... After lunch wanna take a walk in the garden?'

Allen looked up, smiled shyly and nodded. Lavi reached out a hand and stroked his cheek, making his blush deepen.

'You're really cute when you're shy...'

Allen swallowed, eyes slightly wider then usual, and Lavi stood up to reach for his tray of food. Allen did too, and they ate quickly.

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Since Lavi could no longer see in the dark, they had to light the oil lamp to see. However, Lavi still held Allen's hand and led him through the dark tunnel. The boy stole shy glances at him, admiring how his skin and hair glowed in the gold lamplight. He pressed his face against his arm.

'I love you too.'

They stopped and Lavi looked down at him curiously. Allen felt his gaze and buried his face deeper into his shoulder.

'D-Don't look at me, otherwise I can't say it...'

Lavi sighed, put his hand under Allen's chin and brought his face up to look at him. He smiled comfortingly.

'It's just me. You don't need to be embarrassed about saying anything to me.'

He placed a gentle kiss on Allen's head, but to his shock, when he pulled away, Allen's eyes were downcast and shimmering sadly. He blinked in surprise, and went to ask what was wrong and why he was crying, but suddenly Allen stepped forward and buried his face in his chest. He wasn't crying, but he was still very sorrowful, and the redhead was worried.

'Allen? What's wrong?'

'I can't say it... I can't say it to your face... I'm sorry I'm terrible...'

'What? You're not terrible! Why can't you say it?'

'I... I don't... I'm not... I don't know!'

Lavi blinked again, and wrapped his arms around the fifteen year old, holding him. He felt him shiver, and he sighed.

'Come on; let's get outside where it's warmer...'

Allen wiped his eyes and nodded sadly. Lavi grabbed his hand again, and led him along the tunnel. After they came to the door and stepped out into the warm sunlight, they walked across the grass aimlessly, finally stopping at the pond in section two where they'd met for the first time. Allen sat, hugging his knees to his chest. Staring at the fat green frogs, he sighed heavily. He wanted to say he loved Lavi to his face, but for some reason he couldn't. He knew Lavi would accept his love even if he couldn't say it looking at him, but this was important to him; he HAD to say it.
He turned to see the redhead staring in concern at him. He opened his mouth to speak, but no sound came out.

'Dammit...' He looked away, head in hands, 'I love you! I love you I love you I love you! Why can't I say it while looking you in the eye?!'

'Do you think...' Lavi sounded apprehensive, 'Maybe you can't say it because you DON'T love me?'

'No!' Allen grabbed his hand desperately, an alarmed look on his face, 'I... That's not it! I'm just... I must be one of those commitment phobes... Ugh, I'm so useless, why do you even love me?'

He sighed in resignation and sat back, letting go of the redhead's hand as he did, looking defeated. Lavi noticed he was clutching his blacked arm stressfully, yanking at it somewhat as though trying to tear it off. He raised his eyebrow curiously.

'Allen, are you afraid to say you love me cos you feel inferior?'

'Huh?'

'Your arm... I noticed ever since your father died, sometimes when Lulubell or someone would insult you, you'd start pulling at it, but you stopped as you got older so I forgot about it. But now you seem to have started again, even though I haven't said anything bad to you.'

'Oh...' Allen blinked and looked at his arm. He slowly let go of it, as though unsure of his actions. 'I-I dunno... I guess... Well I know I'm not ugly, you already persuaded me that... But I still hate my hair and arm... But I don't see why that would stop from saying how I feel to you!'

'Maybe...' Lavi scratched his head nervously, trying to find the words, 'Cos you feel inferior and you hate your appearance you're just not used to loving and being loved? And so you can't say it to my face cos maybe... You're afraid I'm just tricking you or something?'

Allen's eyes widened in mild surprise. He opened his mouth to protest, to say he wasn't afraid, but now that he thought about, he was indeed unsure of Lavi's seriousness. He groaned and put his head in his hands. Lavi had just kissed him and confessed to him! How could he still be unsure?

'I'm such an idiot...'

'You're not...' Lavi smiled and put his arm around the boy's shoulders, holding him to his chest for a hug, 'You just need time to get used to this. If you're really sure you love me back, you'll be able to say it in no time.'

'Hm...' Allen nodded slowly, a small grin crossing his face. It widened when Lavi leant down to kiss him.

'I love you...' He mumbled into his shirt.

'I love you too. Don't think you're inferior Allen, cos you're not.'

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End.

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