Chapter 15

EPOV

I stared at her in awe and wonder as my beloved awoke from the dead.

She was as beautiful as ever, her hair splayed out like a halo around her head. Her eyes were wide with fright and her mouthy opened in fright. A soft cry escaped her lips, her eyes darting across from the family behind me and then to me.

"Sshh, Bella, Sshh, please, let me explain. Don't be scared my sweet."

She sat upright with a bolt then closed her eyes and continued shaking her head.

"This can't be, this can't be. He killed me, Edward killed me." She kept muttering.

I protested softly, and kept saying it would be alright. Behind me my family kept quiet, just watching us intently.

Alice was biting her bottom lip and Jasper was rubbing her shoulder watching us closely. Carlisle was also comforting Esmé who had her head in his chest. Emmett and Rosalie were just watching us, holding hands, and a look of worry upon their faces.

I turned back to Bella who was now shaking. I pulled her into a tight hug and swung her from side to side gently.

Her wailing began to cease and she began to just swing from side to side with me.

I kissed her hair and then pushed her off me so I could see her face. After a moment of hesitation she finally opened her eyes and I saw they were mixed with so many emotions it was hard to tell what she was thinking.

I suddenly heard a gasp and something fall to the floor. I whirled around to see Jasper on his knees and clutching at his head, swaying from side to side.

He gnashed his teeth together and had his eyes closed in agony.

"What is it?!" Alice asked, her eyes wide as she began to try to stop Jaspers swaying.

"Bella…she…has….way….too many…emotions." He said still holding onto his head and howling with agony.

Alice looked up at me and I nodded once, answering her thoughts which were,

Can we go so Jasper can calm down?

With another howl of agony Jasper and Alice left and I turned back to Bella.

She was looking at me curiously now, her green eyes scaring me.

"Edward?" she asked.

I nodded and placed her hand on my face, "Yes, my love, Edward."

If I could have cried right now I would. Tears of joy, of relief, tears of sadness.

"But how?" she asked, her eyes searching my face for answers.

"Well, you know that boy from the castle that healed you? He had a power to bring you back from the dead."

Her eyes widened, "Oh my gosh, we have to see him straight away, I must thank him for this gift of life he has given me."

My eyes shifted uneasily to the dead corpse behind Bella.

"Um, Bella, not now, he is very…lonesome right now, he doesn't want to be disturbed. I think it best we leave him alone for now." I lied, keeping eye contact with her.

I spared a quick meaningful glance at Carlisle who quickly grabbed the corpse of the body and buried it outside the cave.

I stared deep into Bella's eyes, the colour of them disturbing me.

"Bella, do you know why your eyes are green?" I asked cautiously.

Her eyes searched my face again, making me even more scared because instead of being distraught she was just curious.

"My eyes are green?" she questioned me.

I nodded once, still holding her tightly in my arms.

She was less fragile now, but I still held her as if she was still human, savouring the memory.

"Oh." was the only answer she could muster.

For a long moment we just sat there and shared each others company, just looking at eachother…and thinking.

I heard my family leave me after a while, knowing that they would probably not get a chance to say hi to Bella in a long time.

I leaned forward to kiss her on the lips and she was obviously thinking the same.

We crashed our lips together, feeling so many emotions as we kissed once again.

Our lips danced in a synchronized fashion, pressing our bodies up against eachother.

The kiss lasted for about twenty minutes, no need for the human ability to breath.

Once we pulled away, we embraced again for a long time, hugging and swaying at the same time.

"I was dead." She startled me by talking.

"Yes." I croaked.

"Edward," she said, pulling away from me slightly and looking me in the eye,

"It wasn't your fault for killing me, it was mine. James forced this upon us. We shall have our revenge."

I nodded once, still cradling her against my chest.

Her skin felt no longer hot upon mine, it just felt the equivalent of mine.

"How was it?" I said hoarsely.

"What?" she asked, knowing fully what I was talking about?

"Dying."

"I can't say." She said

"Why?"

"Because the secrets of death must stay the same, I promised that to him. I promised that the secrets of death would stay secrets of death."

"Promised who?"

"He is also another secret of death, I cannot tell you."

"You sure?"

"Yes."

"Okay." I resigned with a sigh and continued swaying her.

I was in heaven.

Bella was back.

But then again, James was not dead yet.

"I think I know why." She said after a while.

"What? Know what? "

"Why my eyes are green."

"Oh?" I asked.

She took a shaky gulp of breath and looked up at me, "Because…when I was…dead, I, uh, the only thing I held on to was the colour of your eyes. When I was dead I was allowed to wish something, and I think I wished to keep your eyes, to always remember your eyes. I think…that is the only explanation I have."

She took another shaky breath and then crashed her head into my chest.

I cradled her closely and we swayed silently.

"Edward." She said again.

"Yes my sweet."

"I can feel them on me; I can feel all the dead on me. They are haunting me."

"What?" I said alarmed.

"Dying and re-living again has changed me. I am the only person on earth who has died, actually gone into the void beyond and come back again, and you think this hasn't affected me one bit."

"No, but I was hoping."

"I'll try to explain this too you," she said coming out of my chest and sitting cross legged in front of me.

"It's like I have powers."

"Powers?"

"Yes, powers. I have multiple powers. One of them is feeling and knowing who will die in the next three days. I feel their precious lives battling against my soul, trying to make me save them. It's…it is so horrible."

I made a move to hug her again but she swept me aside with her new born strength.

"Another one is knowing what people are going to do next. So I can feel you are going to say, Oh, after I have finished my speech."

"Oh!"

"See, this is not what I expected Edward. This is, scary. Another power is…"

"Hold on," I said interrupting her, "How many powers do you have?"

"Five."

My jaw dropped and my eyes widened, "WHAT?!"

"Ssshhh." She said putting a hand on my lips, "Not so loud."

She went on describing her different powers which were,

Knowing who will die when and where,

Knowing what people are going to do next,

Force field,

Extraordinary strength,

And the healing powers (which she had gotten from the boy.)

My jaw was still opened in disbelief as she displayed to me these different powers.

She listed the force field power last.

"The fifth and last power is a force field. It's like when I was a human; I had a force field on my mind, now I can expand it to block myself from physical attacks as well as mental. I can also stretch my force field to other people as well."

I nodded, still trying to comprehend it all.

"Edward, there is one other thing, I know it sounds great all these powers and so on, but there's a catch."

"What is it?" I found my voice strained and uncontrollable.

"Once my deed is done, I die again."

"WHAT?" I said desperately clutching her into a hug.

She cried onto my shoulder, and I was shocked when real tears formed in her eyes.

"How can that be? We just got you back? What kind of deed? What is it? Please, Bella, no, don't go again, please."

She drew back from me and looked me in the eye,

"Edward, once I have killed James, I die. If someone else kills James for me, I will have a life of pain. The deal I made with the master of death is a secure deal; the only way for me to come back to life was that once I had killed my torturer, then I would go back to the darkness beyond."

I shook my head, "But that cannot be."

"It must and it is."

"So let me get this straight, if you kill James, you die. But if someone else kills James you will live a life of pain all of your life."

"Not only that I cannot die at all, I would have to live in the life of pain no matter what."

"NO, no, no, no! Stop it, no! You're scaring me."

Her green eyes pierced me until I was still.

"I will die again, but this time, I'll be prepared!"

ooo, ouch, big blow for Edward! knowing that his one true love will die in the end...or live a life of unbelievable pain! So how was it? tell me, tell me, please review! Listen guys, i am soooooo sorry for not updating sooner it's just been hectic lately, i have had end of year exams and i've been studying like crazy! But hopefully i will update sooner since they are now offically over! Hope you enjoyed reading, your faithful author KSRF

(by the way, i've gotten some questions to what my name means, and just to clear that up, KSRF is my initials)