Blue Eyed Girl

Sequel to When It Rains

Chapter 1: Pieces

Tomorrow is the 83rd anniversary of when the so called love of my life left me. It also marks me being a lonesome vampire for 82 years. He pretty much ruined it for me. Seriously, after I told him about Phil, we and everything was going great. And then on September 13, 2005, my life came crashing down around me. It was my seventeenth birthday, him and I went for a walk…

(Flashback)

"Ya know, my party wasn't that bad, I mean the food was good. Well except for the little mishap with Jasper. But I don't care," I said to him as we were walking in the woods behind my house. Ever since earlier, at my party, I accidentally got a paper cut opening one of my present. Jasper being the newest one to their lifestyle lost control. Edward protected me though, I had a cut on my arm from the glass table I fell on, but that's it.

And Edward has been very weird ever since. I was worried, he hardly looked at me all the way home, and he seemed to be deep in thought.

"Bella," he began, "we are leaving." "Okay, tell me what to pack and I'll be ready in ten minutes tops." "No. Me and my family are leaving." He said 'my family' like I wasn't part of it. "Y-you don't want me to come?" I asked hoping he said he wants me. "No, I don't" he said all serious. "So…you don't want…me?" I asked him, tears starting to fall.

"No." I stared at him, that one word just broke my heart in a million pieces. "You're human, and I'm a vampire, it can't work like that Bella. It just can't. And it is my mistake for letting it go on. I don't love you anymore, Bella." I couldn't think, I couldn't breathe. "If…that's what you want." He nodded once. "Promise me you won't do anything stupid or reckless. Do you understand what I am saying?" I couldn't believe it, he was leaving me and he was still begging me to be careful. "I promise." I whispered. "And I promise you Bella, this is the last time you will see me. I won't come back."

"Goodbye, Bella," he said in the same quiet peaceful voice. "Wait!" I choked out after him, with my arms outstretched. He turned around, and put my hands to my sides, "Be safe." Was the last thing he said to me.

(End Flashback)

Stupid vampire. Stupid coven. Stupid, stupid Bella. Even though my heart is no longer beating, if something reminds me of them, it still manages to break into a million pieces, all over again.He is just like Phil, toying with my emotions, and breaking my heart. Okay so maybe that is an exaggeration, but still. I never once wanted to look for them after I became a vampire. I couldn't. What makes me even more pissed is, the fact that nobody came back, not Carlisle, not Esme, not Emmett, and not even Alice, who was supposedly my best friend. I hate them, I hate every single one of them.

I am not completely alone. There is another vampire in my coven of two. His name is Ryan, I turned him about 20 years after I became one. He was in a car accident, his heart was hardly beating. Ryan's my best friend, I don't know what I would do without him. He is very important to me, for other reasons as well. And he loves to rub that in my face everyday. But he is always there. I love him.

We are back in Forks. I don't know why, when we were amidst our travels, we decided we should stay put for a little bit. And ironically the place we were in was Forks. It's good though, I guess, I mean nobody is going to know me, after 82 years, everyone is six feet under by now. I hope, with every fiber in my being, that they are not here. I mean why would they be, after 83 years, I am sure they moved on. After all, I was just a worthless human.