Disclaimer: Ben 10 and Ben 10: Alien Force belongs to Cartoon Network

Disclaimer: Ben 10 and Ben 10: Alien Force belongs to Cartoon Network!

Warnings: This story contains slash and yaoi. Naughty language will be used, and Mpreg is going to happen.

Title: I love you Because

By: PurplePrincess

I love you because...
you allow me to be myself
and you still love me ...
Because we can talk about anything
and laugh about silly things...

I love you because...
you are special and unique
and bring out the best in me...

I love you because you're you...
and you're what I've waited for my whole life.

It was true, it was always true. Benjamin Tennyson was everything I had ever asked for.

When I was a child, perhaps five or six, my parents abandoned me. They didn't want to deal with a "freak" for a son. I was left on the step of some church. They treated me like they wanted me gone, and I'm sure they did. So I ran away when I was 9 to live on the streets.

The closest thing to a home I found was the subway, of course I would have to steal to get by. Nobody wanted to be my friend, they called me a freak and shunned me. I grew up alone never to know the love of parents or friends, I became a sociopath.

Then he came into my life; Ben Tennyson. He caught my attention in that arcade, with his tourist talk of refunds. I wanted to know him, everytime I looked at him my heart skipped a beat. The feelings that I went through confused me, for I has never felt them before.

It scared me, so I got to know him…a little. I wanted to make him happy, make him proud of me. He was the only one who didn't call me a freak, he was the only one who though I was "cool". And when he talked about the game he wanted, I wanted to make him happy.

I brought him to the storage center, and I stole the game for him. The smile on his face made my heart beat twice as fast. Then I found out he was a freak too, how he could turn into aliens. Then I realized that I wasn't the only one in this world who was different.

I thought he got that, and I asked him if he wanted to be my partner. When he agreed my heart burst, I wouldn't be alone anymore; I had a friend. I suppose I didn't know what to do when it came to friends, I made him angry.

He denied our partnership which broke my heart, so I got angry too. Then we fought, I was blind with fury the rejection ripping me apart inside. Even after all the fighting we did, he offered to take me with him; to live with him. I didn't understand this, what was I going to get out of this boy who made me feel worse than being called freak.

I swore revenge, how could he betray me? How could he tear me apart when I hadn't even understood what was happening to me yet? How?

During the entire time I was in the null void, I came to understand my feelings. I regretted trying to hurt him, and all I wanted to do was hold him. To say I was sorry, to hear him forgive me, to tell him what I realized. All of those confused feelings, that made me feel so insecure and tore me up inside.

It was love. I had fallen in love with that boy who I met in the arcade. All those cheesy love at first sight stories were true, and I actually experienced it. All I had to do was tell him, but I'm such a coward.

I let him tease me about his cousin Gwen, there's a reason I haven't asked her out you know. She did tell me about Julie though, and it made me hate her. I saw the way he acted when she was around, or when anyone talked about her. When she asked me to give them a rid for there first date, I went strait to Ben's house.

I vowed to myself that I was going to tell him, in fact I broke down his door I was so excited. No excited wasn't the word, more like completely terrified. I acted so calm, but when I saw the happiness in his eyes I couldn't. I couldn't tell him, so I acted like the Kevin he knew. I felt so bad though, trying to take away Ben's happiness.

Why couldn't I just tell him? Why did my heart tell me no? All of these questions are beginning to tare me apart. I think I have a headache, maybe I should just stop.

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Kevin put down his pen, and sighed. He needed to let all of his feelings out, and writing them down was what Gwen told him to do. Not that she knew why he was feeling so miserable in the first place.

He had decided to give up on his love for Ben. He seemed to be happy with his life, and Kevin thought he would only ruin that for him. For god sakes Ben was only 15, he would be so tormented and unhappy.

Here's a better question though! Why the hell did he care so much? Kevin Picked up another piece of paper, and began to write.

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"Have you noticed how sad Kevin looks?" Gwen asked her cousin, who was sipping on a slushy they got from the small market. Ben looked at her, and shrugged his shoulders. He really hadn't noticed, Kevin just seemed quieter, and that seemed like a plus.

"No." Gwen sighed therally annoyed. Really she didn't know how he could be so stupid; then again he was a boy. "I talked to him, but he didn't tell me what the matter was. Maybe you should try?" She suggested.

"I think he's fine, but sure I'll talk to him about it." They sat in silence for a moment. "Well?" Gwen asked. "What? Do you want me to do it now?" Gwen growled at him, and grabbed his slushy.

"That would be nice!" Ben groaned, and stood up. It was like 8:00 at night, and she wanted him to go and find his supposedly miserable friend. Now that he thought about it, Kevin did seem to be acting strange. He talked to him, and didn't insult him as much.

Kevin didn't have a home, so he didn't know exactly where to go. The brute usually slept in the garage he worked at, but whenever Ben went to pick him up he would see him in his car. Okay he would go there, to Kevin's car, which was usually parked in the abandoned parkway.

He automatically saw the bright green car, and ran up to it. Why was he doing this, why did he have to listen to Gwen? He would really be angry if Kevin was just having his period. Ben looked into the windshield, but didn't see Kevin. Well…he would have to show up anyway.

Ben opened the door, and sat down in the passenger seat. He could be home by now reading comics, or playing video games. After a couple of minutes Ben got bored, and looked around the car. He looked in the back, and noticed a bag of Kevin's clothes. He had to admit while rushing around from place to place for alien butt kicking he never got a good look at what the older boy kept in it.

He felt bad for prying, but opened Kevin's compartment door. Ben gasped when he saw all the speed tickets it had. As quick as he could he closed it, and opened something else. All he saw was some food rappers, axe cologne, and some books.

When he looked under the seats though he found some papers, but decided not to read them. Then again it did seem tempting, okay why not just a peek. "What are you doing?" He heard a voice ask from the window. Ben looked up and saw Kevin, but he wasn't mad.

"Oh, um Gwen wanted me to talk to you!" He said quickly putting down the papers. Kevin smiled and walked to the drivers' side of the car. He got in and looked at Ben, who was still staring out the window. Kevin coughed grabbing the others attention.

"Are you….okay?" Kevin gave Ben an odd look. "Well what I mean is, you seem depressed lately." Kevin smiled evilly; he loved it when Ben just left stuff open like this. "Oh yes Benji! I'm sooo depressed. Will anyone be saddened when I'm gone?" Ben rubbed his face, he knew he should have gone home.

"Kevin stop ripping off cartoons! But really. I want to know what's wrong." Kevin stared out of his car. Should he tell him, and how much of those papers did he read? Then Kevin looked back at Ben, should he do the right thing?

"Don't worry about me kid." Was all he could say. No he wouldn't tell him, he couldn't do that. Ben seemed disappointed, but pressed on. "Is it about Gwen?" He asked innocently. Kevin shook his head; of course it was about Gwen.

"Well I know I shouldn't have, but I read that poem of yours." Kevin looked at Ben in shock. How could he think it was about Gwen when it said he? Oh wait…it didn't opps maybe Ben did have the right to think what he thought. "No. Ben it's time I told you that I don't like Gwen that way…I like someone else." Ben gave an oh. They sat awkwardly for a moment, before Kevin talked again.

"Why don't you stay here for the night?" Ben smiled brightly at Kevin. "Really? I've never had a sleep over before!" Kevin chuckled; it was kind of cute how excited he got. "Well it's kind of hard to 'sleep over' in a car, but what the hay." Ben laughed excitedly, and took off his shoes.

"What do you wanna talk about?" He asked, still smiling happily. Kevin smirked, and folded his arms behind his head. "What do you mean?" Ben frowned. "Well isn't that what people do at sleepovers?" Well he had to hand it to the kid, when it came to being an airhead he won the gold metal.

"No, girls do that!...They also practice making out!" Ben looked at Kevin flabbergasted. "Eww, you're really gross!" The older boy laughed. "What kind of 15 year old boy are you? When I was 15 all I did was jack off!" Ben automatically hit Kevin on the head, and hid his face in his knees.

Kevin rubbed his head smiling, Ben was such a noob. Then the other boy spoke up. "Is that a bad thing?" He asked quietly. Kevin stopped laughing, and crossed his arms. "Don't they teach you theses things in school? It's perfectly normal." He might as well explain it to Ben if he wanted to know so badly, and hell maybe it would kill some time.

"So say if you thought about someone while doing that?" Bens face looked so cute when he was shy. And ohh Kevin liked that question; with nights in his car all alone Kevin needed to find a way to kill boredom; and that was Ben.

"Yep, not a big deal." Ben looked over at Kevin, his blush dying down. "Can you give me the talk?" This was going to be fun, Kevin thought.

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To be Continued…