Lost. Gone. Nothing more than an empty feeling.

He was alone. Those fatal words had provided that this should happen. The words that had sent his Bella out of his life forever.

At the thought of her name, images raced through his head like a tornado races across a lone prairie. Bella smiling, Bella laughing, Bella...

The very thought of her name sent through his heart a pang of a thousand arrows hitting a target one by one. The pain was more than he could bear. Edward Cullen, the lone vampire, doubled over in agony. It was worse than the terrible transformation from mortal being to immortal.

What if...what if I just went for a day...just to make sure she was okay...to make sure that she was happy. No, of course she was happy. She probably already had forgotten me. I am now just a dream in her past that is unexplainable. I cannot go. No I won't be able to leave once I see her gentle smile. All will be lost. Edward's thoughts tumbled through his mind as he stood in the attic of an old Mexican restaurant. The smell of mold, food and sweat wavered up to meet his nose in an unpleasant aroma.

Remembrance of his family pierced his mind. He had to leave his family. He was useless at home. A zombie in his own world of perpetual state of morning. Edward had come to Mexico without telling anyone. A simple hunting trip was his only excuse for leaving in the dead of night. Besides, he had needed to hunt anyway. Alice hadn't even clued on into his plan. Then he had ran...just ran. There was no excitement in his stride, no joy in his swift depart. That had left him the day he left Bella. That day the one and only thing he truly cared about was cast aside by his own doing.

"Ring...ring...ring," the sound of the old fashion telephone's voice come from his right pocket.

"Edward? Edward...you have to go back. Edward?" Alice's shrill voice said through the cell phones speaker.

"No Alice I am not going back to Forks." Edward said. Annoyed at Alice's attempt to yet again, get him to return to Bella. The pain that returned at the thought of her name once again rushed through his body making him once again double over in suppressed pain.

"Edward...there's been an accident. Bella is in the hospital. We..." Her voice trailed off.

No, what did she mean? What did Alice mean? What could possibly go wrong? He had left so there wouldn't be any more danger. Not more. "Alice. What happened? Is it serious?" His voice became impatient and he spoke each word distinctly as if fighting back fast building anger.

"Edward..." Alice paused as if to prepare herself for the news she was about to give. "Edward. We don't know if she's going to make it. Ummm...there seems to be a problem with the Quillets and Bella...they...umm..."she trailed off.

"Alice tell me now!" his voice was practically a roar.

"Victoria came and Bella was at La Push. Apparently, the Werewolves are back and they got there just in time. Edward I am so sorry. They pulled Victoria off just in time, but they were carried away and forgot about her for a while. Jacob Black remembered, but they were too late. She wasn't breathing. Edward, they got her breathing, but...she's in the hospital...you need to come back to Forks...please." by the time she finished ,her words were so rushed that Edward could hardly understand them and she sounded like, if she could ,she would be crying.

"Alice..." Edwards's voice trailed off in agony.

"Alice I will be there soon. Bella can't die...she can't" Edward's soft voice became suddenly hard at the promise he made.

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The Volvo's engine roared to life. The car hit 40 before it pulled out of the driveway of the restaurant parking lot and hit 80 before it could reach the highway. Edward wasn't going to take any chances. He was going to get to Forks as fast as possible. Nothing could stand in his way. He refused to think that Bella was dyeing.

I just need to know that she will live. That is all I need to know. Then, I will go deal with Victoria...Anger flared to life in his mind as the hated name passed through and he pushed the car to 120. I just need to see her face. To know...to know...

You could say the pain and undying love Edward had for Bella sent him over the edge. Or, the thought that Bella might be dead. The thing is, only Edward knows the real reason behind the event that fallow that sent him into a crazed person's world. Only he would know why he did the very thing that is to fallow. Only him and yet even he didn't know the true reason why he could do such a thing.