A/N: HOLY BEJEEZUS, BATMAN, IT'S FINISHED. And it only took me... (glances at clock) ... ten hours to write!!
Though, I'm glad to know I can still finish stories. XD Seriously, though, how long has it been since I last updated with an actual story? Too long, if you ask me!
Anyway. Happy AkuRoku Day, everyone! My mission is now complete; I have successfully submitted something for this special day.
Oh, and uh... apologies in advance. You'll know why.
Pairings: AkuRoku, Riku/Repliku, SoRiku, Zemyx, CLeon
Disclaimer: You'd think, with all the time it's been, I would own them by now. But I don't. How sad is that?
Dedication: To all the people that put up with the shit I do on a daily basis. XD
-x- AXEL -x-
Have you ever been alone in a quiet room, where the only thing you can hear is a voice telling you – screaming at you – to walk into the next room and strangle your own brother?
Now imagine if you were sitting in class, tuning out the so-called 'valuable' information your history instructor is spouting in favor of the screeching voice ringing in your ears, demanding you turn and stab your ballpoint pen into the jugular vein of the kid sitting next to you.
And what if the very same voice began whispering to you while you were hanging out with your closest friend and long-time crush, trying to convince you to pin him to the floor and have your way with him; to rape him and abuse him until he's broken and bloody on your bedroom floor?
That voice has constantly been chattering away in the back of my mind since I was seven-years-old.
The third one got me sent here.
There's not a day that goes by that I don't feel the sharp pain of regret squeezing at my heart, desperate to know why, why, fucking why I hurt Roxy like that.
"Axel, honey," my nurse's voice brought me spiraling back to reality, away from my memories. "All patients need to return to their cells now." She placed her hand on my shoulder, her round face appearing next to mine. I glanced down at my drawing, debating whether or not I wanted to scrap it.
"Why?" I finally asked, gaze sliding back up to my nurse's smiling face. Giving my shoulder a gentle squeeze, she backed up a little, giving me room to stand.
"It's that time of the week again." she informed me, chocolate-coloured eyes darting around the room. Pursing my lips, I thought about this a moment. That time of the week? Today was... uhm... Wednesday, so that meant...
"Ohh..." I hummed with understanding. "Zexy." My nurse nodded and set her hands on my shoulders, tugging gently. With a sigh, I turned in the chair and stood, earning a nod of approval from my nurse.
"Come on, Honey, let's go." One of her hands slid down to grasp my elbow and lead me toward my cell. I stayed rooted to the ground though. Zexy wasn't a threat. I didn't understand why we always cleared the halls when he came through.
"Can I please stay and talk to Zexy?" I asked. My nurse shook her head and pulled at my elbow again.
"You know that's not possible, Axel. Maybe later, I can arrange a meeting between the two of you, but right now, it's time to return to your cell." I chewed on my bottom lip a moment, thinking about it, before nodding.
"Alright..."
-x-
My meeting with Zexy was never approved; he was sent to solitary that afternoon. Rumors flew throughout the hospital, each of them different. One said that Ienzo – his other, completely sadistic, completely psychotic personality – had broken free and attacked the nurse. Another said that he didn't attack a nurse, but a visitor instead. The weirdest one, though, was the one that said Ienzo had burnt down the entire South wing of the hospital. Which was impossible, because that's where my cell is, as I'm still very much alive.
Unfortunately.
"Axel? Axel, honey, you have a visitor." my nurse's voice once more brought me back to the real world. With a sigh, I tore myself away from my drawing – again – to look at the figure standing in my cell's doorway. She smiled kindly at me, flipping her brown hair over her shoulder.
"Who is it?" I asked, setting down the mechanical pencil and turning fully in my chair to face her. The smile on her face faded, and her expression became hesitant.
"You don't have to see him," she said, pursing her lips a moment. "I told him it probably wouldn't be for the best if you saw him... But he insisted on seeing you..."
"Who is it?" I repeated, watching as she sighed in defeat.
"Roxas. Roxas is here to see you." she whispered. My mind shut down after that.
-x-
There was... a giant fish swimming around Roxas' head. A long fish... The Japanese ones. Uhm... They're... koi fish, that's right. Orange and white with shimmering fins...
And then there were two Riku's... which was strange in itself because there was only one Riku, and he was in the West wing... They were exchanging chaste kisses and muttering things about Sora... Sora this, Sora that... Who the hell was Sora?
Fuck, Roxas was talking to me, wasn't he? His lips were moving... he cocked his head to the side innocently, his blue eyes staring at me knowingly.
"They said you'd be medicated..." he said, biting at his bottom lip. "But I never imagined you'd be this medicated." His eyes widened as I tipped to the side, threatening to fall out of my chair, but sighed in relief when I righted myself.
Fucking medication.
"Yeah... so... why, uh... Why're you here?" I asked. My voice slurred a bit at the end of my sentence; the Riku's stopped their kissing to momentarily glance at me before continuing their activities.
"I just... I wanted to see you..." he muttered, eyes shifting away from me, towards the koi fish that had taken to swimming laps around the room. "I missed you, Axe. I really, truly did. What happened has already happened, and there's nothing either of us can do to change it." He paused and drew his knees up to his chest, curling up in the bright orange plastic chair. A quick glance around the room told me that both Riku's and the koi fish were watching as Roxas spoke quickly, this time, his words registering as pure static. One of the Riku's untangled himself from his twin and sauntered over to me, slinging his arms around my shoulders.
"You know what you want to do," he whispered; his voice wasn't anything like the one that screamed at me. His mouth was right next to my ear, yet I couldn't feel his breath. It was as if no one was there. "You want to throw him to the floor, feel his naked body pressed against yours as yo–"
"Shut up!" I all but hissed, pulling against the restraints on my arms. "Leave me alone!" The Riku smirked and returned to his twin, capturing his lips in a not-so-chaste kiss.
"What?" Roxas' voice broke through the haze my mind had become, bringing my attention back to him. I chewed on my lip for a moment before bowing my head.
"I'm so sorry..." I mumbled, giving one last feeble tug at my arm restraints. Out of the corner of my eye, I watched as Roxas uncurled his body and slowly stood, bracing his arms on the table between us.
"Axel... it's alright. I... didn't mind it as much as you think I did." His voice was barely a whisper, but the two Riku's caught it.
"Such a slut!" One of them declared, leaning back against his brother. I shivered in disgust as the other one began licking a trail up his twin's neck, eliciting a small moan from him. "Never fall in love with a whore," he continued, smirking impishly. "It always ends badly." And with that they were gone. The koi fish gave a flick of its tail, as if to say it was glad they had vanished. I nodded slightly in agreement and sighed, returning my gaze to Roxas.
"Roxas, I don't..." I trailed off when I realized that he'd gotten closer while I'd been watching the twins.
"I know..." he sighed, leaning forward and resting his head on my shoulder. My arms instinctively tried to reach up and embrace him, but the restraints prevented that. We sat like that for a moment before someone knocked sharply on the door.
"Time's up!" they declared. Roxas sighed, and unlike with the Riku, I could feel the warmth of his breath on my collarbone.
"Hurry up and get better," he whispered, raising his head so that we were face-to-face. "I really do miss you." I nodded slowly, eying him carefully as he leaned forward and placed a gentle kiss on the side of my mouth.
"I'll try." I muttered in response, smiling softly as he kissed me again, this time on the lips. It was short, but it felt so indescribably wonderful. Wonderful to know that Roxas didn't hate me. Wonderful to know that maybe I had a chance with him. Wonderful to know that he didn't think I was as crazy as everyone else did.
"That's good." he said, straightening up and turning towards the door. I could only watch as he slipped through the door, waving good-bye to me as he left. My nurse came in moments later, a knowing smile set on her face.
"I saw that whole thing." she stated, pulling out the key to my restraints. I snorted, rolling my eyes. It was only as she took the restraints off my feet that I realized I had never asked her name.
"Hey, ah, this is going to sound weird, but what's your name?" I asked. She giggled, hauling me out of the chair.
"Rinoa Heartilly." she answered, brushing her hair over her shoulder; a familiar gesture. I smiled and followed her from the room, and back into the Southern cell block of the Radiant Garden Mental Institution.
-x-
The next day, I tracked down Riku and told him to stay the fuck out of my medication-induced hallucinations.
A/N: So there you have it! Hope you liked it! And if you didn't... well, then, tell me why! If you did like it, tell me why! I love hearing from you guys, it makes my day!