A/N: HERE IT IS!! Hahah aren't you excited? I am!

Warnings: Rated M for language, adult situations, and possibly other stuff not for the youngin's.

Disclaimer: I do no own the TMNT; they belong to Mirage, Kevin Eastman and Peter Laird I believe. I do own the plot, and OC's. Want to use them? Ask!

Music for this Chappie:

All My Loving - The Beatles

Prologue: All My Lovin'

"Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad."

-- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

"How long will you be gone?" Donatello's sad voice made me falter.

Here I sat with my seven closest friends, and none of them looked pleased. Splinter already knew, so he was in his room meditatin'. I still had to tell Mrs. Davies, Marcus, Mark, Tom, April, Casey, Alexandria, and Jacob. But they came first, so here I was tellin' them the news I had just received the night before. I took in a deep breath.

"Splinter says four months at least, unless I need longer."

"Why?" Asked Raph lookin' furious, I tried my best to smile at him.

"He says I need to figure out what I want to do with my life." I shrugged.

"You want to spend it with the family." Maureen said as if it were obvious. Which it was.

"He knows that, you all know that." Leo interjected.

"So, why are you leaving then?" Angel asked.

"I think he means career wise." I shrugged, "A lot has happened in the last two years, he thinks I need some time away from the city to think things over."

"When are you leaving?" Joey asked sadly.

"The day after tomorrow." I said with a wince.

"That's too soon!" Mikey exclaimed.

"It's enough time to get my ticket, pack my stuff, and tell everyone." I shrugged, "Think of it this way, the sooner I leave, the sooner I get to come back."

"Where are you goin'?" Asked Raph gruffly.

"Just to California with some relatives."

"Just to California?" Asked Joey, "That's across the country!"

"Better than South America." I glanced at Leo who barely smirked.

"You'll call everyday? Email? Anything?" Joey asked.

"Everyday, I promise." I nodded, "Don't worry guys, really."

"Four months is a long time."

"Not as long as six." I said, "Let's face it, I got a better deal than Leo. You guys could make it without Leo, and without the girls for a year, you can make it without me for four months."

"You don't seem to upset." Angel pouted.

"What can I do?" I said, "I really don't have a choice, do I? I might as well just take it as it is and work through it."

Raph got up at this and left without another word. I sighed slightly, before turnin' to Leo. I stood up and so did he, we exchanged a hug. I then moved onto Angel. I hugged all my friends, Joey was getting' teary eyes so I quickly kissed her forehead and left her to Donnie. Ree and Mike hugged me at the same time, not willin' to let go. I had to threaten them to get 'em offa me. Crazy kids. Joey came back for another hug, her emotional state wasn't the best lately so I gave her one last long hug before goin' to face Raph.

As I moved towards the step I could only hope this wouldn't end up a fight. The last thing I need is to leave on bad terms with him for four months. It wouldn't be right and I don't think either of us could stand it. It would be hard enough bein' with out each other, knowing that the last things we said to each other were screamed in anger…it would just be bad.

I entered the room. Pretty much unchanged. Barbells still in the corner, my clothes still everywhere, bed still in place, my notebooks still hidden from sight. He was sittin' on the bed, his eye ridges creased into a frown. I leaned on the closed door, and he didn't even turn to look at me. Just kept focusin' on the thing in his hand. It was the teddy bear he gave me when he visited me in the hospital last year.

"Four months is longer than ya' think." His voice was quiet and hoarse.

"I know." I said softly.

"I don't understand why ya' can't decided on what you're gonna do here…"

"You know it's been buggin' me since graduation." She replied, "Splinter's just tryin' to help me out, give me a little time away to think straight."

"Ya' can't think straight here?"

"Raph, bein' out there isn't gonna make me not want to come back." I took a step closer, "Cali is nice, but I belong here…in the city…" I lifted up his chin to look at me, "With you."

"Four months is still a long time." He looked away from me and I sighed sittin' on the bed.

"Yeah, it is." I mumbled, "Just keep yourself occupied, try not to think of me, it'll fly by."

"You make all of this sound easy." He grumbled, "It's not. I can't not think of ya', believe me, I've tried before."

"Just don't spend four months mopin' around here." I said, "And no hookers while I'm gone…" He smirked a little, "I'm serious, Raphael." He didn't look convinced.

I sighed takin' the teddy bear out of his hands. I set it aside gently and made him straighten up, movin' over to straddle him. He looked up at me with a blank expression, but I could see the sadness in those near-amber eyes. I pressed my forehead to his as he wrapped his strong arms around my waist, my hands resting on his shoulders. Takin' a deep breath I did somethin' I rarely do for anyone…

"Close your eyes and I'll kiss ya'…" I sang softly kissing his beak, "Tomorrow I'll miss ya…and remember I'll always be true…"

"Damn straight…" He smirked, and I chuckled.

"And then while I'm away, I'll write home everyday…and I'll send all my lovin' to you…"

"C'mere." He grumbled pulling me in for a kiss.

Kissing Raph will never get old. I still get flushed sometimes and my heart beat races. Especially when his hand is makin' it's way into my shirt, and the touch of his skin gives me shivers. As he pulls us both down to lay on the bed liftin' off my shirt, I don't think he really knows just how much it's gonna hurt to be away from him for four long months.

I'm wishin' for anythin' to give me reason to come home early.

A/N: Awww, how sweet and sad!! Hahah.I'm going camping. With the family. OY VEY! I'll update ASAP.

-- Whispered Lies