What if Edward had never returned to Bella after leaving her in New Moon. What if instead of Sam, a coven of wandering vampires find poor broken hearted Bella, barely holding onto life. After being saved by a kind hearted Vampire named Vanessa, Bella quickly takes to a vampire lifestyle. When Bella returns to Forks with a new life and a new finance, will her love for Edward be avoidable?

"I died here" I looked deep into Vanessa golden eyes. "I never planned on returning"

"Forks is your home, your birthplace and your rebirth place" she giggled, I frowned. "You have loved ones here and we love the weather here" She leaned over to put her hand on the shoulder "You and our coven belong here"

I slumped back into the stiff leather seats, crossed my arms a pretended to pout. My constant fighting with Vanessa was tiring me. It was useless, once she spoken there was no changing her mind. Three cars loaded with vampires were on their way to little old Fork. Everyone was thrill to relocated, especially to the hospitable Cullens' residence. I was terrified. I had not seen or heard from any one of the Cullen since I was human, and as far as they knew I still was, well into my thirties. They had completely abandoned me, and that same night Edward left me in those wood, I was reborn.

For hours I laid there on the comforting cold dirt floor, tears burning in my eyes. It took far too long to pick myself out of the dirt and wander. I found my self walking along the empty highway in the rain. Every few minuets a car would pass and I would flinch in their blinding head lights. As the night turned to early morning I crossed the abandoned highway. In a flash, a blink of an eye I was taken out by silver viper bolting down the road. Vanessa told me I was screaming for Edward the whole time during my suffering. From the moment their car made contact with my weakened soul, to the moment Vanessa's venom took that soul away, Edward was all I screamed for. I don't remember much of my rebirth, I had to be retold too many time and every time the story changed. Vanessa, Henry, and Dalton had been there, and each of their stories differed. But my persistent cries for Edward never changed. They always asked me about him and every time I denied that I even knew who Edward was, that I must have made him up in my delirium.

As we passed by the weather worn sign that read 'Welcome to Fork' my body began to shake. I fidgeted with the absurdly expensive diamond ring on my finger as we inched closer to my past.

"Babe?" Dalton's warm hand on my knee made me jump. "You have that look on your face, you're thinking to much again" He smirked at me and rubbed my knee gently. "Are you alright?" I wanted to scream NO, I wanted to tell him to stop the car and turn around, but I couldn't and part of me didn't want to.

"Yes my love, I am just fine, anxious I guess" I gave him a fake reassuring smile as he turned back to face the road. The Trytants were my family now, and Dalton my Fiancé, the Cullen's were to be my hosts, my friends and no more.

The house hadn't changed a bit. After ten long years in was exactly the same. Dalton had come around to open my door and assisted myself and Vanessa out of his car. The two cars behind us pulled up and my coven, my family and I gather in the front of the Cullens' house. While Henry, Melissa and Rochelle approached the house, the front door to the Cullen manor swung open.

"Vanessa, darling, How wonderful it is to see you" I swung myself behind Dalton as Esme's beautiful voice rang through the front yard.

"Esme, my dear friend, I am elated that you are welcoming my family and myself to your darling home" Vanessa scurried gracefully to were Esme stood and embraced her passionately.

"Come in my friend, "Esme held the door open as all six of us crawled into the Cullens' manor. I tried my hardest to stay hidden from any recognizable eyes.

"Vanessa!" Carlise boomed from the front room embracing Vanessa as Esme did "Welcome, welcome all" He turned to face the great room and then shouted four named that made me wince "Alice! Rosalie! Emmet! EDWARD!" his name rang in my ear and I clung tighter to Dalton. The graceful Cullens filed into the busy front room, I kept my eyes to the floor.

"Esme" Vanessa Began "you have met most of my family, Henry, my mate" Henry nodded respectfully. He is a man of very few word but his mere presence made you comfortable. He was always like a father to me. Easing me into my vampire life with such incite and motivation that I took to the lifestyle with enthusiasm and ease. "Melissa and Rochelle" The young beautiful girl smiled brightly. Always such suck ups, those two, but adorable fun they are to have around. They are like sisters, both my age but two years younger than I. They still acted like newborns in many ways. "Dalton, my dear friend" Dalton reached out to shake Carlise's hand and place a gentle kiss on Esme's. Dalton is twenty-two in physical form, but 78 in years. He is smart, compassionate but always found himself much to preoccupied to be much of a fiancé anymore. Still I was please to be his betroved, I was also to distracted to be wrapped up in a relationship when we have an eternity to work it out.

I knew I was next "And the greatest addition to my family, Dalton's Betroved, Beautiful talented Bella" I lifted my head as I saw the tension in the room tighten. Vanessa held me on a pedestal, above her other creations. She is wrapped up constantly in my talents as a vampire.

There was silence for what felt like forever, unbearable, deathly silence. I hadn't breathed one breath since I stepped through the door.

"EEEEEEEEEE!" Alice's high pitched vice shrilled through the house. She flung herself at me just as I was about to burst into tear. Her arms wrapped tightly around my neck and she lifted me off the ground. Emmet followed her. He kissed me repeatedly on the forehead. I was so overwhelmed with love from my old friends. Even jasper rubbed my shoulders and smiled brightly.

"Bella! HOW?! WHEN!?" Alice was jumpy and excited, overwhelmed almost as I was.

"I..I" I looked through the crowd of Vampire searching for Edward but he was no where to be found. "Vanessa" I mumbled as I gently pushed Alice away from me. "She saved me" my distant eyes scanned the crowd of beloved faces.

"You must tell us all about it" Carlise spoke with enthusiasm in his voice as his arms warped around me.

We settled in fast. It turned out the house had changed a lot. There was a large addition to the back of the manor to accommodate my coven. I shared a room with Vanessa of course. She didn't like to have me out of her sight. I felt like her pet, always have.

"So you know the Cullens well" She asked folding one of her blouses. Her voice was stern but careful. "Why did you not tell me?"

"I have not thought of them as friends for many year my dear Vanessa. The fact that they welcome me with open arm is surprising considering how they left me for dead" I did not have to explain much to her, she understood almost immediately.

"Edward" She mumbled "Why did I not see this before?" She smiled to her self and attempted to meet my eye but I kept them gazing and wandering. "I always wondered why you knew so much about our kind before you were one."

"Edward is nothing to me now" I managed to say ever so monotone "Once my heart beat for only him and as you know, my heart beats to longer" I smiled and left the room.

While wandering down the hall a familiar tone echoed through the house. Gentle, and comforting I could not remember where I had heard it before. I followed the beautiful noise until I stood at the door way to a small den, full of windows and one large piano.

"You look well" His velvet voice hadn't changed a bit. I could tell he was shaking, nervous maybe. He stopped playing and stood up to face me. For along time I looked into his golden eyes, chills running up and down my spine. He stared at me for a while before he spoke again. "Do you remember that song I was playing just now?" he tilted his head with interest.

"Y…yes" I trembled "I recognize it" He turned from me and began play it again, softly. Slowly and carefully I stepped closer to him, hovering at first then taking a seat next to him.

"I used to hum it for you" He sign "While you slept" I looked down and bit down on my lip to keep it from trembling to keep myself from bursting into tears. My lullaby, he had written it for me.

"I remember" I muttered and stood up. He stopped immediately and looked up at me. Sad, longing, desperate eyes. I looked away, crossing my arms and tried to be stern and strong. I stood their simply gazing at him, mesmerized.

"Darling" Daltons voice startled me from the doorway. "Ah, Edward" He walked over with welcome arms. "I see you've met my Izzy" I winced at that name. Dalton called me this little pet name consistently no matter how many times I asked him not to. Edward gave me a look of sincere confusion and then nodded.

"I've known your…'Izzy'… well for some time, my old friend. When she was my Bella" Edward smiled and then excused himself.

"Weird" Dalton mumbled. "Is something going on here?" He looked at me with worried eyes.

"No" I said sternly "Edward was just an old friend"

"Wait, while you were human?" He look confused "How did that monster manage to maintain a friendship with you?" I gave him a deadly look. I was furious that he called Edward a monster. "What Izz, that boy doesn't have the cleanest record here!"

"Edward took great care of me as human" My voice was angry and protective "He loved me passionately" Realizing I shouldn't have said this I stormed out of the den. Dalton was the jealous type. He would look more into this.

The next morning Carlise held a meting in dining room he had designed just for show. All the vampires curiously sat at this absurdly huge mahogany table listening intently to Carlise and his new house rules.

"Hunting has created some problems" Carlise continued "We will go once to twice a week and groups will go six at a time." He paused and looked over all of us with paternal eyes "Most of you are well aware that La Push is strictly off limits unless you wish to become a werewolf's chew toy" Alice let of a little giggle and Rosalie smirked. "The first hunting group will go tonight. I will take Jasper and those unfamiliar with the land. Dalton, Vanessa, girls, and Henry, we leave at midnight tonight"

"What about Isabella" Dalton interrupted.

"She is very familiar with out lands, dear Dalton, She will be going with Alice, Edward, Esme, Rose, and Emmet tomorrow evening"

"I will not have it" Dalton began to yell as a kicked him under the table.

"No, no, Carlise is right, I know these lands well I will not be needing a guide. Besides I would love to hunt with my dear old friend, ALICE" I emphasized her name to make it clear it was only her I wanted to spend time with.

That evening I saw snuggled into the couch in the great room, gazing intently at the over sized TV as Emmet flipped through the channels. My family, including Jasper and Carlise, readied to head out to their hunting. Dalton placed a light kiss at the top of my head and gave me a look that implied 'be good'. The house was quiet, scary almost. I just sat there for the longest time, thinking. I watched Emmet and Rose snuggle in their comfy chair and smile at each other.

"Emmet" I finally began "Where is.. Edward" Emmet gave me a look, I thought I heard him mumble 'wouldn't you like to know"

"In his room" Rose answered "I'd be careful if I were you, he's grumpy" I nodded in thanks then jumped up, taking my time as I inched upstairs.

I knocked four times. No reply. I opened the door carefully.

"Did I say you could come in?" His soft voice sounded almost sarcastic. Terrified, I continued in

"can we talk?" I asked hesitantly, closing the door behind me.

"Won't your dear Dalton be furious with you?"

"I don't know, will he?" I asked.

"Yes, he hates the idea we were 'friends'" He turned to look at me. "Sit" he motioned the chair across from him. I took a seat and stared into his painful eyes. "so how are you liking it?"

"What?'

"The life of a vampire. The life you always dreamed of"

"This isn't how I dreamed it" I admitted. He looked down, looking ashamed for being rude. There was a pause of silence. Many comments built up behind my lip and I struggled to keep them back.

"I..I came back for you" Edward began. "Three months after I had left, I came back"

"What?" I didn't know what else to say, I heard him loud and clear.

"I loved you, I couldn't be away from you. When I came back and Charlie had announced you missing." he shuttered. "I assumed you dead. I looked for you, tried to hunt you down."

"I guess you didn't expect me to be.. This" I pointed to myself.

"Bella" he grabbed my hand and held it in his. "The only reason I'm still existing is from the mere hope that I'd find you again one day" He kneeled in from of me and place my hand against his cheek. I flinched at his touch. He hands once cold, were warm as could be. "And here you sit" He dropped my hand "engaged to a pig, a dirt bag" He stood up and looked disgusted. "If only you knew what you were getting yourself into"

"Edward" I cried grabbing at his hand. I looked down ashamed.

"This is what I deserve" Edward began. "I shouldn't have left you. I thought I was protecting you"

"No!" I jumped up furious "You weren't protecting me. You left me. You dumped me. YOU BROKE MY HEART." I started to turn and walk out the door. I shouldn't be here. I had a finace. I had obligations to him. I couldn't let Edward dazzle me back in love with him. It took me far to long to let someone else into my life I wasn't about to give it all up for him.

"Bella" My mumbled as I stormed. I turned around to see him sitting hunched over with his face in his hand. "I'm not asking you to choose me. I'm not asking you to drop everything and come back with me. You couldn't even if you wanted to"

"What? Yes I could" I claimed defensively as I swung his door open.

"No" he shook his head. "You were made for him, He would kill you if you left him"

"No he wouldn't" I claimed with almost a question. "You don't know him! HE LOVES ME" I slammed the door shut behind me and from the room I heard Edward shout "NO He doesn't"

As I tipped toed downstairs tears welled in my eyes. I dropped myself down on the couch. Rose, all wrapped up in Emmet's arms looked at me with worry.

"Sounds like that went well" Emmet joked. Rose nudged him and told him to be nice. I slumped down more into the couch.