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Good Enough- Evanescence
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Beep, beep, beepZexion didn't know where he was, he was so tired. He could hear murmuring voices and he wanted to open his eyes, but they wouldn't obey his commands. He heard his mother's voice, she was crying.
'Don't cry mommy,' he thought. He could hear her sobs and he felt his heart break.
"My baby. My baby boy, he was hurting so bad. I didn't know it was that bad!" Eri cried, Kadaj was holding her in his arms as she sobbed in his chest. "I could have helped him! he was talking to me, I thought he was going to be fine."
Riku stood there looking at his brother. Riku knew, he knew and he didn't say anything. Kadaj felt guilty as well, they both knew; and they said nothing. Now their brother was in the hospital, he almost died. If it weren't for Andrew, they would be at the morgue instead of the hospital.
Even Kai was hurting, he held Loz and just stared into space. He and Zexion may not have been close but he was still his son. How could they have not seen that the boy was hurting.
Zexion couldn't stand the sound of his mother crying. He tried to call out to her but his throat was dry. He swallowed and it felt like swallowing sandpaper. But he managed to croak out a shaky, "Mom?"
Eri turned and looked at the bed, she saw her son's eyes flashing and she rushed towards him, "Zexion? Baby?" she said tentatively touching his hand. At his mothers touch, Zexion opened his eyes and quickly shut them due to the bright lights.
Eri let out a wail and hugged her son, "Zexion, my baby. You're awake! Thank Gaia!"
Zexion hesitantly opened his eyes again and looked at his family, "Where am I?" he asked. His mother shushed him and quickly grabbed him a cup of water. He helped him drink it and some spilled down his face. When Zexion tried to reach his hand up and wipe it way he noticed he couldn't move it.
He looked down and saw his hands were bound at his sides, "What the fuck?" he asked and looked at his mother.
"The doctors said it is for your safety. You tried to kill yourself Zexion!" she said and he shut his eyes again. "What happened?" she asked and he just shook his head refusing to answer.
She bit her lip on her questions knowing he needed time. She just kissed his forehead and sat back in the chair, holding his hand.
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Zexion spent three weeks in the hospital, strapped to the bed and they had people watching him round the clock.
'Suicide watch, goddess I hate my life' he watched mindless television and ate the bland hospital food without complaint. They even let him have visitors and Andrew came whenever possible, he was beginning to enjoy the older males company. Whenever Demyx came to visit, Zexion would feign sleep so he wouldn't have to speak with him.
Deep down, Zexion knew what he did wasn't Demyx's fault, he knew now that he suffered from depression. The incident with Demyx just pushed him over the edge. He knew he over reacted but as he told his family, he didn't mean to cut that deep.
When they finally allowed him to go home, he was never left alone. He wasn't able to go back to school for a while and since his mother stayed home with the baby, she made sure she knew his whereabouts at all times. His teachers sent his work home with Kadaj and Riku so at least he had something to do during his imprisonment and he wouldn't get too far behind in school.
He did get to spend a lot of time with Loz, who was beginning to grow on him. He enjoyed just sitting in the family room with the baby in his lap as he talked to the infant. The baby wouldn't cry as much when he was with Zexion, he seemed to enjoy being around his big brother.
At the insistence of his mother, Zexion saw a shrink once a week to "talk out his problems" the woman was very nice. Dr. Kirk had a calming air around her that put Zexion at ease, plus she was easy to talk to. He never really talked about Demyx with the woman, he wasn't quite ready to approach that subject just yet, and the wound was still too tender to touch.
Andrew began to be a constant reminder of why he should be happy. They both knew a relationship wasn't going to happen anytime soon, but they enjoyed each other's company.
He would soon be able to go back to school, at Dr. Kirk's insistence; she said Zexion should be getting back into his normal routine, keeping him locked away would only give him problems later in life. She did urge him to take it slow and to call her whenever things got too bad.
Luckily, she didn't prescribe him medication, she said it would only dull his senses causing a dependence on the drug, like he once had a dependence on cutting.
His mother was a bit skeptical about sending him back to school, but she knew he had to deal with life, or else he would never get better.
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Zexion stared at the school building in front of him and took a deep breath. He had no idea what he would do when he saw Demyx, he still hadn't talked to the blonde, and despite the circumstances, he honestly missed his friend.
When he walked into his Statistics class, the class hushed, all eyes were on him. The school wasn't that big and everyone had heard about his run in with death.
Zexion calmly sat in his normal seat and ignored their stares. He wouldn't give them the satisfaction of answering their questioned stares. When his teacher walked in, she merely gave him a smile and started on her lesson.
When lunch rolled around, Zexion was nervous. He had not seen the majority of his friends since he was in the hospital a month before. To his relief, they all treated him the same. When Demyx finally left the building, Zexion's breath caught.
He could still remember how Demyx cried his name when they had sex and he shivered. When the blonde saw him, he stopped dead, and just looked at his friend. "Hi Zexy" he said softly, tears gathering in his eyes.
Zexion smiled softly at him, "Hi Demy." Demyx sat next to his friend while the others tactfully resumed their conversations, giving them their privacy.
"How are you doing?" he inquired softly looking at his friend's wrists. Zexion wore a jacket, so his scars where covered, but Demyx couldn't help but touch his wrist. Zexion closed his eyes at the touch, "Doing much better, how about you?" he asked.
Demyx burst into tears and hugged his friend, "I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry" he cried. Zexion hugged him back as he cried, ignoring the people around them. Zexion shushed his friend, "It's not your fault Demy. I'm…I was sick. But I'm getting better. I'll be fine."
Demyx just held his friend as he controlled his tears. They pulled apart and Demyx smiled at him, "I'm glad you'll be fine. I was so scared when I found out," he sniffed, "Don't, you—you can't leave me Zexy. I don't know what I'd do without you. And I know I was an ass for what I did. But I promise, I will be the best, best friend you've ever had. If you want that is" he added quickly.
"What would I do if you weren't my best friend Demy?" he asked softly, "Who would bake me cookies at two in the morning during the summer?" Demyx managed a laugh and hugged Zexion again.
"I—I broke up with Reno" he said softly, "Or he broke up with me rather." Zexion let go of his friend, "Why? I thought you guys were happy."
Demyx smiled, "We were, but I told him about…you know" he flushed, "And he broke up with me. I deserved it. I hurt both of you." Demyx shook his head, "I don't know how I could be so heartless, I hurt the two people who cared the most about me all in one night."
Demyx played with his scarf, "But it doesn't matter. I'm just glad your okay, and you're here. And—and alive"
Zexion smiled, "Me too."
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Reno was walking to his next class when he saw Zexion walking towards him. He took a deep breath, 'The kid is sick and I can't kick his ass no matter how much I want to beat his fuckin face in' Reno thought.
Zexion stopped in front of him and looked at him, "I heard you broke up with Demyx," he said casually making Reno grit his teeth. "You heard right short stuff. I can't be with someone who would cheat on me, yo."
Zexion nodded his head, "I understand. But I think you should give Dem another chance." Reno rolled his eyes, "And why the fuck should I care what you think?" he asked angrily, "You're the reason he cheated in the first fuckin place!" he damn near yelled.
Zexion had the decency to look ashamed, "Yeah, it was all my fault. I shouldn't have done what I did. If you should blame anyone it should be me. Demy, he…he'd do anything to make me happy. And he thought having sex with me would make me happy. It did, but I know now that it was so wrong of us—me to do that. Not only to Demyx but to you too."
Reno looked perplexed but didn't say anything, he just turned and walked away. "You know he loves you, right? He really does. And if you're smart, you won't let him go. People like him don't come around very often."
With that, Zexion walked away, leaving Reno standing there.
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"So how was school this week, Zexion? Where there any problems?" Dr. Kirk asked. It was his first session since he went back to school and she needed to gauge his improvement.
"It was fine. Kids kept looking at me like I was some nutcase, but Dem and I made up." Zexion smiled at the thought. He and Demyx were almost inseparable since they made up, and it was a good feeling to have his friend back.
"Well that's good. How about at home? Things all good there?" she inquired.
Zexion nodded, "Yeah. It's all-pretty good. My mom still freaks out when I'm shut up in my room but she's trying to give me some space." Zexion knew his mother worried and with good reason. She almost lost her son, no mother could take that without fear.
"And you. How are you doing Zexion?"
Zexion sat there for a while without answering, how as he doing? Sure he got sad whenever he thought about Demyx's rejection but that was only natural. He managed not to see Marluxia but it was only a matter of time before the pink haired man would seek him out.
Riku and Kadaj treated him as they always did, but he noticed how they would give him frightened looks occasionally, he knew they blamed themselves; they were the only people who knew he was cutting but they thought they had a handle on it.
Dr. Kirk sat there quietly and let him gather his thoughts. After a while Zexion looked at her and smiled, "I'm doing great."
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"Come on Zex! This is easy" Andrew called far ahead of the panting male. How did he manage to get him to go hiking? Zexion didn't even like being outdoors. Demyx put a hand on Zexion's shoulder and laughed.
"You are so out of shape Zexy" he gloated his face was a bit flushed but he didn't even look tired. Zexion thought he was going to pass out, "Why are we doing this again?" he asked taking off his heavy bag, groaning as the weight was lifted.
"Because it's a beautiful day for a hike, short stuff" Reno said holding Demyx close and cackling at the weak glare he received from Zexion.
"Ugh, who does this anymore? What is the point of hiking threw the woods? Don't you people watch movies?" Zexion asked wanting nothing more than to take a bath, "It's the middle of July and we're hiking! You people are crazy!" Roxas said next to Zexion. His blonde hair matted with sweat. Axel kissed his sweaty brow, "It's not even that hot! Stop being such babies."
Roxas glared at him and pushed him away, "Says the red head that likes fire" he mumbled under his breath.
"Don't be such a baby Rox" Sora said coming up behind his twin, "This is fun!"
Kadaj snorted, "Says the hyperactive child." He shook his head in disgust, "I should have stayed home with Yazoo, Cloud and Leon. They were the smart ones. But no, I had to go with my brothers. This is such bullshit" he said plopping down on the cool ground next to his twin.
Andrew walked towards the group and shook his head, "Come on you slow pokes! We're almost there, it's not even that bad if a hike" he reached a hand out towards Zexion and pulled the smaller boy up. "Come on, baby. The view up here is great, you'll love it."
Zexion gave him a withering look but put his backpack back on. "I don't understand how you got me to do this" he said. Andrew raised a pierced eyebrow then shrugged, "I asked you while I was half naked" he grinned as Zexion flushed further. Making his friends laugh at him, while Riku and Kadaj groaned. "So gross."
They finally reached a clearing and Zexion had to admit it was nice, there was a creek nearby and he went to put his feet in the cool water. "Wait Zex, I wanted to show you the view before you got all relaxed." Andrew said taking Zexion's hand and walking towards the edge of the clearing.
Zexion gasped at what he saw. He could see the entire town from here. The sun was high in the sky, but Zexion knew the sunset would be breathtaking from up here. He leaned into Andrew's embrace and smiled, "Your right, it's beautiful up here" he whispered as if speaking any louder would ruin the moment.
Andrew nuzzled Zexion's neck and smiled. "I knew you'd like it" he murmured softly.
They could hear their friends talking in the background but ignored them. It was a moment for them. Zexion couldn't help but think about how Andrew saved him, he was drowning in all of the challenges in life and Andrew pulled him out of them, no questions asked.
The man stayed by his side even when Zexion was rude and mean to him. Andrew saved him from himself and for that Zexion would love him forever. "So Zexion, how are you doing?" Andrew asked.
Zexion turned and kissed him, "I'm doing…good."
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A/N: Waaaah! My baby, she's finaly done! There was a time when I thought I would never finish this story, and it's been changed so many different times.
I just want to thank all the people who have read and reviewed this, you guys rock so freakin' hard! Oddly enough, this ending seems better than the first one I was going to have. I just can't believe its done…I'm babbling sorry.
I hope you all enjoyed reading this story as I did writing it!
~Pyro13~
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