Rated M for language ,boy on boy action, adult situations, and emoness
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot.
Challenges a Zemyx story
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A sob escaped his lips as he slid the blade over his writs. He has been doing this for a year; it's the only way to cope with life. A tear rolls down his pale cheek; he looks into the mirror and locks eyes with his reflection. "Why are you so fucking screwed up?" he asks himself.
A knock come from the bathroom door, "Zexion honey are you alright in there?" came a sweet voice.
"Yeah mom, I'm fine." Zexion replied as he cleaned his writs, cringing as the alcohol stings them. "Okay. Dinners ready, can you come down and help Riku with the table?" she asked. "Yeah, sure I'll be down in a minute"
He waited until he heard her footsteps fade before he opened the door.
He walked down the stairs, absentmindedly rubbing his writs. He turned the corner and came face to face with his twin. He took a step back and raised an eyebrow
. "May I help you Kadaj?" he asked in his sometimes monotone voice.
"I was just going to see if my little baby brother had fallen in the toilet. It took you fucking hours in there and I had to pee." Kadaj said looking his brother up and down.
"I was not in there that long one. Two, I'm younger than you by six minutes, and three there are three bathrooms in this house, its your own fault you did not use one of the other ones. Now if you would be so kind as to move out of my way, I have to help Riku set the table." Zexion said.
Kadaj just smirked and turned around before mumbling, "I know what you are doing so I advise you to stop." And walked away ignoring his brothers demand for him to explain what the hell he was talking about.
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"There you are Zexion, you have a little bit of trouble in there son?" Kai asked as Zexion walked in. Zexion gave his stepfather an uninterested look and walked into the dinning room. Riku looked at Zexion and raised an eyebrow.
"Nothing Ku" Zexion mumbled so only Riku would hear, and started to help him.
Have you ever heard of twin telepathy, well even thought Riku and Zexion are not twins, hell they aren't even blood related, they have it. Riku looked at his brother but before he could say anything their mother, walked in.
"Oh guy's thank you, the table looks great. Kadaj! Kai! Come on foods done" Eri yelled. Everyone sat at the table and began to eat, with the exception of Zexion.
"Zexion? Is everything alright?" his mother asked.
"Huh? Oh yeah…umm I'm fine. May I be excused I'm not very hungry." Zexion asked.
"Sure sweetheart." Eri answered. Zexion got up from the table and before he was up the stairs he heard his stepfather. "Eri, what is wrong with your son?" Kai asked. "He is our son Kai and nothing is wrong with him. He said he wasn't hungry. He's a teenager let him be."
"Yeah well I think he is still kind of off. You should talk to him, he's not right in the head." Kai snickered. "We are not discussing this now" Eri replied he voice dripping with venom.
"Dad, I think Zexion is just worried about tomorrow. We are starting the 11th grade you know, it's a big thing." Riku said. Zexion just smirked from his place on the stairs, 'It's just like Riku to stop the argument' Zexion thought.
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He went to his room and laid down with a sigh. Demyx should be calling him in any minute. He smiled as he thought of Demyx, he will never say this but he is in love with the blonde haired musician.
But every time he gets a chance to tell him he gets to afraid of rejection and losing his best friend.
Its not the fact that they were both guys, hell must of his friends were gay or bi, but the fact that if they did get together what would happen if they split? Or if Demyx didn't feel the same way, so many possibilities of why they should stay friends.
"Pulled up at a stop light, did drugs on the dashboard. Look at the mess we made tonight.
Kick off your stilettos, kick off your stilettos. And fuck me in the back seat."
Zexion was pulled from his thoughts by his cell phone. "Hello?" Zexion said
"Hey Zexy! What's up?" a cheerful voice said from the phone.
"Hi Demy. Ready for school tomorrow?" Zexion asked
"Pssh…no I want summer to go on forever!", Demyx said, "School is such a bore only you like it Mr. Genius. But on the plus side I do get to see Reno."add dreamy sigh
Zexion inwardly growled, oh how he loathed Reno, Demyx has been crushing on him since freshman year. Two freakin' years Zexion had to hear his crush talk about that bastard. Reno thought that just because he was hot, the whole world should bow down to him.
"You still like Reno?" Zexion asked, trying to hold in his anger.
"Umm yeah! He is so hot!" Demyx cooed.
"You are aware that he looks just like your brothers' boyfriend right?" Zexion asked.
"Axel? No freakin' way, he looks nothing like Axel, Zexy."
"Yes he does Demmy. They're cousins for goodness sake." Zexion said disbelieving Demyx completely. "I don't see it." Demyx giggled. Zexion chuckled at his best friend, "You don't see it because you don't want to see it. Hell even Roxas gets them confused sometimes."
"I really don't see it. Plus Roxas dork only he could confuse his boyfriend with someone else." Demyx laughed.
"Demmy you're a lost cause I swear. Tomorrow at school look at Reno then Axel and hopefully you'll see it."
"Whatever you say, love. Oh hold on." Zexion heard what sounded like Roxas, but could easily be Sora. "Zexy? I got to go; my mom said it's my turn to cook."
In the background he heard Roxas yell "Pray he doesn't kill us all" then giggling from both twins, "Oh shut up you feather plucking lint lickers." With a snort Zexion began to laugh at the Nomura family's antics.
"Demmy, where did you hear that from?" Zexion asked.
"I was watching TV then a commercial came on and it was one of those gum ones you know with the British lady? Well anyways one of the guys said that it was so funny"
"I worry about your sanity at time Demmy I really do." Zexion chuckled.
"I worry 'bout it to hun." Demyx said, "Well I'll see you at school tomorrow Zexy, love ya bye." Then he hung up. "I love you too" Zexion said to no one and turned on his cd player loading his 'Bullet for my Valentine' cd.
He closed his eyes and listened to the music thinking about Demyx and school and Reno. What would he do if they got together? '
'You would get over it'
'But I can't'
'Oh yes you can, you'll be a good best friend and be happy that he is happy.'
He was so absorbed in his thoughts he didn't heard his door open and close nor did he feel someone standing over him until he felt a red hot pain sere through his wrists.
"Fuck! Riku let go!" he cried. Riku glared at him. "I knew it your fucking cutting again." Riku hissed lifting up his brother's sleeve taking in the red ugly cuts on his once pale skin. Zexion glared at his brother, pulling his sleeve down and hissed at Riku, "Go away Riku. This is none of your concern. None of you business."
Riku looked at him with disbelief, "None of my business? Zexion you're my brother and you're hurting yourself, I think it is some of my business."
"No it is not. Now go away, just leave me alone." Zexion said rolling to face the wall.
"Zex talk to me, please. I'm worried about you dude, like you are hurting yourself. Self mutilation, it's not right. Was it something I did? 'Cuz if you're trying to kill yourself…you promised! Zex talk to me." Riku pleaded.
Zexion turned to face Riku and croaked one word, "Demyx", then began to cry.
"So, what you love him but you're afraid so to tell him how you feel so you cut yourself, because if you're hurting on the inside why not hurt on the outside?" Riku said.
Zexion nodded, realizing that it did sound pretty odd out loud, but then again so does his situation. "I am resisting the urge to slap you. Zexion what would Demyx do if he found out about thins?" Riku asked.
"He would kill me, and then revive me so he could watch me like a hawk so I couldn't do it anymore." Zexion mumbled.
"Exactly, but you forgot the part that he would be torn up inside. He is your best friend; I know if Sora pulled some crap like this I'd kill him. He cares for you Zexion. You don't even know how he truly feels about you. God for a genius you sure are slow sometimes." Riku stated
Zexion did not want to discuss this anymore; he could feel a migraine coming. "Ku, can we talk about this later? I'm tired and we have school in the morning." Zexion pleaded.
"Sure but we are going to finish this talk okay?" Riku said in his mr-scary-almost-like-ansem voice. "R-Riku? Please don't tell anyone about this okay? Butterfly?" Zexion asked.
Riku smiled, "Butterfly…Jesus we haven't done that in forever."
"Yeah not since…" Riku's glare silenced Zexion. Riku laughed at Zexion and walked to the door, "Night Zex."
"G'night Ku."
FLASHBACK
A nine year old Riku sat in his room and cried. "Ku? What's wrong? Why are you crying?", an eight year old Zexion asked. "I'm a bad boy, I'm a bad boy" Riku cried.
Zexion sat next to his friend and touched his shoulder, "Ku, what is wrong with you?" he asked again. Riku looked up with red eyes and sighed. "My mommy said she is leaving my dad and it's all my fault. I'm a bad boy; I always get in trouble at school, that's why she is taking Liz and not me."
Zexion looked at his friend, "You're not a bad boy Ku, the only reason why you get in trouble is because of Sora or axel. And you're really smart and brave. I don't know why you mom is taking Liz, maybe it because she didn't want to split us up."
Riku smiled, "Yeah cuz we are such good friends, no were more like brothers huh Zex?"
"Yeah" Zexion smiled. "Zex? Can you not tell anyone about this? Promise?" Riku asked.
"Sure, butterfly." Zexion said. Riku raised an eyebrow, "Butterfly?"
"It was something me and my dad used to do, if we told each other a secret or something we would say butterfly and it was locked away. So butterfly. I won't tell anyone about this okay?" Zexion said.
"Butterfly…Zex? Promise not to leave me, ever you're like my brother you know and it would suck if we weren't together forever."
"I promise Riku I'll never leave you…butterfly." Zexion replied.
END FLASHBACK
Zexion cried himself to sleep, wishing he never made that promise. He wanted to disappear and never come back.
Fin
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A/N
Pyro: 'I'm back! Yeah for me, I got a muse his name is Mark. Say hi Mark.'
Mark: 'Hi Mark'
Pyro: Glares at Mark…'anywho. This is my first Zemyx story and I'm very proud of myself. Hey Markie tell these people bout yourself.'
Mark: shakes his head…'No.'
Pyro: 'do it'…shaking her fist threateningly.
Mark: 'Fine, I'm Mark, I'm a dude. I'm bi'
Pyro: 'and uber emo! He is the reason I wrote this we were emoing it out together and BAM an idea hit me.'
Mark: rolls his eyes and sighs…'is emoing even a word?'
Pyro: 'it is now…ok bye everybody I'll try to have the next chapter up soon!!'