I am a terrible fic abandoner! Haha sorry. Dramatic life lately. Here's an update!

We entered my house and I sat on the couch as Derek sat beside me. "Did I just make a mistake?" I ask him softly as he pulls my body into his. "I mean, this could have been a huge mistake. And us… are you sure you want to be with me? Not that you've said you want to be with me and you could just be doing this to be nice but…" I look up at Derek who has an amused yet slightly aggravated look on his face and trail off.

"Mer," he says softly as he pulls my chin up so I'm looking into his eyes, "Mer I think you did the right thing and I think it's all going to get better from now on. You know why? Because I'm going to be here to make it better… I'm sure. And as amusing as I find your rambling, you really must stop doubting yourself."

"But you, you're… everyone looks at you," I say softly.

"And they don't look at you?"

"No," I say while looking into his eyes. He stifles a laugh. "What?" I ask irritated.

"Mer you don't see yourself clearly. I am sure about this… about us. I've thought about us a lot. I mean this thing, it's technically illegal. But I can't seem to imagine myself not with you so there's something I've been meaning to ask since we left the school. Mer I want you to wait for me… or for you to allow me to wait for you. Because this," he says motioning in the space between us, "this is real and it's special. I've known you for two days and already I can't imagine my life without you, without knowing how you were or smelling your hair. And although I can hardly imagine my life without kissing you or waking up next to you every morning from now on, I think we should wait."

"Wait?" I interrupted.

"Until you're 18. If you don't want me at that point, I'd understand; if you moved on, I'd get that. But for now, I'd like to know if you think I should wait."

"No," I murmured and then watched his face fall, "I don't want to wait. I want all that right now," I whisper as I move my face closer to his and gently kiss his lips.

"Mm- Mer we can't," he said softly as he gently pushed me away, causing me to frown and pull away from him. "Mer, you're 17… and it won't be too long until you're 18. We can talk, get to know each other well, become friends. And if on your 18th birthday we decide the next step is a relationship or whatever else it may be, we will take that step."

"What if, what if you change your mind?" I ask gently.

"I don't see that happening anytime soon. These feelings – the way I feel – it's something I've never experienced. There's some magnetic force that pulls me to you. I've always thought people were ridiculous when they start planning things in the beginning of relationships but I've only known you for a day and I can't help but think about you and us and what we could be. Isn't that absurd?"

"I feel it too."

"Which is why we can be together when you turn 18. It's only a few months, Mer. And I personally think its well worth the wait."

"I'm not saying you're not worth the wait!" I cut him off.

"I know," he laughed, "but I'm just saying… on my side its worth it too."

I smiled at him and moved closer, letting his arms wrap around me. "So when does this whole 'waiting' thing start?"

"Mmm after I kiss you a couple more times."

I giggled. "How long could I stretch that out?"

"Well… oh, I have an idea! Until your 18th birthday, you get four kisses from me. There are only a few restrictions. Well, for one, you can't use these kisses in a public place. And, well, the kiss must remain as simple as we can keep it. And three, minimal touching during the kiss."

"What about hugs?"

"What about them?" he questions.

"Well, can I hug you?" I ask as I wrap my arms around him and lay my head on his chest.

"Hug or cuddle?" he raises his eyebrows.

"Both," I mutter sheepishly.

He laughs as he wraps his arms around me, "We'll figure that out in a bit."

It's like I cannot sleep for dreaming,
this is everything that I ever hoped it possibly be.
A lot of stories will end happily ever after
but I swear nothing's quite like you and me.

Okay so I know it isn't much but its Christmas and I have a few things to do. And I hope you don't hate me for abandoning this, sorry!