Disclaimer: I own nothing but the band mates: Jeremiah, Ryan, and Matt. Everything else is from the marvelous mind of Stephenie Meyer.
Epilogue
BPOV
"You're on in five, guys!" the stage assistant called to us. Ok, Bella. You can do this. You're only performing in front of all the people you know, love, and abandoned. What's the big deal?
"I don't understand why you're so nervous?" Ryan asked as he tuned one of the guitars. Leave it to him to voice my concerns minutes before the show. "I mean it's not like you haven't performed on stage before in front of millions of people."
I flattened out shirt with my hands before turning around to face my band mate."Yeah. Millions of people I didn't know. But tonight it's different. In that crowd are my father, my fiancé, and his family. Even Jake and his imprint were coming with some of the La Push members. So this wasn't just an average crowd. These are people I care for. Not just tons of empty faces that I can't put names too." I turned back to the mirror, my gaze burning into my reflection. I needed to make sure I didn't walk out on stage with something showing or something flying off.
I had decided on making my appearance more put together since everyone in Washington that I knew and love would be out there. No destroyed jeans and graphic shirts today. Tonight I was wearing fitted black skinny pants and knee high leather boots. My top was a satin navy blue blouse that had a belt that held it around my waist. My hair cascaded around me in its usual waves and the only make up I wore was the black eyeliner and mascara that attempted to accentuate my eyes.
"You ready?"
I turned around to see "my brother" standing in the doorway. I smiled and nodded before allowing him to pull me gently out of the room and towards the stage. "Relax, Isabella. Try not thinking of it as putting on a performance for your family… but putting on the performance of a life time. Have fun and do what you normally do. Kill it." He flashed me a dazzling smile and I just giggled. Jeremiah always knew what to say and the right way to make me forget my fears.
We made it backstage and saw Ryan and Matt peeking behind the curtain looking out on the stage. "Looks like a full house tonight," Matt commented. Sure enough, as I peered behind the curtain, I could see the mass crowd of raving fans jumping and cheering like animals. I couldn't make out individual faces however, so I didn't know if anyone I knew was there.
Matt and Ryan made there way on stage as the music began. Both boys went around and grabbed their instruments. Jeremiah turned to me and kissed my forehead with his ice cold lips. "See you in the spotlight," he said before turning and heading out onto the stage. I sighed and let a smile spread across my face as I ran out to face the music.
I smiled brightly and grabbed the mike. "Hello, Seattle!" Cheers, whoops, and hollers followed. If I were to quit and share my forever with Edward, this was the one thing I would miss. The love and support I had from thousands of fans across the country. "Are you ready to rock?" I shouted once more, pointing the mike to the crowd so the shouts could be heard. I laughed sweetly and turned to wink at my band mates before the first song began.
His
little whispers.
Love Me. Love Me.
That's all I ask for.
Love
Me. Love Me.
He battered his tiny fists to feel
something.
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something.
Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking
through the window...
That night he caged her.
Bruised and
broke her.
He struggled closer.
Then he stole her.
Violet
wrists and then her ankles.
Silent Pain.
Then he slowly saw
their nightmares were his dreams.
Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the windows.
I will.
Hear their voices.
I'm a glass child.
I am Hannah's
regrets.
Monster.
How should I feel?
Turn the sheets
down.
Murder ears with pillow lace.
There's bath tubs.
Full
of glow flies.
Bathe in kerosene.
Their words tattooed in his
veins.
Cheers and hollers were firing up with the lively fans and I could have sworn I heard Emmett over all of them. I laughed and raised my hand to try to simmer the noise down. "You guys are an amazing audience! Thank you!" The music to the next song started up.
No
sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore. I can't decide That's what you get when you let your heart win.
Whoa! I
wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here. That's what you get when
you let your heart win. Whoa! Hey, make your way to me. (to me) Why do we like to hurt so much? That's what you get when you let your
heart win! That's what you get when you let your
heart win, whoa. Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
It's your turn,
to take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like
to hurt, so much?
You have made it harder
just to go on
And why?
All the possibilities...
Well I was
wrong
That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa...
I
drown out all my sense away with the sound of its beating.
And
that's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa.
'Cause I
burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still
try... holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why? All the
possibilities. I'm sure you've heard.
That's what you get when you let
your heart win. Whoa..
I drown out all my sense away with the
sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your
heart win. Whoa.
And I'll
always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think
straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start...
Start, hey!
Oh why do we
like to hurt so much?
Whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win,
whoa.
And
that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa
More applause filled the air and I was giddy at the love and admiration I was receiving from my beloved fans. The lights surrounding the stage were a little blinding, but I thought I saw a bronze-haired guardian angel near the stage. My guardian angel. I smiled widely and took a seat on the stool that had been brought out for me.
When
she was younger (CHORUS) (Verse) (CHORUS) Anymore, anymore
Stood starting out the door
Waiting for the
day
That she knew would surely come
Tied bows in her
hair
Dressed as she thought you'd like
But as time
Ticked
away
Promises fade one by one
And now she's all grown
Made
it through on her own
Now strong enough to see
That you've
beneath way you wanna be...
No longer dying
inside
I will not let you define
Everything I am by the one
thing that I don't have
Cause I'm more than that
I will not be
made to hide
These tears won't fall for you this time
I will
not be ashamed
Of my name
Anymore...
Sometimes
she wonders
Imagines what your like
An emptiness inside
That
made you her miss her life
She is silenced
An ocean
widens
Leaves the daydreams behind
Childish fantasy's
unwind
And now
She knows
Your not coming home
Take the
bows from her hair
Cause she's been waiting 20 yrs...
Anymore...
During the song people had quieted greatly and all that could be seen were the shadows of people since the lights of the stadium had been dimmed in mood of the song. As soon as it ended, loud rounds of clapping erupted. That song had been a lot softer in contrast to the others and had a little more meaning. I smiled weakly and stood up to complete the other sets of songs we had planned to play tonight.
After the concert, that could very well be my last, I headed to the dressing room to change and meet those who had backstage passes. I slipped on a pair of black tights and a pink and black checkered, long sleeved dress. After putting my hair up into a ponytail and slipping on a pair of black flats, I headed backstage to see all of the people I held dearest to me. Charlie came over and hugged me.
"Wow, Bells. So much talent. Hard to believe you're my kid." I laughed and pecked him on the cheek before being swept up by Alice.
"Bella, Bella, Bella!" she screamed, grabbing me and bouncing up and down.
"Alice!" I laughed.
"You were great! And I love what you are wearing." I laughed once more, happy to get Alice's approval on my appearance. I then turned to get compliments from the pack and the rest of the Cullen's, including a very big bear hug from my favorite bear- of- a- brother.
My eyes quickly found a tall, russet- skinned man holding the hand of a petite, olive- skinned woman who looked nervous. I smiled and ran to hug Jacob who caught me around the waist while chuckling. "You were perfect, Bells." I thanked him before he turned and introduced his soul mate to me. I surprised the two of them when I pulled her into a hug as well. I was really happy for the two of them and their sweet future together. I turned and was immediately met with a flash of bronze. Edward was standing before me, grinning. He wrapped his strong arms around me, pulling me close to his hard body. "You did amazing, love."
I smiled and buried my face in his chest. "Thank you. I love you." He laid a kiss on the top of my head.
"I love you so much, my angel," he said softly. For once, I knew what I wanted in life. And I wasn't worried about my tomorrow. As long as my love was there, life would be perfect.
A/N: Thank you everyone for following me through my first fanfic. You don't know how much it means to me. I'm sorry that this story has come to an end and if the epilogue of this story sucked ass. I ran out of ideas on how to end it. But look on the bright side…it's a New Year and I will be making new stories such as the Covenant/ Twilight crossover I have started. By the way, if you're wondering who sings the songs I used for this chapter, the answer is Meg & Dia, Paramore, and Emmy Rossum. Please keep reading my stories. This isn't the end for me. Luv ya guys!!!
HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!