Authors note: I came up with this concept after thinking through the entire story. After seeing all the blank spaces that should have been overflowing with character development that seemed somewhat vacant or lacking in the story. Worse, the main character herself barely had a back-story by the end. This is my first story. I am doing a gigantic edit. Since I felt the story was missing a lot and had quite a lot of typos for those of you who read my other story as well trust me that is well under way.

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight if I did, I would have a fortune; Stephanie Meyers is ingenious at knowing how to catch an audience.

Chapter 1: Things are so complicated

Few things in the world are something that defies circumstances, pain, heartache and sadness, and loneliness that come from being alone. When it comes to vampires as strong as they are, and impossible to defeat they have a weakness that can cripple them and give them some semblance of the humanity they have lost . their eye reverting back to the shade they have when they are human. If the mate is lost, they will die because half of their soul is gone with them. The love involved though is has to be mutual to force yourself to take that love the relationship will implode. Breaking the potential of that love, with the aggressor dead where he or she stood. The passion involved is the purest form of the magic divine in its own right and beautiful. And it was powerful in more way than anyone ever realized.

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Jasper's perspective

I have hidden something from the entire family. Something I know my mind tells is supposed to feel wrong, but I cannot change how I feel. During her first day at Forks High, it was love at first. There was no doubt in my mind when I saw her big brown eyes, which were more lively, more vibrant and warm then I've ever seen. I had to hide my thoughts lest Edward gave the wind to Alice. I just could not believe what I felt towards a girl that I have never met before. You can easily tell she hates being in the spotlight. Poor thing was sitting next to the vilest girl in this school, Jessica Stanley who wasn't someone I easily could put up with. Especially when she was doing her, I am your friend act because of this girl popularity but only truly holds malice for her. Then I heard her voice it reminded me that sugar and honey the sweetest voice I have ever heard.

"Who are they?" she asked Jessica her voice no louder than a hushed whisper. Who she was asking about in question was in her line of sight as her eye ran across our lunch table. I felt her eye inspect me almost searing my soul under her scrutiny. If I could blush, I probably would have.

Her cunning eyes were sizing us up trying to figure us out in a look, landing on Edward the obvious odd man out in the family. I caught her eye for less than half a second the look she gave me froze me still. Until my bubble popped and she realized Edward was also staring at her. She looks down from embarrassment at being caught looking at a stranger. Edward turned to speak to us, but I was not paying attention in the slightest Jessica was telling her our names and talking about our lives. Luckily she is too dimwitted and has microscopic interests outside herself to realize what we truly are. I looked around noticing that every boy was looking at her with lust oozing off him in buckets. Pretty much most girls were feeling malice like Jessica some felt envy and resentment wishing they got the same amount of attention. Then she asked about Edward, and I felt a twinge of jealousy but tried not to let it show. Jessica starting talking again I began to feel the boredom and start to zone out. A few minutes later, we leave for our classes, but I cannot stop thinking about her how her skin is unusually pale looking as if she were frail as a china doll. How beautiful her hair is and how I want to run up to her and kiss her. Nevertheless, I know it could never be. Alice and I married almost fifty years ago; she was the light that saved me from my gruesome past of power, blood, and self-hatred. I know I love Alice, but it scares me that I love this girl more and I barely know her. To throw away my marriage for her seems Insane In more ways than one. In the hallways, she was the topic of the sheep like boys of this school. They pretty much asked all the same questions. In a school, so little gossip is like a wildfire its spreads fast.

"Who is the new girl with the brown eyes and chestnut-brown hair?" One guy would point to Bella when she was out of earshot looking at her as if she were a goddess divine amongst their midst. While true, I hope they back off her.

"Isabella Swan but she likes being called Bella."

While the guys were, love-struck by her, the girls on the other hand viciously tearing apart Bella her unexpected popularity behind closed doors. "What is so special about her what does she have that I do not?" for most of the girls were whining and complained at her taking the spotlight. Knowing that in a week or two things would fall back to the place and she would take up the background. Moreover, they would be the center of the show again as their rightful place. There is also the rampant malicious spread of rumors of why Bella moved back all of sudden. There was a rumor spread that her mother had attempted to committed suicide was now held up in a mental health ward until she was stable. Another mandatory rumor mongering because of a new student from the big city because of Bella supposed drug abuse. The most disturbing being allude to her being an outright whore, and that's why she was moved back here where her father can keep an eye on her. For the entire insistent whine from the forks high population, I felt so angry on her behalf I was close to tearing the girls head off.

They pretty much responded the same way in every case. Bella that name fits her so well. Going to class, I felt as If I would die from the boredom going over the same coursework it becomes tedious the hundredth time you've done it. However, my mind never stopped thinking of her. From That day on even after Edward ran away for the rest of that week after smelling her next to him that the first day. I did not think of him much still. In the end, seeing how their love for each other has grown. It pained but I could anything. The issue with James and trying to protect Bella from him being the closest thing to alone time with her I have ever had. Seeing Edward saving her countless of times before and her saving him from his suicide mission In Volterra, Italy. Even though he left her alone for half a year broken and a shell of whom she was, I could see that. Also, it was my fault that she had that pain in her heart. It is my fault she still has a fear of him leaving her. In the end, it is my fault; she had to turn to werewolves for friendship and her safety. Thankfully, she has pretty safe now the war is over, and she is safe for now. That I stay away from her because I love her and I wanted to show her. However, I cannot agree with Edward always around. I just wish we could try to have some alone time. I looked around I was deep in the woods, and I knew I needed to get home before there they started getting worried. It was dark enough that I knew all the humans were sleeping and no one could be here or on the roads. So I ran home as quickly as possible maybe Emmett wants to get competitive tonight or something. The lights were on, as usual, the house seems peacefully happy. I open the door I see Emmett and Rosalie together on the couch cuddling and sneaking kisses. Bella was lying curled up In Edwards lap getting close to sleep Edward was talking to Alice about something while holding her.I went over to do the TV which wasn't even on I lowered the volume and put In Fight Night Round 3 turned on the x-box 360.

"So Jasper, are you trying to get your ass kick in this game?" Emmett said breaking away from Rosalie as he said spark of Competitive spirit in his eye like when we test our limits in the wilderness.

"No cause I'm going to win." Know all too well that Emmett was dead in the water for all the bravado he shows he would crumble like a house of cards if his wife tries to tempt him.

I know I will come on, Rose will distract him the time, I thought to myself. As we were, start to get into the game I knew Edward had taken Bella to their room so she can sleep. Then I notice somebody was tapping my shoulder; then after a whole minute of the tapping, I sighed. Turned and Alice was behind me, and she was annoyed. She pointed up and went to our room without a word.

"Oh you're so dead Jasper, Alice can't even speak to you, run away while you got the chance," Emmett said laughing at me. Rosalie slapped him behind the head.

"Don't give him any Idea Emmett or you're going end up in worse trouble than him." Alice snarled menacingly.

"You better go before Alice comes and drags you out here herself," Rosalie said trying to save me from even consequences.

I walked up stair praying she would not kill me when I got there. When I open the door Alice was still steaming mad; she pointed at the spot next to her on the bed. I sat down trying to calm down Alice, but I knew it would not work.

"Jasper I wanted to tell you something that's Important, and you Ignore me. You are lucky I am not hitting you. We're going hunting for a week, and you're staying behind to watch Bella since you just hunted a few days ago."

"Okay," I said defeated.

"We're leaving here in the morning after she's had breakfast." Edward said his voice a bit deadpan at the thought." I will have to give you the rules for her. Don't let her out of your sight or let her go to La Push." His voice almost had a steel edge to it.

I nodded. I just lay on the bed just thinking of my past of all the mistakes of my weakness until morning. Thinking of all the people whose lives I have taken in my past.

"Jasper will you stop moping can come down and say goodbye to us!" Emmett bellowed from downstairs.

I came downstairs looking forlorn from my thoughts.

"Bye Jasper takes a picture of Bella If she falls for me." Emmett was laughing at that the idea until Edward growled murderously and looked at Bella I can understand. Stalked out of the house and goes to the jeep.

"Bye Jasper," said Rosalie looking at herself in a mirror before going to the jeep.

How self-absorbed can Rosalie be?

"She would be too wrapped in herself to notice anyone else, pretty much all the time if we let her," Edward said with a smirk.

Thank God for Bella I f not we will still have gloomy Edward who does not smile and Ignores the world around him.

"Yeah, I'm grateful too," Edward said peacefully.

"Bye Alice doesn't attack any more stores with a credit card," I say joking knowing Alice she will probably buy out a store for the hell of it.

"I won't I promise, goodbye Jazzy." She crossed the room to give me what I think she believes was an affection hug but lacked that familiarity. Like two strangers hugging but the other person doesn't realize it awkward for the other.

She kissed me passionately. However, I barely feel a hint of the magic that once there. I try to keep this charade lest everyone realize the worst.

"Jasper keeps your tongue mouth I have to tell you the rules don't let Bella go to la push; if she wants to go anywhere outside she has to be with you and …"

"Wait a minute do I look like I'm five to you, Edward? I can take care of myself." Bella said looking pissed off and ready to blow a fuse, at the idea of needing a babysitter, I honestly cannot blame her. "Bella you can barely leave town without someone trying to harm or you hurting yourself, can you please listen, love."

"All right but you're going to suffer when you get back trust me." By the look on her face and words, I was scared for Edward.

His emotions screamed terrified. I sent calm waves his way to relax him.

"Thank you like I was saying before if you do run out of food which I doubt, Bella knows where the market is. Just drive her there and help get what she needs. Keep her safe "Bella during all this is silently is giving Edward a death glare for treating her like an infant.

"Bella don't be mad at me, Alice is going to make me take part of all the plans for the wedding that's punishment enough and it was supposed to be you, but I knew you need a break."

Bella looked at him with so much surprise she gave him such a passionate kiss that he was trembling from It.

He gasped "Bye Bella."

He ran out in fearing for the worse as always. When I heard the running Jeep 150 mph, I knew his thirst was an inch away from out of control. "So what do you want to do Bella?" I asked. "I want to…."

Final Note: Yes this chapter was edited for the first time since it was submitted! I always do editing, but this site doesn't allow me the quick edits like ao3 my preferred site because i can do a quick edit without taking months to finish them up.