So i was going to post Skin, however it turns out for you to understand some of what i've written and the actions between Sam, Jude and Dean in this chapter you need to know how in my mind Sam left to go to Stanford in the first place.

I'm Leaving

Jude: 17
Sam: 18
Dean: 22

Jude hastily smoothed her skirt down, once again taking out the mirror from her bag and checking her reflection. This was just one of many times she had checked her lipstick, mascara and all other possibly smudged or wonky items on her person. Taking a deep breath she walked the final steps to the motel room she was staying in, she could hear the shouting before she even got to the door. It wasn't shouting either not anymore, it was screaming. To a decibel that couldn't be good for her ears never mind the people inside the room. Carefully she inserted the key in the door and pushed it open. Eyes widening at the sight in front of her. Dean and John were stood on one side of the room, both red in the face and obviously furious. Sam was on the other just as furious, only he had his bag on his shoulder. Obviously packed, and zipped. All pairs of eyes turned to her and she took a step back out of the door.

"I'll go to my own room" she said, backing out.

"NO" Sam shouted. "Come back here Jude"

Sam had never shouted at her in the full time she had been with the Winchesters. It made her flinch slightly. It was Dean's job to shout and rage at her, only when John had finished though. But she obediently came into the room and closed the door behind her. Walking over to the three men, and standing in the middle. No one spoke, so eventually she had to "What's going on?"

If it was possible the tension in the room went up considerably just while she was asking her question. She first looked at John who was for once lost for words, he just stared at Sam fuming. What had Sam done, and why was he packed. She looked at Dean next "Dean, what's happening"

At her voice Dean's eyes snapped from Sam to her. Softening slightly as he looked down at Jude. "Ask him" he said, nodding towards Sam. Jude finally reluctantly turned to Sam. "Sam" she asked quietly "What's happened, what are you doing"

Sam looked down at Jude, out of all of them in that room he was the only one of them that saw the differences in her. They were subtle but there. Her hair was in a slightly different style than what it was when she went out, her skirt was creased at the back, a rip could be seen in the left leg of her tights, her bra strap was showing on the right hand side and her eyes were still flushed and bright. He knew then looking at her that he had made the right decision.

"I'm leaving Jude" he said softly.

Jude knew she flinched again taking a step back towards dean. She shook her head and looked down at the floor, before back at him. "What do you mean your leaving"

"I got into college. Stanford, and I'm going"

Jude took another step back, so she was now in line with Dean and John. "Your leaving me" she whispered to herself more than to the other three in the room. "Everyone always leaves me"

"I'm not leaving you Jude" Sam insisted, taking a step towards her. "I'm not leaving any of you, I just want to go to college, to have a life other than this one"

Jude couldn't take in any of this, Sam was leaving, he was abandoning her. Just like her family had. She always managed to repel the people she loved the most. What was it about her that made people leave. She felt the tears come to her eyes, and suddenly her night wasn't quite as perfect as it had been.

"It's the same thing Sam" Dean hissed out. "Your leaving your family when they need you. You never do that"

"I'm not leaving YOU" Sam shouted. "I just want a life. A life that doesn't involve living in motel rooms, and shooting things. I want a house, a relationship. I just want something normal"

"Were not normal though Sam. Who wants to be normal, when you can be us" Dean shouted back. He obviously had no idea where Sam was coming from.

"I want to be normal Dean" Sam whispered, his anger changed to depression. Jude hung her head low. It was the depression that had sealed the deal. If he had just been angry she could maybe have convinced him to stay. But depression was serious. He didn't want to stay.

"I can't do this" she said, before pushing past all the men and running to the bathroom, slamming the door behind her. She heard the men shouting again.

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John glared at his youngest son. "Look what you've done know Sammy. Can't you see what this will do to her"

Sam shook his head. "She'll be alright. She knows that I'm not leaving her"

"No Sam she doesn't" dean said quietly, suddenly not angry himself anymore. "How would she. All Jude's ever known is people walking away from her. How is she meant to know that you walking away from her isn't just another person that she's pushed away"

Sam frowned at dean's words. He didn't even know his brother could be as sensitive to another's feelings as he just was towards Jude. Oh he knew that dean would do anything for them, but he thought it was just obligation. His thoughts flipped to Jude again, she had been to that boy tonight, the one she had met at school the first week they had been here, and he didn't think that they had spent all night talking. Jealously coiled through him. He had to leave because of that as well. Jude didn't want him, not that way anyway. "She'll get over it" he said.

Dean sighed in disgust before pushing past his dad and following Jude. Sam watched as Dean banged on the bathroom door. There was no answer. "Jude baby, it's dean let me in" Sam would have put money and Jude continuing to ignore Dean but apparently he didn't know her that well because the door was opened and dean vanished. Sam hung his head and clutched the straps of his bag tighter.

"they have a relationship as well Sam" John said. Making Sam look up again. "Did you think you were the only one Jude talked to"

Sam didn't answer but he knew his dad knew that his answer would have been yes. He had thought he was the only one Jude talked to in this family.

"You'll tear this family apart Sam" John said, his voice had levelled off to a normal level. A knock on the door interrupted them, Sam walked over to find the taxi he had booked.

"Taxi for Sam Winchester" the man at the door said.

"Sam" Sam looked back at John. "If you leave don't bother coming back" and with that john turned away from him and went over to the kitchen. Sam took one more look at the bathroom door where Jude and Dean had vanished, before he walked out of the door shutting it behind him.

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Jude carefully opened the door letting dean into the bathroom with her, before she crawled back to her spot in the corner leaning against the bath. Dean shut the door and came and sat next to her. He didn't say anything just took her hand and held it tight. The silence was what set her off, she let out the tears she had been holding back. Sobbing she crawled onto dean, burying her head in his chest. Dean obligingly opened his arms and held her tight to him, stroking her hair and whispering soothing noises in her ear.

"It's alright baby, calm down. Come on calm down" he said, Jude sniffed and pulled back to look up at dean.

"Why do they always leave me Dean" she whispered. Her voice still rough from crying.

"He really isn't leaving you Jude. I know it feels like that, hell I feel like that, but it isn't you he's trying to escape"

Jude wiped her face, coming away with black streaks on her hands. Ironic really after she had spent so long trying to get herself to look normal again after tonight. She couldn't help the laughter coming out. Dean frowned. "What's funny"

She looked up at him again. "You have no idea how long I spent fussing over this tonight making sure I looked presentable before I came back home" she only realised what she had said when Dean's frown turned angry. Hastily she scrambled off his knee and back to her corner.

"Jude" dean said dangerously. "What have you done"

She looked up at him trying for innocent smile "Nothing"

"I don't believe you. You haven't got it in you to lie kid, and quite honestly you suck at it when you do try. So what have you done"

God how did she get out of this one. It wasn't exactly the kind of thing you told the boy who acted like your big brother. It wasn't the sort of thing you told anyone but your best friend. So you could compare techniques. Jude knew she had no intention of telling Dean she had had sex for the first time tonight. He would hit the roof. Why had she even bothered coming home, tonight. All she had got was Sam her best friend leaving and a inquisition from dean.

"Seriously Dean, I haven't done anything" she knew he didn't believe her so she added on "I haven't done anything that you haven't done or wouldn't do"

Dean still didn't look happy. "that doesn't rule out a lot of things that I would kill people for doing to you" he said unhappily. "Who were you with tonight" he asked suspiciously. Jude bit her lip before muttering "Jake"

Dean's eyes widened and understanding dawned in his eyes. Jude had a horrible feeling that that understanding was of exactly what she had been doing tonight with Jake. Finally after staying silent for a long time dean asked again. "Did he… hurt you"

Jude felt the blush flow freely up her neck and onto her cheeks. "no" she mumbled. That wasn't the truth either, it had hurt a bit to start with.

"Ur… um.. good" Dean stated, himself embarrassed with this conversation, and where it had ended up.

"Dean do you think Sam will really leave" Jude suddenly asked. Dean looked up at her again, staring her straight in the eye.

"Do you want me to be honest with you Jude, or supportive and big brotherish"

Jude thought about it for a moment before answering "Honest"

Dean nodded "He'll leave. It's been brewing for a while now. Sam needs to feel normal he craves normal. He isn't like me and you, were more like dad. But Sam he wants white picket fences and 2.5 children. Sam wants ordinary, dull even boring." dean leaned over and grabbed her hand and pulled her back to his knee. Carefully Jude climbed back onto his lap resting her head back on his chest.

"However that doesn't mean he loves you any less. He'll always love you Jude and he isn't leaving you never to see you again. You will see him again. Trust me ok"

Jude nodded into his chest. "I trust you" Dean dropped a quick kiss on the top of her head and then they stayed like that on the bathroom floor until john appeared the look on his face enough to tell them that Sam had indeed left. Jude couldn't help but start crying again. John just looked uncomfortable nodded his head at his son and then left Dean to deal with the hysterical Jude.

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So hopefully now i've posted this i'll skin up sometime next week. before that however let me now what you think of this one. :)