Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or any of its series of books which are creations by the wonderful Stephanie Meyer.

My first fanfic so not too harsh, but flames are allowed. So here we go!

I crouched as I got ready to pounce on my prey. When I was ready I sprung and hit my target. The defencless mountain lion didn't know what hit it and its struggles were minimal. I hadn't hunted in a while ,especially mountain lion, which used to be his favorite. But I knew I shouldn't go too much longer I could be dangerous if a human should come near me.

Since he left me almost anything that he ever even touched scared me, but I still loved the memories, even though they made my dead heart ache to the core.

After I had my fill of the creature I hid it and made my way home. The hidden pathway to the house hadn't been cleared in years, I liked it , that way humans couldn't come near my hiding place. I had only the slightest of clues to why I lived here, I tried to convince myself that I liked it because it was hidden and I couldn't cause any harm to the people of forks. But I knew in my heart it was because it was one of the things that I had left of him and of his family. They said that their human memories were gone or at least faded into oblivion , but mine were still almost fresh. If they faded I would have at last the sanctuary were I didn't have my painful memories of he and his family. If my memories were gone I would be with Laurent in Denali with the clan of us up there. But I'm grateful I have them I guess, at least I know that I shouldn't hunt the humans. And I have my memories of My parents and friends, but most importantly I have my memories of us. Me and Edward. I know he didn't love me, it would be impossible for my Adonis to love me. Even so ,I do still love him he brought life to my boring life in forks and gave it the light that never shows here. He gave me life.

I couldn't think about it anymore, it would lead me to those three days of unbearable pain that I had to suffer with Laurent venom running through my vains , the days of my transformation.