I Do not own Twilight

AN: Emo means emotional. This story in some ways reflects how I feel. But some is made off of people I know and how they feel. I do not want any one saying this is so fake. It is not. This is how I feel inside and many others feel too. I my self am not a cutter I do not cut my self. Never have and never will.

-EmoNaom1901-

1: Bad Luck Come True

BPOV:

I can't take it any more! Every thing I own reminds me of him. My window, my bed and even my tan sweater. Why did he leave me why?

Life pretty much stinks. But one thing is certain the world is filed with misery and pain, too much pain to handle. I look down at my scared wrists and, know I am only to blame.

I can't stop though. No I just cant I hurts too much to stop I need my scars for comfort. No one likes me. I am known as Emo Queen in school. All my friends abandoned me. I guess that is my fault too.

I sit in my corner behind my couch so Charlie wont see me if he comes in. I roll up my sleeve exposing my arm. I Start scratching my arm hard with my long nail leaving long red marks behind.

Just then I hear something at my window. What ever it was it was now in my room. I look to see what it was. But it was too dark to see anything or whatever was.

"Bella?" I heard a voice ask. No it couldn't be him could it?

"Edward? Why are you here why?" I cried suddenly bursting into tears.

"I came back Bella. You didn't really think I would leave you forever did you? I Said I loved you and only you. Didn't you believe me?"

"Well……… Actually…. No I didn't. Well I did but I thought. You loved me too much to leave. So on that account I came up with whole lot of excuse of why you left." I whispered barely catching my breath. "Want to hear them? Or do you want to do something else?" I snapped at him, surprised by my sudden tone of voice. I had never been mad at Edward. Disappointed but not necessarily mad. Not even the day we "met".

Edward's warm velvet voice made me come back to reality.

"Bella. Listen to me. Please I love you. Will you ever forgive me? I left because I thought I was ruining your life. You know………..I wanted you too be able to grow up, have a family, maybe even kids. I want you to be happy. I wanted you to live the life I could never give you." Edward chocked. Stuttering on the last few words.

How could I stay made at him like this how? He wanted me to be safe. But He had let me down and I can't let him win. Can I, I was defiantly going to consult Alice.

I was about to answer when I heard my window shutting. He was gone into the night. It was like he had never been in my room. Like he had never existed.

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