Dear Senpai, Remember Me?

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(Session#9: His story, her story III)

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(part 1-her story, Anko's perspective)

You know that when you're young, your world was in clear black and white, and you could definitely suss out the bad guys from the good. All you had to do was see what the other people said, the things the bad guy said and did. And the bad guys were mostly, ugly.

So convenient.

It was so easy to hate the bad guy.

But as you grow up, things change. There's never black and white. Instead, there are million, billion, trillion subtle shades of gray, a spectrum that melts into itself in a hollow line of reality.

So what if the bad guy was also the good guy?

So what if the bad guy was good looking and smart as hell to boot?

So what if despite all the 'bad' things he did, despite whatever shit the others said, despite what he's done to you… it was impossible to condemn him for that?

What if…

What if the bad guy, turned out to be, the good guy?

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He was supposedly uncouth, had a trashy mouth with a trashy reputation, save only by the fact that he was filthy rich and too smart for his own good. The teacher might have shirked from having to 'chastise' him, but they could not help but acknowledge the guy's amazing talents; he didn't look like he studied, but he came out top in almost everything.

The first time I saw him, he was listening to his IPod, humming along…in class. Blatantly brazen.

Mrs. Kobayashi seemed plenty pissed; judging by the look of her face, she'd already blown a capillary or two. I was part of the school student council—entirely due to the fact that I was Akemi, Mrs. Popular's little sister—and had come to make a small announcement…about some school policy or something boring like that.

And there he was, at the back of the room, sitting beside Obito senpai, whom I'd known since childhood. I used to think it was queer that someone as sweet as Obito senpai went around with the guy that had one of the worst reputations in school. Just, uncanny.

"Mrs. Kobayashi, this is Anko from SC. I'm here to make an announ…"

She waved without looking at me as if she couldn't wait to get rid of the class. She plopped down on her chair and let out a huge sigh, and I suddenly had 21 pairs of eyes staring at me expectantly. 21 pairs of eyes that belonged to senpais. Obito senpai smiled at me, cringing as if he knew how embarrassing it was to stand there and speak.

"Uh, this is an announcement from Coach Takahashi; the annual inter-school basketball championship is coming near, and he demands the presence of the team in his office, right now—, I was told he already informed you on this matter…So, please, if Masashi san, Genzo san and…Hatake san would follow me. "

I flinched when I read the name Hatake Kakashi.

I had heard so many rumors—of course, not all would be true, unless he really was a heroin pusher—and was wary enough to stay away. But I was also curious enough to check if some other rumors were true. Akemi nechan always crooned to me, convulsing with conspiratory laughter, that there was a 'bad' boy in her grade that had 'the cutest damn ass ever'. Then, I'd thought 'that' boy would be some brawny jock with no brains…imagine my surprise when he turned out to be the school's infamous 'popular' outcast: Hatake Kakashi.

I let my eyes linger as he languidly walked down the aisle…yep. Nice ass.

Shameful, yes. But I'm only human.

"Oi kid, you're Akemi's sister, ain't ya? "

The big brawny guy that was supposedly called Genzo asked me, jeering. I almost turned back and flipped him a birdy—how many times did I have to go through that? It seemed as if everyone was out to tell me; you're just Akemi's little sister…what was your name again?

"…yes. I'm Anko. "

I spoke forcefully, emphasizing the 'Anko' part. The guy looked baffled, looking at me as if I was slightly nutty, but then I caught Kakashi's eyes. He—ever so flamboyantly indifferent—was suddenly looking at me with somewhat recognition. He wasn't smiling at all, and his expression had the quality of a dead tree, but he somehow seemed amused.

Pray tell he wasn't thinking of my sister's hot body, Jesus Christ, enough of that.

"Yo, Masashi, ya heard? The coach was thinking about leaving out one guy. "

Of course, after that initial 'hey, it's Akemi's sister' response, the boys started to talk among themselves as they followed me.

"Fuck, no way. After all this training and shit, he dares do that? Come on. "

"I'm being serious; I think that's why he was callin' us up for and all. To pick among us? "

Except Hatake san. He still had the earphones plugged to his head, not bothering to speak with anyone else. I wondered how he even got into the team; it didn't seem like he'd be exactly awesome with teamwork, no matter how talented he was. As I listened unwillingly to the boys banter, I could not help but think, 'If coach Taka leaves out anyone, it's gotta be Hatake Kakashi. He'd never fit in. '

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To my surprise, it was Genzo Hiroshi who got kicked out.

Hatake Kakashi played along with the team—reasonably well, since the teamwork flowed flawlessly—and our school came out top in the district tournament. I never really went to the games, though for some reason, I was quite…willing. It was Akemi who always attended the game, returning with gushing stories about, "Remember that guy I told you about? Man, he's getting hotter everyday, brrr! "

Granted, she was a cheerleader and all, but I thought her obsession was slightly…too much. It almost made me wonder if she wanted to break up with her current boyfriend and jump into Hatake's open arms…those well shaped arms. Huh.

That image, for some reason, irked me a lot. Quite a lot.

"Anko, you hear me? I 'said', I'm going to Rin's party, and you are coming with me. "

"…what?! "

Ironically enough, if there was anyone who actually assisted in my soon-to-come hopeless crush on Hatake Kakashi, it was Akemi.

"What're you on about? I'm not going to any party…I have a test coming up! "

Akemi scoffed, applying mascara on her lashes.

"Screw the test girl, you're such a nerd! You need to have some fun while you're still young… I mean, why do you 'still' lack a boyfriend? You're not bad looking, you're actually cute…which means, you're not trying at all. "

Akemi in her infuriating ways, did care about me—or more likely cared about my social status—so she dragged me along to this weird extravaganza party Rin senpai threw. Yes, 'the' Rin senpai, the debutante with countless admirers…for her money, if not for her appearance. I happened to be quite close to her, because she was the vice president in the student council. She considered me a little sister or summat… anyways, I did have every reason to be at the party. But I didn't really want to 'be' there, all that fancy stuff, until I saw someone among the throngs of dancing people, standing aloof and sullenly by himself…if himself could equal girls surrounding him like flies.

"Ka-ka-shi~!! "

Imagine my surprise when I found Rin senpai right there among those girls standing by him, practically slobbering over him. I found Obito senpai standing a few feet away, with an unfathomable expression on his face, cringing. Then I remembered: Obito senpai likes Rin senpai.

But Rin senpai likes Hatake Kakashi?!

"Okay, circulate, circulate! I'll meet you up in about an hour…if I'm not too drunk! Have you found anyone to hang with? "

Akemi ditzily giggled into my ears, her waist encircled by the arm of a senpai that was the captain of…I dunno, some stupid sports thing. I frowned, thinking I'd slip away after Akemi left me.

"Uh…yes, I've g…"

"Ooh, Anko! Akemi! You came! "

Damn.

Rin senpai was waving crazily at me. In one of her hands was a glass of champagne, and she seemed ever so slightly soused up. But maybe that was because her arm was slinked around Kakashi's waist. I don't know if he was pretending not to notice, but he seemed pretty indifferent…Obito senpai was suddenly gone.

I knew he saw that, I knew that's why he left….

"Ooh goody. Hang with Rin for a while, she knows everyone. Maybe you'd get a guy! See ya later. "

Akemi, after waving prettily to Rin senpai, flounced off with her guy.

And I was stuck with Rin senpai. And him.

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"…hey. "

He made no response; almost as if he did not recognize me at all. It was Rin senpai who was hugging my and cuddling me, almost as if I was a long-lost teddy bear she'd found in the old toy's rack.

"Anko! You're getting pretty sweet! I 'knew' you'd lose that tomboy look one day… you look awesome, sweetie! "

"A..haha…thanks Rin nechan. "

Thanks to god—I saw she had finally taken her arm off Hatake's waist, but it was only to lift it up against his shoulder. He seemed to not notice at all—or in other words, ignoring it—until he saw me glare at him as if I would cut his throat. I was still incensed about poor Obito senpai's dillemma...it must be terrible to have a best friend who attracted girls like honey to bees...especially with a girl he liked since kinders. At my intensity of glowering, Hatake Kakashi raised his brow, then leaned over to Rin senpai and whispered something in her ears. She giggled.

"Ooh, sure! Of course I can, I'm the host aren't I? "

She suddenly poked me in the back with her immaculate manicured nails and simpered:

"I'll just go have a talk with the DJ; Kakashi here wants something a little more upbeat… keep an eye on him for me, will ya? God knows he slinks off easy…"

With that, she flounced off in the exact same wishy washy manner my sister utilized. And I was kind of…left alone with Hatake Kakashi.

And he spoke to me.

"She's gone, so you can take off that phony good-kid simper and tell me what problem you got with me. "

"I….uh…"

I was taken aback; I had been hoping he hadn't noticed me glaring at him...though it probably was hard 'not to'… He wasn't looking at me, but I assumed he required an answer since his crossed arm jerked at me once irritably, as if to hurry me on. From way ahead in the throng of crowd stood Rin senpai, chatting away with the DJ.

Rin senpai with her arm around this guy, and Obito senpai's face…

I frowned, motivated by the image.

"I don't know if it's my place to say this…and I don't know if 'you' noticed, but since Obito senpai is your closest friend… "

He shifted and looked at me right in the eye for the first time, looking slightly alarmed that Obito senpai's name came up. I attempted to scowl and spoke hurriedly.

"If you haven't noticed, Obito senpai happens to like Rin senpai…'a lot'…and I don't think you really like her…or even have respect for her for that matter. If that's so, back off from her and give some space for Obito senpai. He, unlike you, has a heart. He, unlike you, is not a brainless fuc…jerk. "

I couldn't believe I said that.

I couldn't believe I fucking 'said' that to…Hatake Kakashi.

And I couldn't believe he starting laughing.

"Uh….um…"

The bunch of girls around him glared at me, as if it was wrong for me to make him laugh…but I seriously did not get why he was even laughing.

"…thanks, kid, for the lecture. You're really…blatant, you get that? "

His peals of laughter died down as he spoke, smiling a little, and for the first time since I've seen him, I thought he looked kind. Well, I've known he was good-looking since Akemi always croons to me about his perfect damn face, and I remorsefully had to agree....but I've never seen his eyes crinkle like that, so I'd always assumed that grayish black eyes were steely and severe, contemptuously bored.

Turns out it could smile as well.

"…well…uh, then… I'll be going! "

I force out the words stiffly, half wishing myself dead with embarrassment—it would have been much better if he'd been angry—but there was suddenly a warm hand on my shoulders, beckoning me to come back. I feel like a wooden block, but manage to stop.

"Wait a second, before you go. What was your name? "

The nerve of him?!

I turned back in indignation—he'd heard my name before, I knew he did! And he even said it in a slightly jokey tone.... I'm about the holler "It's Anko you damn fuck, and I'm not 'oh, akemi's sister? '!! "…but then I spot Rin senpai coming towards our direction, smiling and looking even tipsier. There is no way I can be rude to him now, not if I want to be in Rin senpai's good books… Exasperatingly enough, Hatake Kakashi looked 'amused' as if he knew about my little dilemma.

"My name…is Anko. "

He was still eyeing me expectantly, as if I was about to jump into his arms and scream, "You're so fucking hot!!"… which scarily enough, I was tempted to do—who wouldn't after seeing him 'smile' like that? But I restrained, and gave Rin senpai a loud stupid phony good-kid sister smile.

"Hey, um…Rin nechan, I don't feel so good…uh, so I'll be leaving. Can you tell Akemi I went home later on? "

"What, leaving already? Are you like, crazy? What a party pooper…still, I'll give you a break since I like you. "

…did I mention, Rin senpai could be just a slightest bit of a bitch.

"Well kay then, see you later, Anko, love ya! "

I nodded with a bright smile, phony of course, until I accidentally met Kakashi's eyes. He was mouthing:

'...Akemi's sister. '

…th…that bastard!!!

I mouthed back.

'Brainless fuck. '

…and turning away, regretfully, I understood I had the hugest fucking crush on Hatake Kakashi.

Seriously.

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(bloodiedsugs's words on DS—

Um. Slightly lighter tone for this one… I don't know…some of my stories are dying lol, I swear. I'll try.

Sorry 'bout the late update =)

Bear with me. )