Jacob

I could feel myself waking up, but I didn't want to. I felt more comfortable than I have had in a long time. So I snuggled deeper into the warm arms surrounding me… really warm… hot even. OMG. Jacob! I sat up in an unfamiliar bed and felt Jacob stir next to me.

"Hey gorgeous. Sleep well?" He said with a playful smirk.

I looked at him with horror filled eyes. I could feel my bare skin against the sheets so I had no doubts on what we had done. But how did this happen? Why didn't I remember?

"What happened last night?" I asked Jacob.

"I think its kindda obvious what happened." He joked. A huge grin covered his face. Panic started bubbling in my chest. "I guess the drinks make your memory kindda hazy. Hmm. Well there was a party. My birthday party actually. And well there were some drinks. We both had a few. Then we came here."

I jumped out of bed, grabbing the top sheet for a cover. As I backed away from that evil bed my back hit the wall. How could I have betrayed my heart? I know he (I still couldn't say his name) left me, and no longer loved me, but my feelings would never change. And Jacob was never more than a brother to me, a best friend that I could always rely on.

"I'm sorry Jacob, but this was a mistake." Hurt filled his eyes as I said this. I looked at the ugly hotel carpet, to avoid those sad eyes. I saw my clothes scattered across it. I started gathering them up as his stunned silence filled the room. As I picked up my shoes, which were near the bed, Jacob caught my arm.

"What do you mean a mistake?" venom filled his voice. "I asked you last night if this was what you wanted. And you said yes. How could that be a mistake?" he was yelling by the end. I just hung my head in shame.

"I'm sorry." I took a quick look at him. It was a mistake, his face was filled with such hurt it made the tears I was holding back spill over. "I'm really sorry. But I might have had one drink too many. I really don't remember coming here and if I did tell you it was okay, then I must have been a little confused. This isn't how I want us to be."

"You know what… fine." He spat "I'm done waiting for you Bella. You know I don't want you just as a friend. And even after all this time, you can't seem to get over Cullen," He made the name sound like a disease. "Don't ever come to see me again unless you want something I can give you."

My tears were pouring down my cheeks now. But when I tried to talk he lifted his hand to stop me.

"No Bella. We can't be friends anymore. We're just too complicated." Then he turned his back on me and fell back to sleep.

I sat there for a while just watching him breathe. Finally I got dressed and left my best friend/ potential love (if I would ever let him) forever.