A/N Hey guys! I am now editing this horrible bundle of words I called a fanfiction. And I am so close to being able to update! So… Hopefully this will be better.

I looked over at the flock. They where sitting around the fire with Rose. Fang sitting next to her smiling, he smiles more now with her then he ever did with me, everyone else was laughing. The flock seemed to be having a good time, you know ignoring the fact that I'm not with them laughing enjoying the good times they're having. That I am just sitting at the trunk of a tree watching them enjoy themselves while I silently suffer.

I looked up, the moon was high in the sky now. I'm guess it was about midnight.

"Come on guys lets get to bed I'll take first watch" Rose yawned. Yes, I said Rose, technically I was still leader but they take orders from her, obviously they think that she is the new leader. The almighty Dictator Half the time it is like I don't exist. I can't even go to Fang to tell him what is going on anymore, he is part of the problem. I don't think I have really talked to anybody from the flock in a while now.

I laid down in the shadows and watched Rose walk up to her spot next to fang and kiss him.

"Night fang sleep well" she whispered to him as he curled up and fell asleep.

That's it I can't take this.

I stood up and ran into the forest, once I got to a clearing I unfurled my wings and took off going into hyper drive I flew off into the night. Flying has always calmed me down.

I watched the landscape below me change rapidly as I glided over fields, cities and ranches. Really I had no idea where I was, what state what city, but that didn't really matter. It's not like we actually have a destination. Rose just leads us wherever the hell she wants making the others think that she has a well thought out plan, but she doesn't. She never does, which is why our luck is quickly running out. We've run into more battles lately, the flock doesn't care though. As long as Rose is around they never will.

When I didn't feel like ripping roses throat out I turned around started flying back I spotted the clearing I took off from and landed. Quietly I walked back to my sleeping spot in the shadows and collapsed, fell asleep.

I awoke to someone shaking my shoulder, Fang.

"Your watch," I sat up and tried mentally waking my self up. I did a quick scan of the area Fang walked away, looking more like a shadow then a person. He lay back down next to rose, and Rose herself fast asleep with a smile on her face.

I just can take this anymore, my own family taking leadership from some half stranger we barely even know. And my one true love falling for her as soon as their eye met. It's like I never existed, like I don't belong with them anymore. I Looked around once more, taking in the sight of everyone sleeping close to Rose, like she was their security blanket.

Why would they care If I left, Would they even notice that I was gone?

I started silently gathering my things, shoving all my belongings in my backpack.

If I'm not the leader anymore, if they rather have someone besides me, then I'm gone.

Max don't be so rash. Don't leave them they still need you.

Shut up voice! I can do whatever the hell I want and don't think a stupid brain attack is going to stop me, I rather have that pain over this any day.

I got a piece of paper and a pen out of my bag and started writing

Dear flock,

I can tell you guys don't want me here anymore. You would rather have Rose. If you do want me to stay you have a horrible way of showing it. You act like I'm not here, like I never even existed. You trust her more then you would ever trust me even though we just met her. She has no idea on what she's doing but you follow her like a pack of lost puppies. Now it doesn't matter to me. If you want to be her stupid mindless dogs then go ahead, don't come running to me when your world comes crashing down on you. Actually you won't be able to come running to me because I'll be gone, long gone. I loved you all, especially you Fang but now, I don't know. Don't expect to see me again, I'm off to find some place where I can finally belong because that isn't with you anymore.

~Max

I finished the letter with tears running down my cheeks and spilling over onto the paper. Folded it up and left it over by where everybody's packs where. I swung mine onto my shoulder and flew off. Suddenly a song popped into my head.

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

Chorus
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

Repeat Chorus

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

Repeat Chorus

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

Maybe I could find somewhere I belong