Disclaimer I own no quotes taken from Stephanie meyer lol gotta love that author or any of the characters sadly if I would I wouldn't be sitting attempting to write fan fiction but oh well.
Songs used for story – come on by Ben jelen , only hope by mandy moore, your guardian angel by red jumpsuit apparatus, broken by seether, wonderwall by oasis, keep holding on avril lavigne, story of a girl and heavily broken by the veronicas.
Chapter 1 ………….forbidden memories……….
Troy watched as the rain ran down his window sill, something he did often now days. He wished that all his problems could just wash away with the rain and they could be forgotten but nothing could change what already happened…..
Flash back
Troy ran up the steps to Gabriella's house shoving his hands in his pockets and feeling for the small box. He slowly walked the rest of the way to the door and knocked lightly.
His nerves soared when he saw her- her hair cascading town to the middle of her shoulder blades in waves and turning into small ringlets at the bottom. he smiled shyly at her and she smiled back it was the start of the holidays and troy wanted to take her out and claim her as his before they all left for different colleges .that's when he noticed how pale and small she was- much skinnier than before- he looked up into her chocolate coloured eyes and saw they were ringed with red.
"come in" she said speaking softly
He was brought back down to earth by her voice.
She led them up the stairs to her room and out to the balcony.
"troy I need to talk to you" she looked down at her feet not willing to meet his eyes, she felt miserable, she hated lying it was the one thing she was truly against but she had to do this if she told him the truth it would only hurt him more.
"Go ahead im listening" he encouraged, although he began to feel the worry crash over him in waves also the sadness and hurt. When someone started their sentence off with those words it was never a good thing.
"Troy, i-i- can't do this anymore"
If troy had thought the hurt was bad before it was nothing compared to now he felt like his half of himself was torn out- he was broken. His vision blurred as he walked up to her, he took her hands in his and slowly leaned down his mouth right beside her ear " I love you" he whispered softly the tears falling freely from his eyes with that he left.
Once he was gone Gabriella broke down she couldn't hold it in anymore, sobs wracked through her small exhausted body. "I love you too troy" she whispered inaudibly.
End of flashback
As troy was pulled back to reality he realised he had tears seeping down his cheeks. it had been 3 months now and it never hurt any less. His parents would always talk about him when they thought he couldn't hear saying things like "he acts like someone's died not just left " or "hes not himself anymore hes like a empty shell only replying in one word answers"
This hurt him hugely but no matter how hard he tried no one was fooled.
He sighed before standing up and walking slowly down the stairs…..forbidden to remember terrified to forget ….. He thought to himself. Before he left half heartedly towards his college for basketball practise.