A/N: Inspiration struck me a while ago and I've had this written for a while. I thought it would be a good fanfic. Here's the deal...

Bella was bitten by James one hundred years ago and joined his coven. She can;t really remember why he changed her, or what really happened when she was human. But James tells her she tried to kill herself because of something terrible that happened to her; Bella believes she was betrayed by love. For a whole century, she refuses to get attached to anyone. But, maybe Edward can change that...If Bella can learn to let go of her past...

But when a jealous James feeds Bella more lies will she be able to see through them and trust her heart?

Bella's POV

I've never really understood "love". Or even why people bother. When you love someone, truly love someone... I mean, sure it's nice while it last. It seems romantic. Like nothing in the world could tear you and your beloved apart. You think that it will never end.

But as far as I knew, it always ended. And from my expieriences, the ending was never pleasant. From my past mistakes, I had learned that love could only end in heartbreak or disappointment. I had learned never to trust your heart.

If you don't fully believe this or think I'm cynical, take a look at my human life. Okay, I'll admit I don't remember much about my life before I was changed into a vampire, but James told me everything I needed to know. I believe him too; He's the only one I truly trust in this world. Anyway, one thing I knew for sure about my human life is that my name was Isabella Swan and my father was a police chief. And I knew I was madly in love at the tender age of 17, and engaged to the man of my dreams. At the time, it was perfectly acceptable to be married at such an early age. I couldn't remember what he looked like. Just that he had green eyes.

I remember screaming and kicking against someone, I think I was angry...But after that, nothing.

The next thing I know is that I woke up in a forest, James hovering over me. The rest of my life he told me; My fiance had cheated on me (is that why I screamed and cried?) and that he had saved me from myself. I didn't believe that I was depressed enough to kill myself, but then again, maybe I was...

Ever since then, I'd had flashbacks of my past life, always the same ones. Kicking, screaming, crying...and the most vibrant memory, a pair of strikingly beautiful emerald eyes, staring at me. I knew that these must have been the eyes of my fiance and I knew he must be dead now, but they still haunted me relentlessly. Sometimes, I desperatly wanted to remember what he looked like; Just so I could have something remotely pleasant about my human life; Never mind the fact that he broke my heart. Maybe if I saw him, I could even get angry at him and get over it. I mean, he was dead. I shouldn't be thinking about his eyes...or name.

That's right!! I remembered part of him name... Anthony Masen. I wasn;t sure if there was more to his name or if Anthony was even if middle name or not, but I knew I would have been Mrs. Isabella Masen if he hadn't broken my heart...but I didn't hate him.

I don't know why, but I really didn't hate him. When I thought about him, I didn't hate him like I should...I didn't feel a thing. When I learned not to trust my feelings, I decided to just give up emotions all together. It was just easier that way.

Plus, I was changed shortly before the whole influenza outbreak. So even if Anthony Masen married the girl he was with, they weren't together long. I learned that the Masen family had died out a while ago, when I googled them. I really need to get a life...

But no matter what, my human life will always be a part of me, even Anthony Masen. I may never be able to forget those green eyes...I may never be able to love.

A/N: I know this was short. That's why it's called a preface; This was just some background info on Bella and her life. If you like what you just read, review, tell my what you think and tune in later for the next chapter!! (Feel free to author and story alert me!!)